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Affairs of the Heart	By : CaptainParisStarr Category: G through L > The Infernal Devices (Series) > The Infernal Devices (Series) Views: 2985 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter List
- 1-Jem
- 2-Will
- 3-Colin
- 4-Jem
- 5-Will
- 6-Colin
- 7-Will
- 8-Jem
- 9-Will
- 10-Colin
- 11-Will
- 12-Jem
- 13-Will
- 14-Jem
- 9
- 10
- 11
Two days later, Colin paced anxiously as he waited for Jem to arrive. He was nervous, worried that Will had said no to joining them. He was also worried that he had said yes, or that Jem had been too shy to pass on the invitation.
Truthfully, he had only said yes to inviting Will to join them because he was scared that if he said no Jem would end up cheating on him. He had known from the beginning that there was more than friendship between Jem and Will, and he was jealous of Will. Knowing that Will lived in the same building as Jem only made his jealousy worse, because it meant that they could be screwing around behind his back and he would never know.
He did trust Jem however, and wanted to believe that he'd been telling the truth when he said that Jem had only messed around with Will on one occasion. But he was still scared that it was either a lie...
Or that Will would convince Jem that he would never find out if it was only once. And if he was able to get away with it once...
Pushing the thought away, Colin resumed pacing. He had barely been able to rest since he'd found out that Jem had been sexually active with Will. Especially since it had happened right after Jem's first time in his bed.
Jem's face rose unbidden in his minds eye, the frantic look in his eyes as he'd tried to explain to Colin that it had just been that once, that nothing more had happened- that he hadn't let anything more happen. Yes, Will had asked for more, but he'd never accepted any of those advances...
For the millionth time he wondered if letting Jem have sex with Will was a good idea. Even though he would be watching them. Or maybe especially because he would be watching, because he would also be able to see if Jem was in love with Will. He hoped not, but he was scared that he would lose Jem to the other boy. After all, Will was Jem's best friend, they lived in the same place, and they were both of the race of the Nephilim; Shadowhunters.
Whereas Colin was just an ordinary boy; a mundane, that's what the Shadowhunter world called people like him. He didn't hunt demons or anything cool like that. No, he worked as an apprentice in an accounting firm, which was as close to the exact opposite of exciting as was possible. How could someone like him compete with someone like William Herondale?
He was jerked out of his circling thoughts by the sound of footsteps approaching his door. Slowly, he crossed the room and opened it to see both Jem and Will standing there. Will's eyes darted around, clearly fascinated by his flat, but he was soon too distracted by Jem's kiss to see what Will would do next. When they were like this, when he had Jem in his arms and they were able to kiss and touch, all his doubts seemed to vanish. The way Jem always kissed him made him believe that the silver haired boy really did love him.
Pulling away reluctantly, Colin turned to Will. “Jem explained to you why you were invited here tonight?”
“Yes, something about you liking to watch him with other men.” Will replied, sounding almost bored.
Surprised by Will's tone, Colin studied the dark haired boy's eyes carefully, and realized that he was jealous of him. What it meant that Will was also jealous Colin did not know, nor did he have a chance to ask, as Jem started kissing his ear, hoping to distract him again.
Twisting around, Colin slipped his hands up underneath the hem of Jem's shirt, lightly scratching at the sensitive skin of his lower back. His eyes darted back to Will briefly, wondering if Jem had told his friend that he likes pain. Then he turned his attention to undressing his lover, unbuttoning his shirt and slipping it from his slim shoulders.
After taking a moment to once more admire his lover's beauty, Colin nipped lightly at Jem's shoulders, before crouching down and taking a nipple into his mouth. Biting harder, he pulled the bud away as far as it would go, then let it snap back, massaging it with his tongue afterwards to sooth the pain.
“How was that?” He asked, needlessly since he already knew that Jem had enjoyed it. Glancing up when he did not get a verbal response, he realized that his lover's eyes were no longer on him, but on Will. Jealousy spiked hotly through his body, controlling his actions. “Do not look at him!” He snarled, and barely had time to note Jem's startled glance before he backhanded him across the face. Then he roughly pushed Jem towards the bed, hard, jealousy fuelling his strength.
Stumbling, Jem fell backwards, his Shadowhunter training not kicking in in time, and he fell just shy of the bed, his head hitting the frame hard. A sickening crack seemed to rend the very air in two, and Jem lay so still it was hard to tell if he was even still alive.
“Jem... oh God, what have I... JEM!” Colin cried, horrified by what he had done.
“Stay away from him!” Will warned him as he pushed past Colin to get to his parabatai's side. Working fast, he pulled his stele out of his pocket and rapidly drew a couple iratze runes on the front of Jem's shoulders.
“Is... is he going to be okay?” Colin asked, his voice shaking.
“Why should you care?” Will growled. “Jem told me that you knew when to stop, when things had gone too far... but this is miles over that line. You could have killed him!” Glancing over his shoulder, Will's expression softened somewhat as he realized that Colin was crying.
“I know that! I... you should leave.” His voice broke, and Colin sank down to his knees, his legs no longer willing to support him.
“I won't leave Jem-”
“I'm not asking you to. I mean... you should take Jem and leave, both of you. I don't... trust myself to be around him right now. This whole thing was a bad idea... I knew that from the beginning. I only agreed because I was so scared that if I didn't that you would convince Jem to cheat on me... if you haven't already...” Colin was barely aware of what he was saying, as the words just poured from his heart.
He watched numbly as Will lifted Jem up onto the bed, making sure he was comfortable. Then he crossed the room, pouring a glass of water from the jug on the main table, to which he added something silvery from a packet he took out of his pocket.
“Is that... yin fen?”
“Yes. Jem was almost out so I picked some more up for him on my way to meet up with him. I was tracking a demon down in Whitechapel anyway, so it wasn't out of my way.” Will explained flatly.
“So you buy his drug for him? Is there anything that you don't do for Jem?” Colin asked in a small voice.
Will glanced back over at him, startled by Colin's tone. “I don't dress him, or anything like that. Or undress him for that matter. And no, Jem has not been cheating on you, with me or anyone else. He loves you, or did before...” Will broke off. “Yes, there is heat between Jem and myself, but that's all. He was eager to invite me here tonight because it meant we had a chance to cool that heat before it ruined our friendship. But I would never had said yes if I knew that my being here would make you so jealous, or cause a rift between you and Jem. I want him, yes, but I want him to be happy more. And it's being with you that makes him happy.”
The sound of the sheets rustling made him turn back towards the bed. Jem was sitting up, blinking groggily. Crossing the room, Will handed Jem the glass, which Jem drank without question.
“Are you okay? I... I'm so sorry... Jem I never meant to hurt you! I love you!” Colin somehow managed to stand, though his legs were still shaking, and took two steps towards the bed, but stopped when Jem shrank back, away from him. For the very first time, Colin saw fear in those beautiful silver eyes... and he realized that Jem was afraid of him.
“Are you sleeping with Will behind my back?” Colin surprised even himself by asking the question outright.
“No! I told you before... that was a one time thing. I've never had sex with him, only with you. I lo-” Jem broke off halfway through saying 'I love you' as he realized that he wasn't sure at that moment if he did or not.
Then Colin turned his back on both his guests, no longer able to bear the fear still shining from Jem's eyes. “Please leave, both of you. I... I need to... to be alone.” His voice shook worse than before, and he had to force the words out of a numb throat.
“Colin... are you crying?” Jem asked, and something in his voice made Colin turn back towards him.
“I'm sorry for... for... for ever hurting you in anyway. Jem I love you and I never meant to...” Tears blurred his vision, and he felt more than saw Jem close the distance between them. Strong arms wrapped around his neck as Jem let his head rest against his left shoulder.
“Do you still want me to leave?” The words vibrated along Colin's body as Jem spoke with his face pressed against his shoulder.
“Yes. We need some time apart to think about what just happened, and what it means for us.” Wiping away the tears, he whispered something in Jem's ear that made the younger boy start.
“What?! No... I couldn't... I would never do that!” He didn't even have to think about Colin's suggestion before shooting it down.
By this point, his tears had subsided enough that he could see Jem's face clearly. He still looked scared, but the fear was no longer directed at Colin, but was rather fear of losing him. “Do you love him?” He whispered softly.
“Not in that way, no. I do love Will, but as a friend, and a brother of sorts, never romantically. I am not in love with him. You're the only one I feel that way about.” Jem replied, sincerely.
Reluctantly, Colin pushed Jem away. “You still need to go. You've been though enough for one night... and we both know that you don't like gentle sex.” He watched as Jem nodded, and pulled his shirt and jacket back on, hiding the healing runes that were still working to erase the evidence of Colin's jealousy.
Then, without speaking another word, Jem followed Will out of the flat, and Colin listened intently as even that sound faded away to nothing as Jem walked away from him. This was not how he had planned for this night to go! Why had he let jealousy control him like that?
Suddenly, he threw on his shoes and jacket, and left the building on silent feet. Not entirely sure what he was doing, he found his feet taking him towards Whitechapel, as a crazy plan began to emerge in his mind. He would prove once and for all that he was as good as Will, that he could take care of Jem just as well as the raven haired Shadowhunter did. As the darkness of Whitechapel swallowed him up, he felt a small shiver of apprehension pass through him, but he shrugged it off, ignoring the suddenly feeling he got that he would never see Jem again. That couldn't be true...
Could it?
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