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A Demon's Angel	By : InnocentLittleFlower Category: Twilight Series > AU/AR > Het > Het Views: 2953 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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A/N: Here is the next Chapter. I would just like to say sorry if any of you are mad at me for killing Alice i didnt like doing it but it was something that i had to do in the story i Love alice she has to be my second favorite character in ther series. So i think I've said everythingt hat i want to so here is the next chapter please enjoy.

Though I yearned for asleep anything to escape the pain that ached in my chest at the loss of my wife I knew it would never come. So I tried to concentrate on something else to try and dull the pain. I sought comfort in the one person who knew me best that I knew would stay by my side quietly until I was ready to live again. My lovely angel who was always patient and kind and never selfish. Though both our bodies ran cold now with her one arm wrapped around me I felt warm, a comforting warmth that you would get from a fire in the winter time.

I held my breath when I hear her stop humming and my grip tightened slightly thinking my angel was going to leave that the one thing keeping me here was going to disappear but then I hear it two people talking. Someone had come into my study I couldn’t make out what they where saying but I knew one of the calming soft voices to be my angels so I loosened my grip and didn’t move it was only a few seconds later that I hear the click of the door being closed and Lily began to hum again.

With Lily being so close to me each breath brought in her scent when we where human she had always smelled sweet and fragrant like wild flowers but now I could pick out the exact scent. The first one the strongest was the one of her given name she smelled of Lilies and the other one I would not have known if I had not traveled threw DC in the spring time this scent the soft subtle scent of Japanese cherry blossoms mixed with her strong sweet smell of Lilies. It fit her, the bold and sweet scent of lilies but the soft and gentle scent of the delicate blossom from Japan. I fixed the scent to memory never wanting to be with out it again.

I tensed again when the humming stopped and this time the soft strokes on my hair stopped.

“Jasper” Lily’s voice was soft and calming

I didn’t move

“I need to go home for a few minutes to get a few things. I promise ill be back Esme or Bella can sit here with you if you want.” She continued softly.

My grip tightened and I let out some kind of whimper. No one would do but her how would they know the comforting tune to hum how close to hold me. I couldn’t let go I wouldn’t survive if she left.
“It’ll be okay Jasper; I need cloths and my cell phone the girls at the shop will be calling when I don’t show up. I’m going to stay here as long as you need me but I need my things first.” Lily spoke softly never losing her patients.

“I…if I let go….I’ll slip away” I said softly.

“No you won’t Jasper and Esme or Bella will be right here with you.” Lily replied

“I…I don’t want to be away form you” I added burying my face back into her chest like a child.

“Cant I just come with you” I asked my words where muffled

Lily’s body tensed “If you want…but I didn’t think you would want to leave”

“I just want to be with you right now, I want to escape right now” I replied

“Okay Jasper you can come with me” Lily said letting me go.

I slowly unwrapped my arms to allow her to stand. Once both of us where standing I quickly grabbed her hand like if I didn’t hold on I would float away. I followed Lily out of my study down stairs. Carlisle was in the Living room as Esme busied herself cleaning our already clean dishes when she was upset she always had to do something to keep her occupied. Though it was fuzzy I saw Carlisle stand up and walk over to us.

“It’s okay Carlisle he asked to come. Right now he needs to feel secure so he is latching on something and I’m just that something. I don’t mind I did the same thing to him with my Mama died. We won’t be gone long.” I heard Lily explain to Carlisle who nodded and said something but I didn’t registered any of it just like when someone came into my study. The only one I saw clearly and heard clearly was Lily my comfort, my rock, my angel.

We made our way out to her car and we drove off. She let me keep a hold of her hand as she drove. I could remember how she latched onto me when her mother died though it wasn’t as sever as I was doing right now, but for a long time other than her father I was the only one she would talk to or even smile for she didn’t cling to my physically but more emotionally she let her tears fall around me and told me how she felt. It wasn’t long before we where in her house. She headed straight up to her room she went over to her bed sitting me down.

“I need you to let go for a few minutes so I can pack but I won’t leave this room you’ll be able to see or hear me the whole time.” She spoke softly moving some hair out of my face.

Some people would probably reprimand her for treating me like a child and indulging this depression but little did they know having someone so gentle and understanding as Lily was helping some it dulled the pain so I could work on accepting what has happened.

I nodded and as she walked into her closet flipping the light on a grabbed one of her pillows and just hugged it burying my face in it taking her scent in. a few moment later I hear her walking out and setting a large bag down next to my feet she then made quick work of getting her bathroom items such as her shampoo and other things girls couldn’t seem to live with out.

I watched her with my nose still buried in her pillow she seemed to be making some type of mental check list. She looked at me and smiled that smile the one that lit up the world so warm and caring.

“Jasper I’m going to go pack up some paint and brushes okay your welcome to come with me or you can stay here.” Lily’s voice rang

I just simply nodded standing up putting the pillow down. I would try walking around with out holding onto her. As much as I wanted to just to know she was real and still there I would at lest try and if I couldn’t do it all I had to do was reach out. I walked behind her as we walked down stairs. It was then that I noticed she was still wearing the same cloths as when we first arrived to that place her hair and cloths where caked in mud. I was sure now her face probably had some on it as well but all I had seen was her perfect face. It didn’t take her long to pack up the paint and brushes she wanted she grabbed her drawing pencils as well, with some easels and a sketch book. She turned to me and smiled again “okay jasper that’s it all I need to do is grab my bags and we can go back.”

I stood there studying her she was perfect her skin smooth and soft no mud hid that from my eyes and her eyes…her eyes where blue. No that couldn’t be right I forced myself to see the truth look beyond what I found comforting what I wanted to see. The perfect image began to blur and smudges of dirt and mud covered her front like it did her back and her eyes where once again golden and she still held her smile but it wasn’t the same I was seeing her eyes told her true feelings and I could feel them now. Why hadn’t I sensed them before she felt remorse and large amount of guilt and she was worrying. Had she been feeling this the whole time from when we found her and the fire yesterday afternoon and all through the night up to now? She had been suffering like I was but yet she was putting me first giving me what I needed and wanted. I rushed to her wrapping my arms around her and burying my face in her hair. That strange whimpering noise came from me again.

She just gently wrapped her arms around me and rubbed my back speaking softly “It’s okay Jasper I’m here I’m not going anywhere. Everything is going to be fine I promise in time everything will be fine”

By time we had gone back up stairs I picked up her bag for her. Just because I was in pieces didn’t give me and excuse not to be a gentlemen. I carried her things down for her and out to the car as she grabbed her purse and phone. We took her spider this time and where back home in no time. I carried her things in for her and began to carry them to the room I once shared with Alice when a sound stopped me.

“Jasper sweetie Lily is going to be staying in the guest room” I heard a motherly voice though it seemed muffled but this time I hear it. I knew this would have to be no one other than Esme the woman who portrayed herself as my mother.

I felt myself begging to panic she couldn’t leave me couldn’t be that far from me. What if I felt myself starting to sink again what was I suppose to do with out her being right there.

I saw Lily walk around Esme and place a hand on my cheek “Its okay Jasper I’m right here if you want me to stay with you in your room I will.”

I heard Esme make a concerned noise then she spoke again “what if he just stayed with you in the guest room”

I could see what she was thinking the less reminders of…Alice the easier right now. I was just starting to swim to the surface again after a twenty four hour time period where I felt like I was drowning and I was just remember how to swim again. I didn’t want a set back.

“That’s fine too.” Lily nodded

I turned myself around and began for one of our guest rooms. I set her things down next to the bed and sat down on it looking down at my lap.

“I’m sorry Lily” I whispered

“You don’t have anything to be sorry about Jasper” Lily said softly walking over.

“It should be me who is taking care of you, but instead you’re taking care of me” I whispered again

“Don’t you ever be sorry for needing me Jasper Whitlock, You know very well that if I didn’t want to do this I wouldn’t be here” Lily said sternly it was the first time in the past twenty four hours her voice was rough the calm softness had disappeared.

“I love you Jasper and you take care of those you love when they need you. You did the same for me several times when we where younger now its time I repay the debt” Her voice had gone soft again as I felt her hand caress my cheek.

“How can you love me still Lily I left disappearing my last words where that I loved you and with me leavening you I essentially damned your life you became a demon like me a sweet innocent angel turned into one of the demons from hell. Then you find that I have found another but yet you still want to be near me even though I caused you pain. I’ve done nothing but made you suffer for the past hundred years but still you look at me with the face and sweet caring heart of an angel.” It was the most I’d said since I seemed to wake up from my daze.

“Because Jasper you might see yourself as a demon but I look at you and still see the man who taught me how to live, that allowed me to dream and not be ashamed, the boy who protected me from bugs when I was four. The man who let me cry on his shoulder when I was sad, and held me hand when I was scared. I grew up building my life around you trying to be everything you would want while still being myself. You are my best friend and the man the only man I have ever loved I rather see you happy and feel the pain of loss then to go another day with out seeing you face other than in my paintings. I painted you so much because it kept you alive in me. If you see yourself as a demon and say I have the face and heart of an angel then allow me to be this Demons Angel. Let me hold you when you feel yourself falling apart. Let me be the light at the end of this dark tunnel.” Lily said softly tilting my head up so I was looking into her golden eyes.

I leaned into the touch of her hand as her words began to slowly sew the shattered fragments of my heart. The pain still sat there and probably would be there for a while if not forever but Lily would help she would be there to ease the pain when it got to be to much. Though a demon such as myself did not deserve an angel as good as her with everything I have done in my past. She knows everything I have done but yet she wants to be my angel showing that even the most damned demon deserves his light his forgiveness and I will find it in the arms of my Angel, my angel who has stood by my side since I was a little boy. Lily showed me what it was like to love and Alice showed me how to live in a new world and now Lily was here to show me how to survive loss and that I can depend on others and I didn’t always have to be the one to do the protecting I could be protected as well.

I don’t know really when or how I ended up in my study with Lily holding me like a mother would her young child who was upset about something. She just sat there as I held onto her around her small waist my head rested against her chest listening to the sound of her breathing as she hummed softly and stroked my hair. I knew this melody she had sung it many times to her younger brothers when they where upset. There had been times they would find us in the library or out in the field they would be upset over something trivial but she would just smile put her drawing down and she would hold them like she was me stroking their hair until the tears stopped or they had cried themselves to sleep.
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