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My Shiny Freak	By : Prettyflour Category: Twilight Series > AU/AR > Het > Het Views: 3183 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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I ran, fast and with purpose.
What was my purpose you ask? I needed seeds, lots and lots of seeds. Sunflower seeds to be exact. I needed to start over. Planting, then growing, and watching as life coiled and sprang up from dirt. That was what I wanted, what I had a tremendous pounding need for.
I wanted it like I wanted blood, like I wanted Edward. I wanted independence. I wanted to walk into a store and simply buy something! That was my plan.
So I ran as fast as my feet would carry me. I was happy, flying through dense forest in a blur, steadfast in my determination. Until I hit civilization. That was when my entire plan went to shit.
I froze as soon as I smelled them.
What the fuck was I thinking? I clutched my throat as it burned me from the inside out. I stood rooted to the ground, a road within my sight. My mind swung back and forth between bouts of threadbare control and all consuming lust for blood.
No! No! No!
I was in control. Right?
Fuck me.
The scent around me was like the biggest itch ever demanding to be scratched.
I took my hands down and breathed in deep, groaning, almost choking on the venom pooling in my mouth.
I will fucking control myself!
I will!
Growling, I ran some more, parallel to the road, out of sight from any prying eyes. I grunted as I past cars, willing the drivers to drive in the opposite fucking direction. I pushed forward, possessed and snarling. South bound and sure footed, I stopped when I realized I had no fucking idea where I was. Shit!
I had left in such haste that I'd left my phone at home. I had nothing to guide me, no map, no GPS. Fuck! I almost started crying again before I slapped myself and got a hold of my rampant emotions. I could fucking do this!
I kept running until I saw a sign for Talkeetna through the trees. I walked up to a rest stop of some sort. No one was around. I raised my head and walked proudly out of the woods. The scent of human was faint, lingering, as if someone had been around there not long ago. Bracing myself, I walked down the street. The first five minutes were uneventful, meandering roadside, wandering closer and closer to the abso-fucking-lutely mouth watering smells emerging from the south. I strolled past a few houses where I could hear people inside, refusing to even look in that direction. I focused on moving forward, making myself ignore them and I may have made everyone within a half mile radius stay away from me, for good measure. I was scowling so hard, my face started to cramp. Making an attempt to appear somewhat normal, I tried smiling, closed mouth of course. I tried to walk faster, but didn't want to walk too fast or attract any kind of attention to myself. All the while, my inner monologue went a little something like…
Just keep walking. Just keep walking. Don't breath. Need seeds. Have to find seeds. I am in total control. Seeds! I need seeds! God, please let me find seeds! SOON!
I came really close to bursting into non-existent tears when I saw the True Value up ahead. I almost ran there at vampire speed- almost. That was when I saw them. I counted eight humans in the parking lot, a group of teenagers loitering.
There was bound to be more inside. I could hear heartbeats and smell that sweet fucking scent so strongly.
Human Bella screeched, "Stop breathing!"
Devil Bella snickered. "I think you should breathe more. Better yet, go have a taste."
I had a moment.
I stood there, my left eye twitching while all hell broke loose inside my mind. Outwardly, I did not move, but inside… Holy fucking hell, I was a mess of epic proportions. Ultimately, I decided that someone had to die.
And that person was Devil Bella. She was getting on my nerves something fierce. The bitch had to go. I may have screamed something like, "I am a fucking vegetarian you asshole! And for Christ's sake, put some clothes on. Pfft." Who wears lingerie at a time like this? Really? I stood by and watched as Human Bella happily strangled the life out of her. Devil Bella turned out to be a total wuss, she didn't even fight back! Human Bella took her down with little effort, her lifeless imaginary body winking out of existence, and when it was done, my control was back.
Human Bella pointed to the store and told me to go forth and buy seeds. Then she suggested that I get home ASAP- reminding me that Edward was most likely freaking the fuck out in my absence.
I had better make this quick.
"Hey!"
I whipped my head in the direction of the voice. One of the loitering boys smiled and waved. I stared for a beat, at his throbbing jugular, damn was it pretty. Snarling, I turned my gaze toward the door, ignored the boy and kept walking.
I heard him say, "Wait up."
I started walking faster trying in vain to ignore the sound of his hurried footsteps. The idiot was trying to approach me. He said something else, but all I could hear was his heart thundering in my ears.
I needed to make him go away before I ended up eating him in front of his friends. I stopped and turned my head in his direction and accidentally breathed in. Christ! He smelled good, and in a weird twist of fate he also smelled sort of revolting. On top of the awesome smelling blood was the scent of cigarettes, beer, pork rinds and a noxious body odor. Ugh. I grimaced. Shower much?
"Hey," he repeated smiling. Good god, his breath was foul. What the hell had he been eating with those pork rinds? His own feces? Never mind. I didn't want to know. He held out his hand. "I'm Riley."
I decided that Riley had a serious fucking hygiene problem. The vile scents emanating from him were totally swaying my need to drain the hooligan. I did not touch his grubby hand and tried not to focus on the dandruff-ridden, greasy hair that was slicked back with a crazy amount of hair gel.
"Wanna hang out?" He smiled again, his tartar caked teeth making me want to attack him a tooth brush. Fuck, this guy was disgusting!
I turned my gaze back to the front door of True Value and started walking again.
"Bitch," he muttered under his breath.
At his words, I growled and stopped walking. The fucking asshat had no idea what his insult could do. I could drain that little prick in a second and his stinky friends too. My teetering emotions were dangerously close to taking over.
"Riley!" I hissed and he narrowed his beady eyes at me. His expression turned cocky and he ran his hands down his chest, slowly onto his stomach and into his pockets where he lackadaisically adjusted what I guessed was his tiny penis.
I had the urge to vomit.
Instead I closed the distance between us and grabbed the collar of his Dave Matthews Band shirt and said, "Go home, brush your teeth, take a long soap filled shower, and fuck! Haven't you ever heard of deodorant? Get away from me you sorry excuse for a twinkie. Ew."
Looking slightly dazed he swayed on his feet and said, "You just rocked my world."
I turned away from the rankest human ever, made my way to the store, and walked through the door. The scent was all around me trying to burrow its way inside of my senses. I refused to breathe, steeling myself and proceeding forward, smiling in a vain attempt to hide the agony that was my throat. It burned! It burned!
Alas, I did not get far. The urge to rip some poor defenseless human was great. I stood at the front of the store, hands balled into fists, twitching and trying desperately to just not kill anyone. Man was it hard!
I closed my eyes.
Calm
Calm
In Control.
Calm
In Control mother fucker!
Seeds. Find the seeds and get the fuck out. Now!
"Can I help you?"
"SEEDS!" I nearly screamed. The poor woman before me took a step back, her smock a god awful puke green.
"Ok…" She eyed me warily. "What kind of seeds do you need?"
I wanted to speak but I had expelled all of my breath the last time I spoke. I would need to inhale again. FUCK! I took the tiniest breath ever and squeaked out, "Sunflo…"
"I'm sorry. What was that?" Damn her and her questions! Can't she see that I'm struggling here? Fucking human! My eye twitched rapidly and my hands shook as I breathed in again.
"Sunflower seeds." I spoke through gritted teeth, refusing to open my mouth any more than necessary.
"To eat?" Oh my god! I laughed out loud at her question. If only she knew what I wanted to eat.
I wanted to respond but pesky venom was flooding my mouth. I swallowed a few times and tried to regroup.
Calm
Calm
Calm.
I am in total control right now.
Dammit eye! Stop twitching!
I may have snorted at myself, I'm not sure. She looked at me as if I were crazy and then asked, "Are you alright, dear? Do you need some help?"
With every ounce of control I could muster, I looked into her eyes and said, "Bring me every mother fucking sunflower seed you have in this store. Now!"
She abruptly turned and walked away. I was really hoping she would come back soon.
Three agonizing minutes later she appeared at the register with a large box in hand and waved me over. I made my best effort to walk at a human's pace and tried to smile as I approached.
"Here you are. This is every mother fucking sunflower seed in the store. That will be One hundred ten dollars and fifteen cents." She was clearly annoyed with me.
I just stared at her, both my lips and my eye twitching now. I internally cursed myself for not bringing any money. I thought about my shiny black card and how Alice had destroyed it. My bottom lip quivered as I remembered how awesome the name Isabella Cullen had looked on it, the font had even been a little sparkly. I missed that fucking card so much. I was on the verge of sobbing.
I had come this far and not killed anyone. Not a single one! I was a fucking rock star newborn! I needed these seeds! Needed them so bad!
"Listen, sweetie," the scrumptious mortal said. "If you don't intend on buying anything, I'm going to ask that you leave."
I gasped. "No… please!"
I grabbed my hair and pulled. I couldn't take this anymore! This bitch had not one idea of how much I wanted to eat her and then take the seeds out from under her dead exsanguinated body. Seriously!
Human Bella shook a finger at me and said, "Make her give them to you. Duh!"
Oh yes. Right. I could totally do that.
I looked her in the eyes again. "Give me the seeds now, then smile and thank me."
She handed over the box, smiled and said, "Thank you for coming!"
I took the box, danced a jig at vampire speed and hauled ass out of the store. I was barely out the door when I heard someone call my name.
"Bella?"
I stopped walking and looked up. As if this day could get any worse.
"Tanya." I put every ounce of effort into maintaining my appearance. My scowl was tucked away behind an indifferent expression as I faced her.
She looked at me quizzically. "Where's Edward?"
"Uh… Home?"
"Whose with you?"
I narrowed my eyes slightly. "No one."
Her eyes went wide and she pulled her cell out of her purse and started dialing.
"Who are you calling?" I asked trying to peek at her cell.
She rolled her eyes. "Edward, of course."
"Oh no, you're not. Stop now."
She sighed and ceased dialing. "Bella… You shouldn't be here by yourself."
My resolve was quickly dwindling. I wasn't sure any amount of restraint could keep me from tearing her head off if she dared call me a newborn. "I'm fine, just had to pick up a few things at the store."
Before I could stop her, she fired off a quick text. Apparently I should have been specific. I had prevented her from calling Edward and she had found a fucking loophole in my manipulation and texted him instead.
"I told you I was fine." I seethed.
She sighed again and smiled gently. "Please understand… I just want to help. Why don't I give you ride home?"
Her phone beeped, twice.
"Give that to me." She handed me the phone.
New text from Edward: Where are you?
Next text from Edward: Is she OK?
I replied to his first question with: Tahiti.
I replied to his second text with: She is just fine, no thanks to you. Liar!
Then I dropped it to the ground and stepped on it.
"My phone!" Tanya shouted.
I glared at her, taking a moment to ponder what I should do next. A part of me just wanted to get home and start planting my seeds, but I was livid with Edward, Alice, and Carlisle. I wanted to cry again. Clutching the box of seeds to my chest, I just stood there.
"Are you sure you're fine?" Tanya asked, a hint of sincerity in her voice. "You look upset."
I scoffed and shook my head. I really didn't want to have this conversation with Tanya of all people.
"Look…" She paused for a beat. "You're obviously in control of yourself. I can see that. My intentions are good. I swear. I just want to make sure you'll be ok."
"I'm fine." I repeated lowering my eyes. "I got into a little disagreement with Edward is all."
"You're fighting with Edward?" She tried to keep her face impassive but I didn't miss the hint of a smile and a gleam in her eye.
"It's nothing. I just needed a little space." I waved my hand as nonchalantly as I could manage.
For the briefest of moments she smirked before trying to look sincere. I looked her in the eyes and willed her to tell me the truth. "Tell me what you're thinking."
She hesitated before whispering, "I'm hoping he'll give me the opportunity to comfort him."
Reigning in my hankering to shred the bitch I asked, "Comfort him how?"
"The only way I know how." She answered. "With sex."
~O~
I was impressed with myself. I didn't tear Tanya apart. Instead I took her up on her offer for a ride. Sort of.
I made sure no one was looking before I dragged her to her car, stuffed her ass in the trunk, made her stay there quietly, and drove away smirking.
After silently debating with myself and driving around aimlessly for about ten minutes, I decided to go home. There really was no other option. As mad as I was, I couldn't risk any more human exposure, and as much as hated the very idea, I would have to stop manipulating Tanya at some point.
I was tempted to run as driving took longer, but it was nice to have a little time to myself.
Alas, twenty minutes later I heard Edward yelling, "Pull Over!"
I reluctantly pulled off to the side of the road, putting the car in park and getting out to face him. He rushed to me, his hands suddenly on my face, his eyes searching mine.
He grabbed me then and pulled me into a crushing hug. "Thank god," he whispered. "Fuck, Bella, I was so worried."
Pulling back, he looked over to the car and said, "Uh… Where's Tanya?"
Where's Tanya? That's all he had to say? I was sure he must have heard her thoughts! No, I love you? No, I missed you? No, I'm sorry? His question sent my level of anger to uncharted territory. Without thinking I slapped him across the face immediately recoiling as I heard a loud crack. He grunted and squeezed his eyes shut, his mouth hanging open in a really odd way. I suddenly realized that I had broken his jaw.
Anger? Gone.
Oh, hello, guilt.
I felt my awesome control slip through my fingers and I made some kind of weird choking noise as I fell to my knees. I'd hurt him. I'd really fucking hurt him.
"Edward! Get me out of here!" Tanya shrieked from the trunk.
"Bella…" Edward had rushed forward and knelt down in front me, bringing his arms around me and shushing me sweetly. "It's ok."
I sniffed. "No, it's not. I broke your jaw."
He put his hands on my face and made me look at him. "I deserved it."
My breath was coming out in jerky pants, my fingers running up and down his beautiful jaw. "I hurt you," I whispered.
"I'm fine, really." He smiled sadly. "I hurt you too by lying, and I am so sorry, Bella. Please…"
His bottom lip quivered, "Please don't leave me."
I gasped. "Never!"
Pulling him into me, I could feel his regret and fear. My arms wrapped tight around him, I squeezed and breathed him in. He nuzzled my neck and smelled me too, his nose trailing up and down my throat.
"I'm sorry," he repeated and I kissed up and down his jaw.
"I'm sorry too."
"I love you."
"I love you too."
And we kissed, taking occasional breaks to whisper apologies and 'I love you's.' His voice hoarse and desperate, I realized he'd thought I left him… He'd thought I wasn't coming back? Silly vampire. I just needed a break from Cullentown.
"Will you come home, please?" He looked shaken, nervous. "We'll go to the cottage, just us."
Tanya knocked from the trunk. "Is someone going to let me out or what?"
I raised an eyebrow at Edward. He smirked and took my hand, helping me to my feet. He motioned for us to leave and I laughed, grabbing my box of seeds and ran home with him.
~O~
We hunted before zipping off to the love shack. Edward drew a bath as soon as he walked in the door. As the tub filled he came to me, lifting my shirt over my head.
He lifted my hand to his nose and sniffed; his expression apprehensive. "You touched a human?"
"Just his shirt," I conceded, shrugging. I hadn't wanted to make contact to that smelly fucker's skin. No way!
He stepped into the tub and I followed, leaning on him, my back to his chest. He washed me slowly with lots of sandalwood scented soap. Taking his time, he scrubbed away any lingering scents of the outside world, silent the entire time.
"Ask me," I said trying to break the silence, the tension.
He sighed and spoke quietly. "Where did you go?"
I took the sponge from him and turned around, lathering it up and running it across his chest. "I went to the store and bought seeds."
I couldn't stop myself from smiling. I had done something all by myself and killed no one. Edward nodded and I tugged his arm forward a bit, motioning for him to scoot up. I slid behind him and washed his back and shoulders, noting the tension there. "I controlled myself. I didn't do anything bad, I swear."
"I know," he replied quickly and closed his eyes. I continued to wash and rinse him, troubled by his silence. I may have made him tell me what was bothering him. "Who was he?"
"The human?" I asked incredulously. That's what he wants to know about? Oh shit… What does he think happened?
I nudged his shoulder and guided his body as he turned to face me. I put my hand on his chest and pushed gently, letting him lean back as I climbed over to straddle him. "He approached me in the parking lot. He called me a bitch after I ignored him, and I grabbed his shirt and told him to go home."
Edward shook his head and laughed, "You were that close?"
"I didn't want to be. He was fucking rank!" I wrinkled my nose at the memory. "My desire to drink from him was stunted by his positively non-existent hygiene. He was nasty."
"Wow… I don't know what to say." He smiled at me. "I'm really proud of you right now. To be around so many humans… I never could have handled that when I was newborn."
"Really? You're not exaggerating?"
He snorted. "I couldn't even make it ten seconds with the blood bag Carlisle had me practice with. You're doing exceedingly well with your control."
I scooped up water with my hands and poured it over shoulders, washing away some soap bubbles. "You were upset because I smelled like a human?" I asked curious about how silent he had been earlier.
"It wasn't because it was a human, it was because it was a male."
"You were jealous?" I blurted out, surprised and stupidified. The thought of doing anything with Riley made my stomach turn. Ew.
"Yes," he replied. "Imagine smelling a female on me."
I growled at the thought and Edward snorted. "See what I mean?"
I snuggled against him and relaxed as his arms came around me. "I want you to know that I would never…"
"I know." He kissed the top of my head. "I feel the same way."
We finished our bath and dressed. I notice my skin, glistening and moist from the scented oil used in the bath. I slipped on one of Edward's t-shirts and he was in nothing but a pair of comfy pajama pants low slung and revealing his v. Yum! We lay in front of the fireplace, listening to The xx.
I tried to relax, but it was hard. I felt twitchy.
I wasn't thirsty; my throat didn't hurt, well, not really. I felt a little anxious.
I looked over at Edward. I tackled Edward. I kissed Edward. I kissed Edward a lot. The connection between my brain and lips had been severed I think, they just had a mind of their own.
After a forty two minute make out session, I was staring at Edward's lips, thinking of all the different ways he used them on me, of his varied methods of kissing me.
"What are you thinking about?" He asked an eyebrow quirked.
"How you kiss me, all your styles."
"My styles?" He asked, trying to feign ignorance.
He was playing dumb. He knew exactly what I was talking about.
"Oh yes, all the ways you use your mouth to show me you love me." I pulled him closer, tracing one finger over his bottom lip. He kissed my finger of course, he always did. "Now that was a very sweet kiss, a little short on length but high in the affection level."
He smirked and leaned forward, running his nose up my cheek. He moved back slowly, drawing out the anticipation before lightly brushing his lips over mine. A ghost of a kiss before he brushed our cheeks together again, making sure to breathe in my ear before beginning another slow decent to my mouth. Still soft, this kiss became more forceful with each pass- a shift of his hips, a slip of his tongue, just a tiny slip before he pulled away completely.
"Tease!" I groaned and he threw his head back in laughter.
He recovered quickly, just a hint of smile as he proceeded to stare at me a little, his eyes sparkling with mischief. It started playful and sweet, a smattering of kisses up and down my neck, a lick of my ear, a nibble on my jaw. When his lips found my face, they slowed, dragging from temple to temple. With an intense stare, he kissed me full on, our mouths mashed together in desperation but somehow we kept the pace at a crawl.
Gah... That kiss... It was my favorite. I was melting, melting...
I would shamelessly cry out his name if I could free my mouth. Game over, Edward wins.
He knew I was putty in his hands, a little smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. I pulled him closer and he took my jaw in his hands and angled my head just so he could put his tongue deeper in my mouth. Oh my...
My toes curled. He'd better not stop.
Sweet victory! He didn't. He kissed the hell out of me until I begged him to take me, but insist that we kiss the entire time. He looked at me curiously, his expression almost shy, vulnerable.
"I love kissing you," he whispered, pulling me up, my breasts pressed hard into his chest. "Love your lips; love it when they're on me, anywhere."
I leaned in, my lips all over his neck. My mouth hovering over the scar I gave him; my lips descended slowly, kissing as I ground into him. My tongue lapped venom over his skin and I knew that the healing process was over, but I couldn't stop myself. I felt Edward's hand on my neck, his fingers tracing patterns on my scar.
A rush of indescribable sensation washed over me: a heady mix of awe, longing and lust. Frenzied and bubbling, there was a crazy, surging energy between us. I looked at him, my hand on his neck. We touched each other's scars and I could feel our bond grow and pulse in the air around us.
"Can you feel that?" He asked, breathless.
I nodded, keeping our stare. "Yes," I whispered, also breathless.
And we kissed, and kissed, and kissed. My lips wandered his body; I explored some of my favorite parts of Edward, the ones that didn't get much attention; like the inside of his elbow, the back of his calves and thighs. I kissed him all over, paying close attention to his reactions. Slow trails of my tongue up his rib cage, circling his nipples, wandering… Licking, sucking, and savoring.
I teased him. Relentlessly.
My lips pressed to his chest and dragged slowly over his collar bone to his neck. A very sensitive spot for Edward, I spend lots of time there; teasing until he was whimpering and softly begging for my body.
I quickly straddled him, bringing my lips to his. Giving him a kiss I knew he liked. An intense pace, dripping with need as pressed my body up against his. I could feel the head of his cock so close to slipping inside me. I move down an inch, just enough to get barely the head inside. I retracted.
"More," Edward whispered and I gave him a little, just a tad more before I pulled back again.
He was groaning and pushing up his hips, trying to push inside me but I rose. "Come on, Bella, give it to me."
Another jerk of his hips and I was steadying them with my hands, keeping him in place.
Looking down at him, I was fucking stunned. He was beautiful, as always. His hair wild, eyes clamped shut and squirming beneath me. God, he looked desperate for me, like he was on the verge of coming. Absolutely wanton and so sexy. I purred.
His eyes snapped open and he looked at me, stared at me; his finger sliding down my neck between my breasts, my skin still slick from the bath oil. I had to keep a strong hold on his hips as he fought against my hands.
Tilting his chin up, I leaned down to kiss him. I hovered, my lips so close to his.
"Please…" He begged in a whisper, his nose brushing against mine, our eyes still staring.
One chaste kiss and I hovered again, just for a few moments before the need in his eyes burned me. Then our lips were together, searing me, melting me into him. His hands on my back rubbing hard, massaging me all over, ridding me of all tension or anxiousness. It felt so good, I felt wonderful, free, relaxed. I let my body go slack against his and I just felt him. Our kiss broke and I wrapped myself around him, squeezing and loving him.
His lips were still working, giving slow close-mouthed kisses to the side of my face. I felt… content, loved and so close to him, yet I wanted closer. I wanted him inside of me but not for sexual pleasure. I brought my hands down onto his hips again and held tight.
"Yes," he breathed, and it came out in a hiss. He captured my lips with his once more and gave me my favorite kiss again. God, I loved this man.
Easing so slowly on to him, I bobbed up and down in short strokes and watched as he gasped and struggled. "Oh fuck… Slower, please. I don't want to come yet."
I bobbed up and down a few more times and then sank down onto him, all the way. I pressed our bodies together and rolled my hips. Moaning into his mouth I ground harder, my hands releasing him. I rolled us over, wanting him on top, wanting the weight of his body on mine. Arms around his neck, legs around his waist, I brought him down, into me. We built a slow rhythm, an ongoing kiss that eventually I broke to lean into his ear and whisper, "I love you, so much, always."
And he came, clutching onto me and shaking. It was beautiful, he was breath-taking.
"Always," he breathed still inside me, still so close. Smiling into his neck I breathed, sated, and I was finally blissfully at ease.
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