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Focused Madness
Chapter 2

Fusedtwilight: And here is the new chap, thanks animegirl kiki, you rock.

Satisfaction: Fulfillment of want or need, the quality or state of being satisfied,
Example: Leah is satisfied with her life now.
Leah P.O.V
Earlier that day
My life had improved. I was no longer in Sam's pack which helped my attitude a lot. No more how sad he is he hurt me, no more how bad he feels for hurting Emily, no more how much he loves Emily and how wonderful and beautiful she is then guilt he thought that and I heard.
I was the first ever girl wolf in La Push history, I was now the first beta female wolf. I was in another pack with fewer guys in my head, I had been taking yoga like I told Jake I would, it had been helping quiet a bit. I enjoyed it more than I thought I would to. The peace, the isolation, plus it helped me stay in shape.
I was still a bitch don't get me wrong, it wasn't like I had an instant change and was suddenly all forgive and forget. I still had a whole shit load of issues. First and foremost I was still in love with Sam. Pathetic I know but that is love for you. No matter what you do, no matter how much time passes it sticks to you like tar. Even if you manage to clean it off it leaves a black mark that can never be cleansed.
I have learned to hate him, god I have learned to hate so well. When he sent Jared to try and get me to come back by having him use his old pet name for me I was filled with rage and hope. Rage he would use such a low blow; use a name he gave me when I was in his heart, a name he had not used since he imprinted. Hope that maybe after all this maddens the imprint would magically break.
I growled and flashed teeth, Jake and the others saw the rage, but Seth who was phased at the time saw my hope. He said nothing. He knew my hope was just that. Hope. Nothing more, nothing less. He knew it was just wishful thinking, he knew how much I had loved Sam, he had seen us together, he knew why I still hoped, why I still needed to hope.
I had more issues than just Sam; there was my father, my sweet, sweet loving father who I liked. I didn't actually do the deed, but seeing his sweet baby girl turn tall, furry and deadly was too much for his heart to handle. That and those fucking greasy foods didn't help either!
It wasn't even a year after dad died and mom hooked up with Charlie Swan! I liked Charlie, even though his daughter brought all this misery down on me and my tribe, Charlie was like an uncle to me, he was a good man. But the fact he and mom were going out was just wrong, Sue was his best friend’s wife.
There had been some big fights between me and mom about that. Seth stayed out of it for the most part. He was happy mom was moving on and chose someone like Charlie. He wasn't exactly thrilled about it either but that's Seth for you. He only got involved when I was getting too angry or the fighting needed to stop.
Last but not least my inability to have children. Since I phased no period. I have not actually had sex since Sam (which made me horny as hell and did not help my mood) so I cannot be certain. I mean I am no longer human; I am something new, a freak among freaks. I have considered going out with other men but the idea just does not appeal to me.
I am in no hurry, after the Sam incident I would not be ready for love for a long time. Sex how ever...well what’s a one night stand mean besides sex? Sex sounds good, sex sounds reallllly good.
The only problem with that was if any of the guys had found out I would die of embarrassment. It was none of their business but with the wolf mind thing secrets were hard to keep.
I was in my room doing yoga, I was in my yoga outfit, I was on my mat, I had the music playing and I was doing my breathing exorcises. The yogi helped keep my rage at bay, helped it stay bottled up longer. But even yoga can't make it go away. It's always there in the back of my mind, waiting for someone or something to poke at it.
Tonight I was going to patrol with Seth. Now that Jake imprinted on Nessie Sam and his pack could not attack her or the Cullens. That law about wolves being forbidden to hurt another’s imprint saw to that.
Sam had no desire to kill Nessie or the Cullens, now that we know she isn't going to be some crazy, blood thirsty monster. Sam had a lot on his plate right now. I admit a part of me enjoyed seeing him suffer; hell hath no fury after all. Because of the surge of vampires Sam had seven new wolves in his pack. They were young, younger than Collin and Brady.
His pack was twelve wolves. I thank god I jumped ship. The thought of sharing the minds of such a large pack of guys, men and boys made me shudder. I felt bad for the kids though, they had a hard time controlling their instincts because they are so young and Sam isn't exactly the most understanding alpha. He showed them no quarter. He was hard on them as he was on us.
We had to tell the parents of course. Rebellious teenagers running off in the night was one thing but a bunch of kids? Sam had to be fair, in letting the kids parents know he had to allow the others to tell their parents. I know Collin and Brady did, I don't know about Paul and Jared.
We were considering having the kids home schooled. They were just to young to deal with the anger the wolf gene brought with it. Which was a problem because unless we got them to control it they will keep phasing and not age, not that that is an issue seeing how they look like young teenagers already.
I was satisfied with life now. I should be happy or pleased but to be happy I would have to not be a wolf, dad be alive, be able to have kids and have a man in my life. Since I could only work on two of those problems satisfaction would have to work.
I heard Seth come to my door and knock. “Come in,” I said.
He came in and closed the door. “Hey sis, we still on for tonight?” he asked.
“Yes, it's our night to go.”
Since there were two packs we helped Sam's pick up the slack. The kids who phased were too young to be patrolling. That and their mothers refused to allow them to stay up past nine so they got to work the day shift. Lucky little shits.
“Who are we patrolling with tonight?” I asked.
Please not Sam, please not Sam.
“Jared.”
Thank you sweet merciful Jesus.
“And Sam.”
Fuckberries. I hated patrolling with Sam, since we came back home I have been doing my best to avoid Sam like he was the plague. I only saw him when we patrolled or when I went with Jake when he and Sam talked alpha businessmen. I know he wanted to talk to me; there were times I would catch him looking at me, trying to tell me with his eyes he wanted to speak with me. He had approached me before but I brushed him off. I have nothing to say to him, we have gone beyond words now.
“I am really proud of you Leah,” Seth said smiling at me.
“For what?”
“For this.” he pointed to the yoga mat. “You are learning to control your emotions. Remember how no one thought you would? Well here you are proving them wrong.”
Yeah I remember how they would joke and say I would never stop phasing because I would never stop being an angry bitter bitch. They were right, I was still a bitch and still bitter but I was learning to control it so fuck them and the wolves they rolled in on!
“Thanks Seth,” I said. Seth was such a good brother, he always looked out for me. It wasn't easy I deserved I lot of the scorn I got from the others.
I was miserable and I had to make the others miserable as well. I kept on insulting Quil about Claire, I called Jake weak for pinning after Bella (which was calling the kettle black I know) I kept on bringing up the fact Embry was related to either Quil, Jake or Sam because I loved how uncomfortable it made everyone. Plus when people started feeling to sorry for me I liked to shift the focus off of me.
After the Volturi left and we had a close brush with death I tried to make amends with Quil and Embry, they had joined our pack and as their beta I felt I owed it to them. I didn't want them to think I was going to be the old Leah; I wanted to show them I was the new Leah, the one who had moved on beyond pain and self-pity.
It was part of my own personal twelve step program to stop being a bitch. First I got all the guys in our pack together and apologized for being such a bitch. I apologized to Quil for calling him a pedophile, I apologized to Embry for calling him a bastard and bringing up his father issues. Having lost my dad I should have known better to insult someone's father, even if they didn't know who they were.
I apologized to Seth for making things difficult for him. I realized the pack was a way for him to move beyond dad's death and he should have enjoyed it, not have had me to worry about, not having to spend the most of his time apologizing to the others for my mistakes and defending me when I fucked up. I apologized for not helping him when he was in pain about dad's death.
I apologized to Jake for bringing up Bella and mocking him for it. I explained I knew he really cared for her but I knew she loved the leech more and I did not want him to go through what I did and I promised I would be a good beta.
The looks on their faces was priceless. They all accepted my apologies, Seth gave me a hug, the others tried to but I glared at them and they kept their distance, a nice pat on the back was all I let them give me. Jake was pleased, my little please forgive me talk convinced him I was fit for the job of beta.
“One thing I cannot wait for is those kids to grow up, than we can retire and go back to being normal,” I said.
“How can you want to be normal Leah? After everything we have seen and done how can you want to be normal?”
“Living my days hunting vampires and ripping them to shreds isn't how I want to spend my days Seth,” I said.
No matter how good it feels. I thought.
“It's not just that Leah, what about the speed? The freedom of being a wolf.”
I sighed. Seth was still so psyched at being a wolf after all this time. He just couldn't understand how I would want to be normal and not know about the real world. He was young; he had a major case of wonder lust. He could not understand that some people need normalcy in their lives.
But frankly what normal life could I have? Even if I stop phasing I will still be a wolf. I will always be faster, stronger, and have better senses than humans. I would always have this temp and I would never have kids. I figured with the kid part if I did find that special someone or that special imprint we could always adopt. I was still to young to worry about kids, I had another ten years before I reach the settle down age.
Little did I know that this night I was going to settle down quicker than I thought.
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Now
Carlisle P.O.V
Esme joined us in my study. Nessie and Matthew were tucked in and sleeping.
We began to discus Matthew and his existence. “He has venom, I did the tests, he has the same number of chromosomes as Nessie, same heart beat, he has blood, he has the speed and the strength. And judging from his height and maturity I have judged he is roughly little more than two years older than Nessie,” I said.
“But where did he come from?” Bella asked.
We all looked to Edward. “He does not know. He just woke up one night alone in a jungle. He has no memory of his past except for an intense burning pain.” Edward shuddered; Bella placed a hand on his to comfort him. “I have never felt anything like it; it is like the pain causes only much, much worse.”
“Worse than Jane's? What could be worse than Jane's power?” I asked.
He shrugged. “I do not know, but it explains why he is unhinged so badly, it is not living in the wild and living off humans, it is the pain.”
“Oh that poor child,” Esme said softly.
“What caused the pain? Could it have been his father?” Jasper asked.
“Why would a vampire sire a child, put him through such torture and leave him to wonder the world by himself?” I asked.
“Wait, Edward said he was from a jungle right?” Rose asked. “Who do we know that lives in a jungle?”
“Nahuel! The other hybrid, and his aunt,” Emmett said.
“Maybe they are related,” Alice suggested.
“But he said he only had sisters. Remember he said so when he came here to testify for us,” Jasper said.
“Yeah but that was like decades ago, for all we know his daddy has had a ton more kids. We know they grow much quicker than human babies do,” Emmett said.
“Hmm, maybe we should contact Nahuel, see if he has heard anything about his father,” I suggested.
“Didn't Aro say they were going to pay a visit to Nahuels father?” Bella said.
“Yes. But still Nahuel might have a clue as to Matthew's paternity. It may give us a clue as to his past an-”
“Oh no!” Edward said in horror, he ran down stairs and we followed. Nessie was still on the couch, sleeping peacefully. But the couch where Matthew was sleeping was empty and the window was wide open.
“He is going to feed! We need to find him!” Edward said.
“I told him not to hunt humans!” I said quickly.
“Carlisle he is hunting animals, and tonight the wolves are patrolling.”
I had Jasper, Edward and Esme follow me as we tracked Matthew. Jasper and Esme had the best chances of calming Matthew down and Edward could track him. I prayed to god we could get to him before he came across one of the wolves.
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Confusion: The state of being confused, an act or state of being confused.
Example: Matthew is confused when he finds a large wolf in the woods.

Matthew P.O.V
Matthew was bored.
He was trying to go sleepy sleep and he did at first but than dreams start, the fire in him, burning him, the screaming, the pain. Matthew woke up. Matthew stay quiet to not wake Ness-ness. I like Ness-ness, she is much fun. She told me much about her family and about her Jacob.
Her Jacob is really tall with black hair, reddish skin and being really strong. She said he tastes real good. I wonder if she would share, we can bite him together. That is sounding fun.
Me got thirsty and wanted blood. Me decide to go hunt animals for food. Car-Car says no more humans now so I am hunting animals nows. Me be backs soons, not wanting to make others worry. They are being different than the others I have met before. The others were red eyed and meaner than Cullen's. Cullen's smile and hug and laugh.
Other vampires are mean, they try to hurt me, they try to bite and hurt but Matthew makes them afraid and they run screaming.
Me go out window all sneaky like, not wanting to be caught. Careful to not wake Ness-Ness, me sensing sleepiness from her. Dark purple is tiredness. Dark purple means sleep.
Me goes into woods, me leaves scent on trees as me runs to find way back home so I am not being lost. What should me being eating? Squirrel? No too short, me want something big and juicy.
Lots of rabbits running around, bigger than squirrel but not big enough. Me try and decide what to hunt when me caught bad smell. It be musky and reminded me of doggies. I have image in my head than, something like a dog, only less domestic, more predator....wolf? Yes wolf!
But it is not being wolf like I have smelled before. There was a very distant human smell in this scent as well. Maybe wolfie ate human....than I should eat wolfie! Make sure wolfie not eat humans no more! Yay I am going to eat wolf! They big enough oh yes.
Following the scent I went further and further away from Cullen's home, making sure I scent marked the trees. As I got closer and closer to wolfie smell more wolfie smells joined it. The area smelled bad with wolfie smells. Me not knowing what made Cullen people want animal blood, it not even smell nearly as good as human blood. Mmmmmm human blood. (drool)
I could hear wolfie in the distance. Me hear his heart beating. Me climb trees to spot him, he was by stream of water taking a sip. Wolfie was yellow like sand. Wolfie was big...really big...bigger than any wolf Matthew is ever seeing! Matthew excited now, wolfie have lots of blood for Matthew to be drinking.
The wind blew and wolfie froze. He bring head up, water dribbling down chin. Pale yellow means calm, but when red is mixed in with yellow it means alert. Wolfie is knowing I am hear. Maybe he is catching scent when wind blows.
Something odd about wolfie to. Wolfie tastes like more than himself. I play with him in my head, I sense him but I sense others like a faint echo, one in particular was strong in him. I felt that part that was strong in him, it tasted female. What is wrong here? This never happen before. Why would another's emotions be in another? Why would a girl be in a boy?
First me find vampires who drink animal blood, and have yellow eyes and are nice. Than me find girl me not see, than me find another girl who is like me now me finding big wolf who tastes kind of humany and has other emotions in him? This Forks place has lots of fun surprises!
Wait....wolfie does have a humanie flavor. Why does wolfie have humanie flavor? No other wolves have humanie flavor.
Wolfie was looking for me, his eyes looked smart, like there was more than a wolfie in them. He was moving his head to side to side like he was listening for something. He be looking for me, me is thinking.
Me jumped from the tree and stepped toward wolfie. Wolfie crouched and growled at me. Light red and orange, caution, flecks of black red willingness to kill. Wolfie knew I was a threat, he was ready to fight and kill. Silly wolf cannot hurt Matthew. Matthew fight many animals before, none make it.
Me decide not want fight, me to hungry to fight. Me radiate peace, calm, serenity. The wolf calm. Me feel other emotions in hims still cautious, only now tinged with shock and fear. But wolfie was looking and feeling calm now, peaceful. Than a most wonderful thing is happening. Wolfie is turning into human.
“What? What happened?” man said.
He was naked. He had skin like copper and black short hair, he is being tall and buff like Em-Em only not as much.
“Why did I phase back? Why can't I phase back?” he looked at me and realization and accusation bled into his colors. “It is you, you are doing this to me.”
I stared at him amazed. Wolfie turned into naked man? Where did wolfie go? I cannot eat man if he is not wolfie. He still smells like wolfie, he still tasting like wolfie, but the female emotions are almost gone now. They still be in him with other emotions but all are a faint echo now, almost not noticeable.
I put finger to lips and sit on ground trying to think. Carlisle say no humans for eating, but this naked man obviously not jut human, does that mean I am allowed to eat?
“What do you want?” man is asking.
“Are you wolfie?” I ask.
He looked at me, confusion and caution are mixing with the calm and peace I wove into him. “I was a wolf. What did you do to me?”
“Me was making you calm so you not fight Matthew...but you human now and Carlisle is saying no humans for eating,” I say.
“Wait you know Carlisle?” he ask.
“Yes, Car-Car take Matthew and promise to take care of Matthew. He say no more humans but me hungry so me sneak out and try find animal to eat. Me going to eat you because you so big and have lots of blood but now you man so me wonder if me get in trouble for eating you?”
He use one hand to cover himself while other hand bring up bag he had attached to leg, he pull out pants and put thems on.
“I am friends with the Cullen's, you are in La Push, you do now how dangerous that is for you right?”
Memory come back of Car-Car speaking of neighbors.
“Ohhhh, are you neighbors Car-Car speak of? Ones he promise not to drink human blood to?”
“I am one of them, now we need to get you out of hear before-”
Just than something large came rushing from the woods. It another wolfie. Only this one is silver and slimmer than male wolfie had been. She snarl, dark red, anger. Black red, killing intent. Me stand up and snarl and female wolf because she taste like female and she taste like female in male wolfie.
“Leah no!”
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Attachment: The act of being attached, the physical attachment of one thing to another.
Example: Leah forms an unwanted and physical attachment to Matthew.

Leah P.O.V
I and Seth had been patrolling.
We had met Sam and Jared and phased quickly. Sam gave me the look that said he wanted to speak with me but I quickly phased and ran.
It was boring as usual; no vampires had been through since the Volturi. Than Seth had caught a scent while he was drinking from the stream. He did not know what it was, it smelled like vampire and human like Nessie, but the scent of the Cullens was also drifting through the wind. Then that little boy jumped out from the trees, his eyes wild and blood thirsty.
Seth got into wolf mode and I rushed to meet him, than something odd happened. A wave of calm and serenity more powerful than anything I have ever felt hit Seth and before I could scream no he phased back.
I quickly made my way to his location and found him dressed in sweat pants talking to the little boy who was sitting on the ground. As soon as I popped up the little boy was on his face snarling at me like a little beast.
He was dressed in a pair of shorts that was way too big for him, I could smell the other leeches coming off him.
“Leah no!” Seth shouted.
He came up beside me and put his hand on my to calm me. I did not take my eyes off the boy who was now looking at me curiously.
“Leah he is with the Cullen's! He is a hybrid like Nessie can't you smell it?”
I could faintly from the smell of the Cullen's wafting from the boy.
“Leah? Her name be Leah?” the boy asked.
He was looking at me like he was seeing something I could not see, I did not like it. It made me feel like he was peering into my soul or something.
“Yes, she is my sister,” Seth said.
“I like her, she is pretty,” the boy said.
He had a smile on his face and took a step forward and I growled a warning. He frowned. Than the familiar wave of calm and serenity hit me and before I knew it I was phased into a human. I tried to be angry, I tried to bring up that rage that existed in my heart and mind that allowed me to shift but I just could not. It was like the rage was damned up but a dam made of solid metal it could not leak through.
The boy’s eyes grew wide at my nakedness. “Me never see girl naked before.....where is your thing?” he asked.
A wave of horror and embarrassment hit me. I quickly hid behind a tree and dressed myself. I pulled the bag off my leg and dressed. I came back out feeling annoyed. Annoyed but not angry. Odd.
“Seth what is going on?” I asked.
“I don't know, from what I have gotten from him Carlisle found him and told him not to drink animal blood, he saw me as a wolf and was going to eat me,” Seth said.
He was so calm, so cool. Like this was not a serious thing. I know Seth is a laid back guy but this is a little much even for him. We have a potentially dangerous being in front of us and we are not even phased to defend ourselves.
Something was off about this kid; it was not the look in his eyes that clearly said no one was home. It was my inability to feel anger. All I felt was calm and peace, although a bit cautious and annoyed a little child had seen me naked.
“Seth are you feeling to calm?” I asked.
“Yep, you can't phase can you?” he asked me.
“Nope. Think it's the kid?”
“His name is Matthew and yes, why else can't we feel anything but calm or phase?”
“Think he is like Jasper?”
“Maybe, Jasper could never make me feel this calm,” he said.
“I know.”
Matthew stepped closer to us and I did not feel nervous or endangered, just calm.
“You Seth and you Leah?” he asked us. We nodded. “Me Matthew.” he held out both hands, we looked at one another and took his hands in our. I winced a little at his grip. He shook our hands vigorously. “I am being happy to see you, I am being sorry for trying to eat you Seth-Seth.”
Seth-Seth?
“No problem Matthew, we should probably get you back to the Cullen's now.”
A howl ripped through the night. It was Jake. I wanted to phase and call back but I was to calm. “Matthew can you undo what you have done to us?” I asked.
“Okay.”
In the blink of an eye it was gone. The damn burst and all the anger and frustration came running through. I staggered under the weight of it all. For a few moments I had known such peace and calm, than I got hit by all the bad shit I felt and it felt like I got punch in the heart.
Matthew frowned, he did not look happy. “So much anger, so much bitterness, so much pain. How do you live with it all?” he asked.
I pulled my hand out of his and snarled at him. I went to go behind the tree as another of Jake's howls ripped the air. I heard a sound and saw Matthew was following me. “What?” I snapped.
He hugged me around my middle and I froze. “Don't be sad Lee-Lee,” he said.
“Don't call me that!” I snarled at him. He flinched like I struck him.
“It will be okay, Matthew is hurted as well, Matthew knows pain and loneliness too.”
Jake howled and he sounded close by. I could faintly hear the sound of paws hitting the earth. I grabbed Matthew and with much effort tore him from my body. “Look just be quiet okay,” I said.
He nodded. “Good.”
Jake came rushing through the woods with Jared and Sam by his side. “Ohhh, more wolfies,” Matthew said with a giggle.
Jake went behind a tree, I heard him phase and a moment later he came back in a pair of shorts. “Leah I tried calling you, why didn't you answer?”
“We couldn't phase Jake, Matthew stopped us from phasing,” Seth said.
“Who?” Jake asked.
“This thing,” I said pointing at Matthew who had a strong hold on my hand. He was staring At Jake in wonder.
“Wow, you are really tall, Nessie was right.”
Jake's eyes softened when Nessie's name was mentioned. Stupid imprinting power.
He walked over and bent down so he could talk to Matthew. “The Cullen's are looking for you, they are very worried.”
Matthew flinched. “Me sorry, Matthew got thirsty and I am not allowed to be drinking humans so me went hunting and found Seth-Seth and thought he would be good for eating than me made him calm so he not fight back and he turn man and me got confused on if I was still allowed to eats him or nots and than Leah-Leah came and me mades hers not angry to and she turn human.” he smiled and giggled a sound like wind chimes. “Me saw her naked, me seen her boobs.”
“Watch it!” I glowered at him.
Seth, Jake and Jared chuckled. Jared was still in wolf form so it sounded like a T-Rex was laughing. Then he stopped and glanced at Sam who did not look happy at all.
“Sorry Leah-Leah,” Matthew said.
“Why do you call her Leah-Leah?” Jake asked with a smile.
“Me called her Lee-Lee but she got really mad and a little sads so mes nots callings her Lee-Lee because she is so full of sadness and pain and me nots wants her sad or in pain.”
He wrapped his hand around my legs and hugged. I felt like I was being crushed by a giant anaconda. I saw Jake look at me and look away, I saw a knowing look in his eyes. He knew why I didn't like being called Lee-Lee they all did. I saw Sam shift his weight. I dared not look at him.
Matthew suddenly let go and grabbed Jake's hand. Jared and Sam took a step forwards and let out low growling sounds, ready to spring. Matthew sniffed Jake's hand, than he licked it. “Nessie say you taste good. She say she bite you and you let her. Do all wolves taste good?”
His question was innocent but a stirring of something dark and deadly moved behind his eyes. One moment he was a sweet inhumanly beautiful child now I was being reminded what he was.
“No, wolves do not,” Jake said firmly taking his hand out of Matthews grip.
The look faded replaced by disappointment. “Aww. If Nessie said it was okay could I bite you to? I want to know what you taste like. She says it's really good.”
“No biting, or else we will tell Carlisle, understand?” I said firmly.
He looked at me and nodded. “Yes Leah-Leah, Matthew will be good, promise.”
“And stop calling me Leah-Leah, the name is Leah, understand?”
“Okay Leah.” he smiled proud he said my name just once.
We walked to the edge of the treaty line. Seth suggested we phase and run there, Matthew liked the sound of that, but Jake said we could just walk. I thought it was a good idea. Matthew seemed to be to wild and unpredictable to allow him to ride us. What if we were running and suddenly Matthew decided he wanted to try a nibble of wolf flesh? Who’s to say he would stop at a nibble?
I remember that look in his eyes. I had seen that look in many vampires’ eyes. That cold, wild inhuman look that had nothing to do with humanity and all to do with instinct. This kid was nothing like Nessie. Nessie was refined, disciplined. This kid had obviously been raised in a different environment altogether.
Matthew held my hand as we walked, he was quit the chatter box. He was talking all about how he met Carlisle. I wondered how Carlisle was going to cover up the little incident at the hospital.
“Me likes to eat humans, they is tasting good, but Carlisle says I have to respect the laws of his house and his neighbors or I cannot live with him and I like him and the others so I won't drink human blood,” Matthew was saying.
“How many humans have you killed?” I asked a bit harsh, wishing he would let me go.
“I am not knowing,” Matthew said. “Matthew got hungry and found them to eats. They tasted really good.”
“Thank god he didn't kill Charlie,” I heard Seth mutter.
“Me like Charlie,” Matthew said. “Normally Matthew doesn't go into cars with me...not since that one tried to do stuff to Matthew.”
We all froze. We looked at Matthew and he looked uncomfortable, like he was remembering something he did not like. “Matthew, what do you mean a man in a car tried to do stuff to you?” I asked, fearing the answer.
“Matthew was walking along a road one nights in a big city. Matthew likes big cities, they be full of people to eat and colors from all the people. A man pulled up in his car and asked Matthew if he was lost and Matthew was lost looking for daddy and I told the man this. The man glowed with satisfaction, desire and sick need. Matthew didn't like him much, but he said he knew where daddy was and he would drive Matthew to him. Matthew went with him and they drive somewhere private and quiet, Matthew ask man where daddy is and man say nothing. Matthew saw how excited he was, it made Matthew uncomfortable, man was feeling things at Matthew, Matthew had seen before that men and women feel for one another. We stopped and flecks of red appear in his color and I knew man wanted to do bad things to Matthew. He turned to Matthew and told him he had to do things for man to find daddy, Matthew said no and man grabbed Matthew and try to touch him. Then I radiate fear and man got scared and tried to run from Matthew but Matthew found me and made sure he never touch anyone again.”
The uncomfortable look on his face disappeared, replaced by a savage look of triumph, enjoying the memory of the kill. We all looked at one another; I made a mental note to inform Carlisle of this.
We continued to walk and Matthew continued to talk of all the places he had been to, all the people he had seen and ate, about how much fun he had with the Cullen's and Nessie. Or Ness-Ness as he liked to call her. I could tell Jake got a little jealous.
So could Matthew. “Don't be Jealous Jake-Jake, me and Ness-Ness are friends, like me and Leah and Seth-Seth are friends. We can be friends to, me not bite you, promise.”
We made it to the treaty line and found some of the Cullen's waiting. “Car-Car! Es-Es! Ed-Ed, Jas-Jas!” Matthew screamed in delight. He ran to the Cullen's dragging me with him. He refused to let me go and I had to fight not to fall down.
Esme bent down to meet with him. “Matthew we were so worried about you,” she said, her face filled with relief.
“I'm sorry Es-Es, me got thirsty and wanted to drink and I went to find an animal to eat. Me left scent marks on tree's so I would not be getting lost.”
“We know, we followed you're trail,” Carlisle said. He turned to Jake and smiled. “Thank you Jacob. I am sorry about this. I was going to call you tomorrow and tell you about Matthew.”
“What were you doing phased in the first place Jake?” Seth asked. “It was our night.”
“Carlisle called me and told me Matthew was heading for our territory. I instantly ran out and phased and told Sam of the situation. We found you're scent and I tried calling but you didn't respond,” he said.
“We couldn't phase, I told you that?” I said annoyed.
“Why couldn't you phase?” Carlisle asked.
“Matthew did something, we could only feel calm and peaceful,” I said.
“I saw them naked. Did you know girls don't have the thing between you're legs?” Matthew said looking amazed.
I flushed in embarrassment and I heard Jake and Seth gaff in laughter. I turned and glared at them and they shut up in an instant.
“He actually kept you from phasing?” Carlisle said amazed.
“Yes.”
He looked at Matthew with the kind of interest a scientist looks at a new species of animal he finds. “I am sorry for the trouble, we will keep a better eye on him.” he turned and face Matthew and his tone became more stern. “And we are going to have a talk young man about you running off without telling no one.”
“Sorry Car-Car, me got thirsty and wanted to find an animal to eat. I didn't hurted Seth-Seth though, me knew you not like it if I hurted him.”
“Well I am glad you or no one got hurt.”
“Except my pride,” I muttered.
“Now apologize to the Quileutes for trespassing on their land and bothering them,” Carlisle said.
Matthew turned to us all. “Sorry for trespassing and bothering you and trying to eat you and seeing you naked.” he looked at me, worry clear on his face. “You should see a doctor about not having a thingie between your legs. That could be bad.”
Seth, Jake and Jared couldn't hold it in anymore. They let out boisterous laughs, coming from Jared it sounded like thunder. Sam was still not laughing, but even the Cullen's could not manage to smile a little bit at Matthew's ignorance.
“I am a girl, we do not have thingies between our legs,” I said uncomfortable I had to tell a kid this.
“That's weird,” he said.
“Okay Matthew lets go home,” Esme said.
Matthew began to walk with Esme, dragging me with him. “Uh Matthew please let Leah go,” Esme said with a small smile.
Matthew looked sad. “Can't she come with us?” he asked.
“No, she has things she has to do at her own home.”
“But she is so sad. Let’s take her home and make her happy,” he said holding my hand tight.
“Matthew it is not polite to tell people what someone is feeling,” Esme gently chided him.
“It is?”
“Yes, people prefer their feelings not be told to others.”
Matthew looked pained. I could tell he didn't want to leave me. “Will you come visit me Leah?” he asked.
I didn't want to, I had spent enough time at the leech house to last me a life time. But the puppy dog look on his face was filled with begging and pleading, I had to say yes. “Yeah sure, whatever. Now let go my hand, I'm losing the feeling in it.”
He had been holding onto my hand so tight it had gone numb. He let go and wrapped his arms around my legs and hugged me, thank god we healed quick or I would be covered in bruises tomorrow.
“I can't wait!”
“But you have to go to bed and be good.”
“I will I promise Leah.”
He let go and took Esme's hand. She smiled warmly and I smiled back. Esme had always been nothing but nice and caring to me even when I was being blatantly disrespectful to her. There was not a vindictive bone in that woman’s body.
“I will make food for you tomorrow.”
“Thank you.”
“I will come too, to talk with you about Matthew,” Jake said.
Sam took a step forward. “Sam wants to come too,” Edward said.
“You are all welcome,” Carlisle said.
We planned to come over at around noon. As they walked away Matthew kept on looking back and me and smiling and waving. I waved back to appease the little spaz and he smiled when I did.
Once they were out of eyes sight I turned to a grinning Seth and Jake. “What?”
“Someone has a fan,” Seth said.
“Shut it!” I growled.
“Aw, come on Leah-Leah don't be like that,” Jake said.
“Black I am this close to killing you and taking over the pack!” I warned.
“Man I can't believe that kid kept us from phasing,” Seth said.
“Tell me about it, not even Jasper could do that,” I said remembering how his power kept me so calm and peaceful. I have been practicing for months with yoga and meditation to try and get a little of what he just gave me and I have not even come close. But in a second he gave me enough peace and calm to bring a raging elephant to a stop.
“I wonder where he is from and where his dad is. I know I wouldn't want to lose my kid, especially if he could do that,” Jake said.
Where was his father? Jake was right. With a power that strong why would a vampire just ditch him. Unless he was dead. I remembered on the way to meet with the Cullen's Matthew talked of how he had no memory except for an incomprehensible pain. A pain so powerful it filled his past and made him more than a little unhinged.
I looked to Sam and saw he was not happy. He was still looking in the direction the Cullens had gone, he looked tense. I know he was not happy a vampire...I mean half-vampire was out there who had the power to make us go from wolf to human. He glanced at me and I looked away.
Jake went home and me and Seth phased and finished our rounds. Seth was going to come with us. Not that he needed an excuse, of all the wolves Jake and Seth spent the most time at the Cullen's. Jake for Nessie and Seth because he liked to hang out with the vampires.
He liked to play video games with Emmett and listen to Jasper talk about his days as a bad ass vampire and military general in the civil war. Edward had been teaching him to play the piano. I wished he would hang out with anyone but the Cullen's. He didn't have many friends at school anymore. After he phased he had to ditch all of them.
He had better control now but still having human friends is hard. How do you talk about music and girls and school work when you know you are different? When you live in a world of myth and legend. He hangs out with Collin and Brady from time to time and has been helping Sam with the new wolves. But when he is not doing school work or patrolling he spends most of his time at the Cullen's.
I guess I can understand why he did it. The new wolves were too young for him to hang out with and Collin and Brady only had so much time what with their own duties to Sam's pack. The Cullen's were the only other people he could be himself with and not hide his true nature.
The thought of me having human friends seemed impossible. I still have an attitude problem and it just seemed odd to be around people who were below you in the food chain.
After we finished we headed home. I went straight to bed, tired from the night’s events, my legs still a little sore form Matthew's grip. He had clung to me so hard, afraid to let me go.
I was more than a little disturbed by Matthew, how he could so easily control my emotions like flipping a light switch, how he could read me so easily and see all the pain I held deep within me. Then there was the wild feral side I saw float in his eyes that let me know that he was more wild and dangerous than Nessie was.
I hope the Cullen's know what they have gotten themselves into, I have a feeling Matthew is going to be a handful.

Fusedtwilight: If only Leah knew how he was going to affect her life. Please review.
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