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All Grown Up: The Story of Jacob and Renesmee	By : VanessaWolfe Category: Twilight Series > Het > Jacob/Renesmee Views: 19932 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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"Good morning!" I sang to Anthony as I picked him up from his crib.
"Happy three weeks birthday!" He smiled at me.
I heard Jacob laugh from in our bathroom where he was getting ready for work.
"That's not a real birthday, Ness."
"Oh stop, sure it is. Just like an anniversary," I called to him.
"Is somebody hungry? I know, silly question."
He was still waking up every couple of hours to eat. I sat in our bed and lifted my shirt up for breakfast time, pulling some blankets around my stomach. I wasn't keen on exposing that part of my body lately.
Jacob had been reminding me that eventually, we would want Anthony to sleep in his own room. We'd moved the crib into our room, that was our compromise, I wanted him in our bed for now. He made a good point that I couldn't argue with, it would be easier for everybody if we eased him into it. Stupid baby book. We put him in the crib for naps, some naps, for others I held him. This was his third full night in it, I was less than thrilled about it. Anthony didn't seem to mind, nap time or bedtime, it was all the same to him. We made sure he was turned so he could see us and he was fine.
Anthony was getting so much bigger. Part of me wanted him to stay tiny and sweet, but I also liked to see him doing new things. He smiled all the time now, grunted to get our attention, and a couple days ago he started pointing at things he wanted. He had mastered the art of turning his head, and could sit up with a little help from Mommy. He could prop himself up on his elbows now if he was on his tummy. He seemed to enjoy doing that, looking around at feet passing by and everything that was going on around him. It was beyond adorable, he looked like he was posing. Momma started calling him Mr. November. So of course there were many pictures of him doing that, in several different outfits, and in several different rooms.
I couldn't help but pout a little as Jacob dressed in his work clothes.
"Aw come on babe, don't make me feel even worse," he said zipping up his pants.
"You know I wish I could stay with you guys."
"I know, I'm sorry. We'll miss you though."
"I'll miss you guys, too."
He leaned down and kissed me, I moved my lips against his making the kiss a little longer then he intended it to be I'm sure. He sighed as he pulled away.
"Bye, I love you."
"Love you," I answered.
"Bye my big guy, I love you, enjoy your breakfast."
Once Anthony finished his meal, it was time for mine. I carried him downstairs and rooted through the fridge. What I really wanted was to hunt, I hadn't since Anthony was born, and I'd gone through the last of the donated blood the day after Anthony was born. So I settled for some bacon. Since I had Anthony, the banned foods that had made me sick didn't bother me anymore.
When I closed the fridge Anthony pointed at a picture of himself and Jacob. It was the classic Daddy sleeping with baby on his chest shot. "Yup, there's daddy! He'll be home soon. How about we look at some pictures after we've both got full bellys?"
Grunt.
"Sounds like a plan buddy." I cooked my bacon, just a little, and sat at the table with Anthony in my lap while I ate. After my breakfast, and a quick diaper change it was picture time. I laid him on his tummy on the living room floor and he propped himself up. His eyes followed me as I got the photo album from the basket on the floor next to the couch. Once he started movin and a shakin we'd have to put it up higher.
I got on my tummy next to him and opened up the book that my mom had filled up for us. The pictures went in chronological order. Lots of me when I was pregnant, lots from the baby shower. "Look there you are, right in there," I told Anthony pointing at my belly. I didn't think it was possible for an infant to look incredulous, but he did. "I'm telling you, it's true!" I insisted.
All the pages that had me or Jacob, Anthony found us and pointed to the picture right away. It became like a game as we looked through the album, he would point and then look to me for approval. "Yup, there's Daddy! Good job...and there's Mommy!" I pointed out every body, his grandparents, the Denali clan, and the rest of my family. Seth, Aunt Rachel, cousin Caroline, and everybody from Jacob's side.
When we'd made it through the book, I closed it and said, "All done!"
Anthony disagreed.
He cried some crocodile tears and patted the cover of the album. "One more time? Okay sweetie. Lets see who you can find. Where's Daddy? That's an easy one." Anthony pointed to a picture of Jacob kissing my big pregnant belly. "Good job, where's Mommy?" He pointed to the same picture again. "Yup, you got it." I turned the page, "Do you see Aunt Alice?" He found her right away. "Good! How about Uncle Emmett? Yes that's him. And we must never say the things Uncle Emmett says! We love him but he has a naughty mouth." Anthony's expression became serious, I could tell he understood. Good. The last thing I needed was for my sons first words to be, "that's what she said."
After picture time I went upstairs to feed Anthony in our bed. As he drank from me I stroked his cheek with my finger, "I love you my little guy. How about we take a nap together today? I'm sure you are about ready for a nap, I am too." When he was full I left my shirt off and took of Anthony's onesie for some skin to skin time. I held him close to my chest and leaned back on the bed. I ran my fingertips up and down Anthony's spine as he fell asleep, soon I was under too. He woke me when he got hungry and we stayed in bed as I fed him again. I swear all this kid does is eat, just like his father.
"Ow! Careful honey, looks like somebody is getting some teeth." I put my finger in his mouth and felt his gums, sure enough there was one starting to poke through. "We'll have to get that teething ring out."
We got redressed and headed downstairs since I'd missed lunch. Again, I settled, this time for some meatballs. Maybe Jake could take me hunting tonight.
We were both happy when he got home that evening. I ran to meet him at the door, "Daddy's home!" I told the baby. Jacob picked us up and swung us around.
"Hey guys, I missed you!" He set us down and gave me a short kiss, then reached out for Anthony, who was grunting and reaching for him. "There's my buddy!" he said kissing his cheek. "Did you guys have a nice day?" he asked me.
"We did, he really likes the picture album, he knows who everybody is."
"That's awesome, you are so smart, Anthony." We went to sit in the living room so Anthony could look at the picture album some more.
"So I was thinking we could go out for dinner tonight. Let's hunt," I said.
"Really? Are you feeling up to it?" He asked from where he was sitting on the floor with Anthony and the picture album in his lap.
"I feel back to normal, but there's no way to know unless I try. I was thinking you could help me? Maybe get me nice big elk or something?" I said giving him a sweet smile.
"Hmm, I'll consider it," he said with a grin.
"Yay! Well we could probably have our pick from about 30 babysitters, but I think I'll call my parents."
"Do you want them to come over here?"
"Yeah, it's too cold to run there with him. Plus I don't want him to get double upset, neither of us will be there, and in a house he's never been in. We'll just make it a quick trip."
I called my parent's house, Daddy picked up and of course they agreed to come over to take care of Anthony while we went hunting. I decided to take Anthony upstairs and feed him before we left, so if he cried while we were gone, my parents would know it wasn't because he was hungry. As he nursed I told him, "Mommy and Daddy are going to leave for a little bit, but we will be back very soon." The way his little brow creased I knew he understood what I was telling him. He reached one of his little hands up between my breasts and I felt his other hand press against my side. "Oh my little clinger, you are breaking my heart. We'll be so fast I promise, now drink up my angel. Grandma and Grandpa are going to come play with you, that will be nice won't it?" His grip loosened on me, but only slightly. "Yes, you'll have fun with them," I cooed and held him close. I stayed upstairs longer then was needed, just holding him for a few moments after his sucking came to a stop.
When I emerged from our bedroom Mom and Dad were downstairs with Jacob. Both their faces lit up when they saw Anthony, that made me so happy. I held Anthony up in front of me, and gave him kisses all over his little face. He smiled and reached his hands out, putting them on either side of my face. Jacob came up behind him and kissed his hair.
"I love you, and I'll be back very soon," I promised Anthony. With a heavy sigh I handed him over to my mom. Right away he was reaching for me, his little fists opening and closing as he leaned out of her arms. "We'll be back," I promised again. Jake and I went out the back door and around the side of the house, he was beginning to strip out of his clothes to phase. Anthony was screaming for me and it broke my heart, I couldn't help but cry too.
Jake was about to take his pants off but stopped when he saw that I was upset. "Aw Ness." He wrapped his arms around me. "Let's just go. He'll be okay and the sooner we leave the sooner we'll be back. We won't go far."
"All right," I agreed. Jake finished getting undressed and I had to admit, my heart skipped a beat when I saw the parts of him I hadn't seen in a while. He phased then folded himself to lay on the grass so I could climb on his back. It had also been a long time since I'd seen him in wolf form. It was comforting to lay on his back, wrapping my arms around his upper body and burying my face in his soft fur. He sighed happily and seemed to feel that way too. "Just go slow, let's take it easy," I told him. He trotted off into the woods, I felt relaxed by this familiar ritual but I kept my nose alert for anything that smelled tasty.
Mountain lion! Could I be that lucky? I didn't speak out loud, I used my gift to tell Jacob where to go, I must have caught the scent before he had. Soon as I had, I felt that old burn in my throat. Jacob crept up behind the giant cat. Before he could get close, I made a leap off his back and onto the animal. It gave a startled growl as we rolled on the forest floor, I growled right back. I snapped it's neck to bring a sooner end to it's pain and fear, then sunk my teeth into it's throat. The warm, thick blood pulsed into my mouth and I greedily sucked it down. By the time I'd drained the animal I felt so invigorated. I jumped up and gestured to lion, Jacob tore into it. I giggled to myself at our version of "eating out." Jacob looked up from his dinner and cocked his head to the side.
"Nothing, we are just funny that's all," I told him. He barked a laugh and went back to eating. "I feel so good right now!" Jacob smiled at me and wiped his face clean in the wet grass. I jumped on his back, "Run!" I ordered. It felt great to fly through the woods, to feel the wind. I hadn't spent much time outside lately and I was loving it. When we got back to the house I hopped off.
"Hey, don't phase back yet, let's see what he thinks of you in wolf form," I said. Jacob's eyes were hesitant at first, then he nodded. I ran back into the house and followed Anthony's scent up to the nursery. Daddy was in the rocking chair and Momma was picking him up from the changing table. Anthony's face lit up when he saw me. "Hey my sweet heart! I told you I'd be right back!" I took him from my mom and covered him in kisses. "Was he okay? Did he cry a lot?" I asked.
"Not too much," Momma assured me.
"That's my boy. Let's go meet the family dog buddy." Daddy laughed but Momma didn't get it right away.
Daddy, I don't want to say it out loud because I want to see if Anthony will figure it out for himself, but explain to Momma, grab the camera, and meet me in the backyard please.
I carried Anthony downstairs and went out the sliding glass door. He'd never seen an animal, outside of the Baby Einstein DVDs. At first he clung to my shirt and looked worried.
"Don't worry buddy, it's okay." I sat down in one of the porch chairs and held Anthony in my lap. I can't blame him for being a little frightened. Jacob slowly approached us, and I reached out my hand to stroke the side of his face to show Anthony that he didn't need to be scared. Jake leaned into my hand and made a sound deep in his chest sort of like a purr. "See? It's all right. Wanna pet him?" Anthony looked at me hesitantly. "Go ahead," I encouraged him. He gave me a look, that said, you'd better be right about this!
He leaned out of my lap and reached his hand out. He touched the side of Jake's face, then yanked it back as if he'd been touching something he was afraid might burn him. When nothing terrible happened, he reached his hand out again, and copied what he'd seen me do. When Jacob gently nuzzled Anthony's face, I noticed Anthony took a deep breath in through his nose. Jacob pulled back and Anthony stared into his eyes. I practically heard it click in his head. He clapped his hands gleefully and then patted Jacob's face. My dad laughed.
"He just figured it out didn't he?" I asked. Daddy smiled and nodded while Momma snapped away with the camera.
Anthony looked back at me, excited. "I know, it's Daddy! Neat huh?" I stood up and warned Jacob not to move, I climbed up his back with Anthony in my arms. I sat him down on Jake's back and kept my hands around his stomach, with his back up against me. Anthony leaned forward with his arms stretched out, his little hands disappeared in Jake's thick fur. I saw his fur separate where Anthony had grabbed two fist fulls of it. He turned around and looked at me, his eyes wide with fascination. "Daddy is so special isn't he?" Anthony smiled in agreement. He leaned forward and I kept my hold on him, but he struggled against my hands and whined. "Do you want to give Daddy a hug? Is that it?" I loosened my grip to allow him to lean forward, I moved my hands to his sides. He lied down on Jacob, spreading his arms wide and burying his face in Jacob's fur. Jacob made that happy purring sound. "Daddy is nice and soft isn't he? Wanna see how Mommy rides him?" Jacob made a sound that I recognized as a snicker. I gasped and smacked his huge shoulder. "Oh, stop!" I hissed. I used my gift to tell him, not in front of my parents you pervert!
"Dad, will you take him for a minute?" I picked Anthony up from Jacob's back, he fussed when I handed him to Dad. "Just wait, I think you'll like this," I assured him. I wrapped my arms around Jake's neck. "Giddy up Daddy!" He jumped off the porch and ran in big loops around the back yard. He spun in tight circles and leapt in the air, showing off. Anthony clapped his hands, squealing each time we passed by the porch. "Hi sweetie!" I shouted. To my great surprise and joy, he shouted back.
"Hi!'
Jacob skidded to a stop in front of the porch and we both stared at Anthony. "Hi Anthony!" I said to make sure it wasn't a fluke.
"Hi meeeeeeeeee!" he said. I cracked up.
"You are saying hi to yourself?"
"Hi me!" he said again.
"Your first words big boy, look at you! You are so silly though," I told him. Jacob laughed his wolfy laugh and looked back at me. "I've never heard of a baby saying hi to himself, that is so weird."
Daddy was still holding Anthony, wearing a hint of a smirk. "What?" I asked him.
"Well we haven't discussed this before, perhaps we should have. You know I don't want to meddle," my mom snorted a laugh, he ignored her and went on, "but would you like to know what he's thinking?" I considered.
"Okay."
"He's not saying 'me' as in referring to himself."
"What does he mean then?"
"He's saying 'me' as in the end of Mommy." My face must have lit up as I let out a small gasp.
"Is that what you are saying?" I asked Anthony as I climbed off Jake's back.
Momma pointed at me. "Anthony, who is that?"
"Me!" he said. I laughed as I took him from Dad's arms.
"That's right silly boy, I'm your 'me'!" Jake barked and wagged his tail. "Who is that?" I asked pointing at Jake.
"Dee!" Anthony cried. Jake jumped up and licked Anthony's face, he squealed with delight at his fathers big, sloppy wolf smooch.
"That's right that's Daddy! And who is that?" I asked pointing at my mom.
"Hi," Anthony said.
"Hi", my mom answered. "Who am I?" She asked pointing to herself.
"Hi!" he said again. Mom laughed and took his face in her hands, kissing his forehead.
"That's okay sweetie, I know that you know that I'm Grandma," she told him.
"How about Grandpa, can you say that?" I asked Anthony. He made a cute little frownie face, I guessed that was a no.
Daddy laughed. "He knows who I am, he just can't make his mouth say it." Daddy then looked at Jacob and rolled his eyes at him. "I don't think so Jacob."
Daddy turned to Momma and me, "Jacob has suggested Anthony should call me 'Ed' because he may have an easier time pronouncing that as opposed to 'Grandpa'."
"Ed!" We all turned to look at Anthony when he spoke, and we all laughed, except for Daddy.
"No, no," Daddy said gently. "Grandpa."
"Ed."
"That isn't really proper Anthony. I'm Grandpa."
"Ed."
"Pappy?" Dad tried.
"Ed!"
"Grandpa Ed?"
"Ed."
"Come on now, I don't even let your Grandmother call me Ed!"
"Hi Ed!"
Daddy groaned. By this time Momma and I were laughing so hard we couldn't breath, good thing she didn't need to, and Jake was literally howling with laughter.
"Oh come on, who cares Edward, lighten up. You'll make him think he's done something wrong," Mom said. "Which he certainly hasn't because it just wouldn't be possible!" She added turning to Anthony. "I don't mind if he calls me Bella. Sweetheart can you say Bella?"
"Bell."
"Great job! See Edward? Who cares?" she repeated. She gave him a light peck on the lips and that was all it took to coax a smile out of him. "Hush agora meu marido doce."
My Portuguese was too rusty to catch that, I really needed a refresher course.
"I suppose it is mildly funny," he admitted. "He does think 'Grandpa' when he says 'E-d'. No need to encourage it, but it's fine for now."
Anthony was delighted he'd found something that amused us all so much. Jake phased back and we spent the rest of the evening on the porch with my parents, cheering on Anthony as he learned some new words. I wasn't sure if he knew what they meant, but he could say love, and bye.
So when it was bedtime he waved and mimicked us, calling bye to my parents.
"Did you like seeing Daddy as a wolf Anthony?"
"Dee!"
"We should have the whole pack over and let him see, he'd get a kick out of that," Jake suggested as we climbed the stairs.
"Yeah he probably would." I sat in the bed and took my shirt off to feed Anthony. I pulled a light sheet around my shoulders and covered Anthony and I. Jake stripped down to his boxers and curled up next to me, his arm around my waist and his head resting next to my hip. When Anthony's eyes started to droop I held him out to Jake for his goodnight kiss, then I got up to gently place him in his crib.
I decided to just sleep in my yoga pants since it was an unseasonably warm night out. That and I'd be getting up in an hour or two to feed Anthony again anyway. I got under the sheet and curled up on my side facing Jake. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to him, he held me so close that my breasts were pressed almost flat against his bare chest. I could feel my nipples against his skin.
"I love you so much," Jake murmured in my ear. He closed his teeth on my ear lobe, kissed the spot underneath my ear and down my neck. As he made his way to my shoulder, he stopped along the way to gently suck several times. When he held me even closer, and his sucking became not so gentle I pushed him away. This was not the same as before/after work pecks, he was hoping for more and that made me uncomfortable.
"Jacob the baby is sleeping like five feet away from us," I reminded him, though of course if we wanted to be intimate we had several other rooms. The baby wasn't the problem.
"Yeah sleeping, and we kiss in front of him all the time."
"Kissing and sucking on are not the same thing," I said as I rolled over away from him.
"Hey...baby I'm sorry." It really sounded like he was. He wrapped his arm around me, putting his hand on my stomach the way he used to put me to sleep. But that wasn't the bottom of my baby bump he was rubbing anymore, it was just my pudge now. I'd spent some time inspecting myself in the mirror lately, and I wasn't pleased with what I saw. I threw his arm off of me.
"What Ness? I said I was sorry." He hesitantly rested his hand on my thigh. "Is this okay?"
"Sure, it's fine."
In his sleep that night, he wrapped his arm around my stomach and pulled me closer. I stayed awake thinking. I did enjoy Mommy and Daddy time. Clothes always stayed on, but things were starting to go a little further and it was making me nervous.
I used to get annoyed hearing moms whine about something as silly as their body, when they'd been giving the gift of a child. So it was all worth it don't get me wrong. But I was feeling insecure. If Jacob didn't like something about my new body, of course he'd never tell me. If I said anything to him about it I knew he'd say I was at beautiful as ever or something dumb like that, but how could I know if he really meant it?
That wasn't the only thing I was afraid of, I was also worried about the pain. I'd recovered from giving birth much more quickly then a human would have, but how could I be sure I really was recovered? I was up and about, doing housework, getting up with Anthony, I'd hunted pretty much on my own today. But was I totally healed...on the inside? It was going to feel like the first time, all over again. And not in a romantic, or sexy way. Jacob is very...well endowed. So if I wasn't ready and we tried to make love, I was in for a world of pain. I'd had enough pain for now, thank you very much.
I had nothing to compare his...anatomy to of course, but Jacob told me that one time before I was even born, he'd tried to put a condom on just to see if he could figure it out. It didn't fit and he had to try the bigger kind. Embry's first attempt at putting on a condom did not go well, and that mean, nasty girl told the whole school. It wasn't pretty, poor Embry was humiliated so Jacob wanted to avoid the same fate when it came time for him to "become a man," and keep himself out of the rumor mill.
Jacob was ready, I could tell by the way he sometimes strained against his pants when we were alone together and things got a little heated. I'd immediately bring things to a halt, it wasn't fair to him to start anything we weren't going to finish. I already felt guilty for denying him, I didn't want to make it worse.
It's not like it was ruining my life, but in certain situations with Jacob, and times when it was quiet like now, it would really bother me. Who could I even talk to about this? I could talk to my mom about anything, but not this. She'd listen if she knew I really needed her, but it would make her uncomfortable. And me as well. Rachel was out of the question, who'd want to hear about their little brothers sex life? Or lack thereof. Maybe Emily.
It wasn't that I'd lost interest in sex, I hadn't, I was just afraid.
Anthony started to stir, and I realized I'd missed my first window of sleep for this evening. I wiggled out of Jacob's arms and hurried to get Anthony before he could wake Jacob.
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