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Pack Mother

Chapter 28
Fusedtwilight: Sorry for the delay guys, been having trouble deciding on how to end the fic. Just to warn you this chapter gets a little dark and may be a trigger for people who have suffered emotional trauma. So be warned.
Leah P.O.V
I was over in La Push at Emily's.
I sat the coffee down in front off Kim who looked like she had been up all night.
"Are you sure you don't want some tea?" I asked.
She shook her head. "That will put me to sleep. I can't sleep, not now. No until your mom gets me those pills."
Shipa Kadidu has been busy tormenting everyone. Poor Kim has been suffering nightmares that wakes her up in the night.
Mom was going to get her some pills that kept her from dreaming.
Emily, Rebecca and Rachel sat with her drinking tea. They had nightmares too, but for some reason it effected her the worst.
Emily's scent had already changed. I could smell her pheromones changing. If I concentrated I could hear the faintest of heart beats besides her own.
Sam had become so overprotective of her and over bearing. There were days when he refused to allow her to leave the house. He was afraid Shippa Kadidu might do something to hurt her.
Even though he could not physically touch her, he could still mess with her head.
"Have the elders figured out how to use the feather?" Emily asked.
I shook my head. "They are trying to figure that out. Since we can only use it one time we want to make sure we use it with the right spell or else we'll loose our chance."
"I don't get why the spirit would tell you to use the Lupus. They have no idea how to help us," Rachel said.
"I know, that has been bothering me. The spirit has been quiet and not spoken to me since she told me to get the Lupus."
"Have you tried to communicate with her?" Rebecca asked.
"No. But I might do it tonight, with only two days to go we need to know what to do."
Just then the door opened and mom came in with Bronson, Spencer, Harry and Alex in tow.
"We're back!"
Bronson ran over to Kim. "Ma ma, we got the pills," he said handing her the box.
"Oh thank the lord," Kim said with a smile.
"Come on let's get you home," he said.
"Bronson don't be rude," I chastised him.
"Sorry mom, but dad told me as soon as I get the pills to take ma ma home and make sure she sleeps safe and sound," he said.
"It's alright, I am exhausted. Thanks Sue."
No problem dear, let me know if it works," Sue said.
Bronson walked with Kim out of the house and took her back to her and Jared's house.
"Poor thing. That horrible wolf has been haunting everyone. Poor Claire as well," mom said.
Claire had been having nightmares where she is Little Red Riding Hood and she gets eaten by a large black wolf. It was driving Quil crazy that he couldn't do anything to help her.
"Just another two days and this will end, one way or another," I said.
"Don't worry everyone. We'll fuck that wolf spirit up!" Alex said.
"Yeah, we're super wolves remember, nothing is more bad ass then us!" Spencer said.

The Spirit World
The Earth Spirit watched as her children played.
It was a time of celebration, when the veil between the two worlds became thin and travel between the two was easier the spirits all gathered to celebrate.
They all danced around a large bonfire, Kokopelli was one of the many spirits playing a flute while he chased after a group of nymphs.
Rå, Kachina, Sidhe, Apsara, Genii, D'jinn, Sylph's, fauns, tennin, and varies other nature spirits celebrating the reaping. The time of harvest when the earth yields it's fruits and hard earned work in the fields paid off.
She sat on her throne, watching them. She held a goblet of nectar in her hand, taking a sip from it every so often.
A Karpoi flew over to her. It looked like a baby angel except it had skin the color of grass, solid green eyes and it's hair was made of wheat.
"Excuse me lady, I bring news," he said.
"What is it?"
"Shippa Kadidu is about to make his move. The humans have already sent the women from the south."
The spirit took another drink from her cup.
"Things are coming to a close. We are just about to enter the crux of all this. It all rests on Leah."
"But should she fail Shippa Kadidu will be released.
The spirit shrugged. "He is a spirit of destruction. He plays as much of a role in creation as any of us. I may not like him, but I can no more condemn him any more then mankind condemn me for being what I am. And it is not a matter if she will fail. For you see, I already know Shippa Kadidu will escape his prison."
"But if he does that he will wreak havoc on the world!"
"It is in his nature. But I know Leah will stop him."
"But how? A mere shifter can not face such a spirit in combat? The only thing that keeps her safe is that she is marked by you."
"Leah has all the tools she needs. She will win. I don't just chose any mortal to be the mothers of a new breed after all."

Leah P.O.V
We were over at Billy's with the Lupus and elders in attendance.
Eva and Frank had returned with the rest of the girls who were now back at the house. I had yet to begin transforming them. I asked Marco to wait until after we deal with the evil spirit.
He agreed, he was worried to have the girls here now that Eva and Frank imprinted on one another but once he saw none of the wolves imprinted on the girls.
The boys were happy to meet them, last I saw before I left Harry had phased to show off his coat to the women who were giving him a belly rub and running their hands over his fur.
"So how are we supposed to fight this thing?" Michael asked.
"Our best hope is to use the feather. But we are afraid to use it in fear we might use it for the one purpose. It is only supposed to be used one time," Billy said.
"Could a simple purification ritual work? He is a malevolent spirit," Yosef suggested.
"We do not know if it would weaken him, seal him or simply banish him to another land. If only our people could still spirit walk," Old Quil said.
"Wait...maybe that is the key," Jaya said.
"What?" Jake asked.
"What if we simply summoned the spirit warriors of your tribe? My people have ways to communicate with our ancestors. Since this is a time where the veil between the two worlds is thin with the power of this feather a ritual to summon ancestral spirits should be a breeze!"
"He's right. With all the spirit warriors who ever existed helping I am sure they can help defeat him!" mom said.
"But we do not have such a ritual," Billy said.
"Then I can teach you how my people do it. The cultures may be different but I am sure we can yield the desired results!"
"It is the best option we all have," Qing said.
"But when should we do it? Should we wait until it is the new moon? Or should we do it tonight?" Marco asked.
"How about tomorrow? We will have plenty of time to learn of Jaya's ritual today and tomorrow we can try it out," Billy said.
"Is the ritual complicated?" Old Quil asked.
Jaya shook his head.
"No, it simply a song and dance."
"Good, let us all pray that this will be over and soon," Billy said.

Howie P.O.V
I watched as my cousin and brothers made fools of themselves with the women from Mexico.
When they first learned they would be staying with us they were all excited. They did not have much interaction with members of the opposite sex who were our family.
So of course they were flirting like there was no tomorrow.
The women unlike Eva knew little to no English. But that did not stop the others from putting the moves on them.
Whether they were showing them our vehicles, walking them around the house or flexing their muscles the women did not care.
At first they seemed to be really into the guys. Laughing at everything they said, clinging to them like they were good friends.
Some of them tried to be friendly with me as well, I was polite but I was not into them as my brothers and Harry. When they realized I was no into them like that they pretty much ignored me.
But something strange happened, Eva spoke to them all in Spanish. I don't what she said to them, but her tone was firm and the girls became less flirtatious with the guys.
They still hung around them, but now it seemed like they were not trying so hard to be friendly with the.
Harry would not have it, he refused to let their affections cool down.
So he asked the girls if they wanted to see his wolf form, they agreed eager to see what a wolf from our neck of the woods looked like.
So right in front of the girls he stripped naked and phased. Getting a quick and firm reprimand from uncle Seth.
But Harry's plan worked, once the women saw his strawberry blonde colored fur they were all over him. Putting him and rubbing their faces against his fur.
He had the biggest smile on his face.
My brothers not wanting to be outdone quickly took of their own cloths, despite uncle Seth telling them not to. They quickly phased hoping to draw the attention away from Harry, the girls were amazed by how big they were and the colors of their fur. They were especially amazed by the patterns of Taylors fur.
But they still showered their love on Harry who grinned slyly at his cousins who in turn growled at him and I was sure my brothers were using every form of insult.
The women took Harry down to the creek to give him a bath, after he dried they combed and trimmed his hair. They asked if they could keep what they removed from his coat to use to make fur clothing.
I could see Harry's ego was swelling more and more. He prided himself on how beautiful his wolf coat was. It was agreed by all the pack that Harry was the best looking wolf.
After they phased back I heard Gabriel and Brayden planning to put bleach in his shampoo.
The girls tried to file his nails but they were a hundred times more durable then human nails and could not be groomed with ordinary appliances.
"Your cousin sure does know how to play the game."
One of the Canadian wolves had walked over to me.
"Your Ryan right? Michael's beta," I said.
He nodded. "And your Howie right?" he asked.
"Yes. I was named after my grandfather Howard. Howie is just my nickname," I said.
He smiled and I was struck by how perfect his teeth were.
"I notice you are not as into the women as your brothers."
"I...don't like girls," I said.
I sounded so pathetic. I should just say the word gay. Everyone knew and everyone still loved me I shouldn't be treating it like a secret.
But I still have a difficult time saying the word.
"Your gay?" he asked.
"Yeah."
"When did you realize you were?"
"When I was between seven and eight months old."
He laughed. "I forgot, you grew fast."
"Yeah, still seems like only yesterday I was learning how not to wet the bed."
"What's it like? Having grown up so fast?" he asked.
"I...I don't know how to describe it. I simply grew up quick."
"Fair enough. So, just a few more days and things are going to get pretty crazy. You think we're ready?"
"I think we are. My tribe has faced many dangers. But we always prevail."
"So, do you want to go for a run?" he asked.
"Sure, sounds like fun," I said.
I told uncle Seth we were going for a run, we phased and ran off into the woods. Ryan's form was brown with dark streaks on his back.
We ran all the way up one of the mountain ranges. We found this nice spot that gave us a good view of the surrounding area.
Ryan phased back and I did the same thing.
"This place reminds me of my home," he said. "Our reservations is very similar to this."
I stood next to him, keeping him in the periphery of my sight, because I could not stand to look at him from the back or the front.
"You should come visit some time," he said.
"I would like that."
"Maybe after this business with the spirit is over?"
Before I could reply a voice spoke.
"Why? You'll all be dead."
We looked around. Our bodies rigid, waiting to attack.
"Silly little shifters. You think you can stop me? I used to eat tribes like yours for breakfast."
"Big talking coming from someone who is just a wraith!" I yelled.
"Ohh, nice retort Howie. What a nice couple you both make. Up here on the mountain all alone. The others know what your are really doing. It disgusts them. Even now they talk about how you are both vile and filthy."
"You shut up!" I screamed.
"You don't really think they still love you Howie? They only pretend. The truth is they are ashamed of you."
"Shut up!" I repeated.
"You are nothing but disgusting sodomite. An affront to nature. You were created to breed a new generation of wolf-shifters and instead you would rather take it in the ass."
"Shut up!"
"Truth hurts doesn't it?" the voice mocked.
"Don't listen to him Howie. He s just trying to mess with you!"
"Little Ryan, hoping for one last fuck before you die? Thought you could bring Howie here and seduce him into bending back for you? You are just like your uncle. You like them young don't you?"
"I will gut you, you fucking spirit!" Ryan screamed in rage.
"Oh, hit a nerve did I? Would you like to see him again Ryan? Your dear sweet uncle who made you into a man?"
"What does he mean?" I asked, confused by what Shipa Kadidu was saying.
Before Ryan could explain the spirit continued.
"When Ryan was young his uncle used to babysit him. And he loved you so much didn't he Ryan?"
"Stop! Just stop!" Ryan yelled.
"Leave him alone Shipa Kadidu!" I said.
"Do you think you would still be like this if he hadn't had his way with you? Maybe if your own kin hadn't made you his little whore you wouldn't feel the feelings you have for Howie."
"Just shut up!" Ryan yelled.
"Ryan, I don't understand. What does he mean?" I asked.
"Foolish child, still so new to the world. Your mother obviously hasn't taught you that there are more things to fear then spirits and vampires. Evil can be found. Even one's own family can hide the most rotten of fruit."
"My uncle molested me when I was eight," Ryan said gritting his teeth.
I cursed myself a fool. Of course, how could I have not realized it sooner. I usually prided myself for being smarter then my brothers.
So how could I have missed this?
"When my parents found out we had him arrested. He was kicked off the tribe and we haven't seen him since. When I was growing up I began to realize I was attracted to guys as well as girls. I hated myself because I thought the only reason I liked guys was because of what he did to me. It took me a long time to realize it wasn't because of what happened to me as a kid and it took me even longer to make peace with what I was.
When I phased Michael, Chester and Zane helped me through my issues and realize there was nothing wrong with me. My parents took more convincing. They had no problem with me being a werewolf. But they were convinced the bi thing was because of my uncle. They are afraid I will turn out to be like him, my sister and her husband won't let me near my nephew since they found. They even asked me if I touched him sexually."
"Because you are a sick twisted thing. Forever scared, an infection that will infect others just like you were."
"You shut your damn mouth you stupid spirit!" I yelled.
"Oh wow, that hurt," he said dryly.
I placed my hand on his shoulder.
"Don't listen to him. He is messing with us because he is desperate. He knows we are going to stop him so he is pitifully trying to scare us. He is nothing but a coward!"
"Stupid child, I like to play with my food before I eat it. In a few more days I will be free and in the mean time I am going to baste you all like a turkey so when I am free again you will all be plump with fear and despair."
"Yeah? Well when we beat you I am going to make you eat those words!"
"We'll see who will be eating what little pup," he chuckled.
The air was quiet and I did not know if he was gone or not.
"Are you okay?" I asked Ryan.
"I can't believe he knew about that. How could he know?" Ryan asked.
"Spirits have a way of getting into your head. Don't let him mess with you. He's only doing this because he wants us to make a mistake or give up."
Ryan laughed. But it was the kind of laugh you make when you are nervous and trying to forget the fear.
"I wish I was as brave as you."
I squeezed his shoulder. "You are brave, your a protector of your tribe and the beta of your tribe. I know what happened to you was painful and has haunted you for your life. We will-"
Before I could finish he suddenly kissed me.
He.
Kissed.
Me!
Not to sound like a teenage girl but oh my God!
Damn his lips were so soft and he smelled so good!
He pulled away and I let out a whine of protest.
"Oh shit, I am sorry I just...I...I needed...I just needed some comfort."
"It's okay, that was great. My first kiss."
"Really?"
"I'm ten months old remember? All the men I am around are related to me or I grew up around. We don't have much time to spend around other people."
"Sorry, I keep forgetting. Your just so mature."
We were quit for a few moments. The silence was tense.
"Ryan...do you...like me?" I asked.
I remembered what Shipa Kadidu said about him bringing me up here to seduce me.
"I...like you. I mean, I know we haven't talked much. But I would like to get to know you more," he said.
I smiled. I took his hand in mine.
"I would like to get to know you as well."
He smiled and we kissed again.
"So does this mean we are going out?" I asked.
He laughed. "Yes, it does."
"Then we need to go out on a date."
"Sounds like fun."
"And I have to introduce you to my family. That will be the most terrifying experience you have ever gone through."
He laughed. "I am sure it won't be that bad."

I sat next to Ryan.
Mom and dad sat in front of us on the sofa and Michael, Ryan's alpha stood next to them.
My my brothers and Harry stood in a circle around us and they all had their arms crossed over their chests looking very serious. It was kind of ruined for Harry, the women had curled his hair and had placed several flowers in it.
"So, you wish to date our son?" dad asked firmly looking at Ryan.
"Yes sir," Ryan said.
"Our ten month old son," mom said giving him a very unfriendly look.
"Nessie is four and pa pa Jake is imprinted on her," I said.
"This isn't an imprint. This guy doesn't feel that kind of love for you. He wants to do gay stuff with you," Taylor said.
"Well he is gay so of course he would do gay things," Bronson said.
"And if it wasn't this guy it would be some other guy," Alex said.
"You guys are not helping," I said with a frown.
"Regardless of your gender you can understand why we are hesitant to allow this. This is complicated do to the fact Howie although has the mental capacity of an adult he has none of the experience. And the fact you are the beta of another pack makes this a unique situation," mom said.
"I am not dating him for politics. I like Howie. I would like to be his boyfriend."
"But after we deal with Shipa Kadidu your pack will return to it's home. You are beta, you will have to return with them."
"Michael can chose another beta while I remain behind."
"And where would you stay? What about a job?" dad asked.
"Don't worry about any of that, I will go with them to Canada. If Michael would allow me that is," I said.
Instantly the whole room was filled with protests.
"What?"
"No way!"
"That is not happening!"
"Bullshit!"
"Howie your too young to be leaving home!" dad said.
"I may not be a year old but I am more then capable of taking care of myself," I said.
"But you don't know this guy? Your willing to leave home for him?"
"Well I don't want him to have to give up his position of beta for me, that's not fair for him or his pack," I said.
"He just said his alpha can find another beta, it's not like their super big or anything," Spencer said.
"Look, this is what I want, if I want to leave I will leave!"
"The hell you will, as your brother and your alpha I forbid it!"
He was not using his alpha voice, but still it pissed me off that he thought he had the right to use his authority in such a way.
"You can't do that!"
"You are my beta Howie!"
"Spencer can take my place, he is the second!"
"We need you here!"
"There are three packs in Washington, you won't become crippled if I leave for a while!"
"You can't just leave us for some guy you hardly know!" Alex said.
"Stop!" mom said firmly. "Taylor I know you are upset but you can not just order your brother to stay."
"But mom-"
"But nothing."
"But he can't leave us, he's our brother!" Taylor said sounding upset.
"Yeah, we've been together since we were born!" Tyson said.
"I don't want to leave you guys either. It scares me to think of being separated from you for that long. But I want to pursue this. Maybe I will like being with Ryan, maybe we will learn we are better off as friends, but this is something I have to do for myself. So please, try and understand," I said.
Mom took dads hand, she took a deep breath.
"Son, we understand. You want to make your own choices and follow your own path. We are proud of you for doing that," dad said.
"It's just hard for us to let you go," mom said.
"Your not letting me go. I'm just growing up," I said.
"Still, it's hard," mom said with a smile.
"Perhaps we should wait until the situation with Shipa Kadidu is resolved. If Howie wishes to come with us and visit for a while he is more then welcome. And should Ryan decide to remain I can go a month or two without a beta, it's not like vampires are swarming all over the place," Michael said.
"Thanks Michael," Ryan said.
"I know you wouldn't be willing to do this unless you were serious Ryan. In these dark times I think it is good for us to find a little love."
"Preaching to the choir on that," mom muttered.
"Michael, Ryan could you give me and my family a moment alone. We need to have a talk," dad said.
"Of course."
Michael and Ryan left the room to give us some privacy. The guys gave Ryan dark looks and glared after him.
"Howie, you know we love you right?" dad asked.
I nodded.
"You have to understand, it is hard for all of us to just let you leave. We thought we would have years before any of you would want to leave home. It is difficult for us to let any of you go."
"I won't be leaving forever. I just...I want to grow up."
"You are grown up," Alex said.
"But I want to see the world! We spend all our time in La Push, here or in Forks. I want to meet people who are not related to me, I want to do more then run around as a wolf. I want to find my special someone and if I am lucky it might be Ryan."
"A guy you just met," Gordon said.
"You guys seemed pretty happy to be showing off for the women!" I said.
"Howie, come here," mom said.
She stood up and I walked over to her. She kissed me on my forehead.
"If this is what you want then I will support you. When I first became a wolf, hell when we all first phased we didn't get the chance to be normal and do normal things. Our first duty was to the tribe. We didn't have a choice. So I know how frustrating it can be to feel trapped in your own home. So if you want to go to Canada and stay there for a while that is fine."
"But mom!" the others all said.
"Guys this is what your brother wants. The time will soon come when you all want to leave La Push. Get your own homes so you can have your own families. Some of you may leave the reservation. And there is nothing wrong with that."
"Thanks mom," I said.
"But we don't want you to leave Howie," Tyler said sadly.
"I hate to leave. But if Michael let's Ryan stay then I won't. Please be happy for me guys. You know how much I have struggled with being gay. I finally found someone like me. Someone I can connect with."
"This sucks," Alex said.
"Come on guys, you act like I would never come back. You are my brothers and this is my home. No mater how far I leave I will always come back."
"Come here you little shit," Alex said.
He wrapped his arm around my head and proceeded to give me a noogie.
The others descended on me and I tried to fight them off. I gave Tyson a particularly hard shove that sent him stumbling back int a table, almost crushing it.
"If your going to rough house then do it outside!" mom said.
"Come on guys, let's teach our little runt brother what happens when you think about leaving home," Gabriel said.
They dragged me outside.
"Mom! Dad! Save me!" I called out.
Have fun son," dad said.
"Don't hurt him now," mom said.
"Traitors!" I yelled.
When we got outside I began to wrestle with my brothers.
"Will mom be okay?" I asked. "She seemed kind of sad."
"Mom's tough, she'll get through everything," Taylor said.

Leah P.O.V
I stood in the shower crying.
While the boys had their fun I told Jim I was going to clean up.
I didn't need to wash myself, I just needed to drown out the sounds of me crying.
I heard the door open and close and placed my hand to my mouth. Hoping that who ever had come in had not heard me.
The curtain opened showing a naked Embry.
"Hey," he said getting in.
"Hey," I said.
He wrapped his arms around me, there was no point in trying to hide it from him. He knew. So I started to cry into his shoulder.
"My baby is leaving me," I said.
"No, he is preparing to find his own path."
"Same thing," I muttered. "When he and Ryan asked me and Jim for our blessing in them being together you know what I wanted to do?"
Embry shook his head.
"I wanted to phase and rip that Canadian prick apart! All I could think of was how dare this stranger think he can kiss my baby. But then I remembered Howie isn't a baby. He's a grown man and they all are. And one day, God forbid soon they will all find a woman or an imprint and leave and have families. And they shouldn't be doing that now! They should be asleep in their cribs waking me up at a God forsaken time of night. But thanks to nature I am going to lose my boys before I have the chance to raise them myself."
"I know, it's not fair Leah. But you know what you need to do?"
"Stuff my fucking face with ice-cream and chocolate and curl up on the couch and watch nothing but Lifetime?"
He grinned.
"You need to remember that no matter what path they take, they will always come back to you. I don't know if anyone ever born in La Push can say they were raised around so much love as our boys were. In what little time we had with them you made sure every second of their existence was nothing but happy."
"Your right, but it still fucking blows," I muttered.
He kissed my cheek.
"Look on the bright side. You got another batch coming after all this is over," he said rubbing my belly.
"Don't say it like that, you make it sound like having kids is like making food," I said.
"Your right, it is much more fun," he said with a grin.
He latched his mouth around my breast and I let out a gasp.
I placed my hands on his head.
"Oh Embry," I moaned.
"God I love it when you say my name!" he growled.
He turned me around and his left hand traveled down to my core and his fingers soon entered me, his right hand reached up and pulled the shower head off it's handle and he changed the setting so the water came out in jets and vibrated.
"Remind me thank Rose for getting this," I said.
He pulled his fingers out and rubbed the shower head against my pussy, the vibrations and jet of warm water hitting my folds felt so fucking good.
I spread my legs for him and he gently pushed into me. He continued to use the shower head, now that he was firmly rooted inside me he was able to enjoy the vibrations and warm water against his genitals as well.
I placed my hand on the wall for support, Embry massaged my breast and continued to thrust into me.
I don't know who made vibrating shower heads, but if I ever meet them, I will shake their hand.
Embry began to thrust harder and harder into me, his motions with the shower head got faster and faster. When I came it felt so wonderful to feel all that warm water flowing over my folds.
Embry gave one final thrust and I felt his essence flow into me.
"God this thing feels good," he said with a sigh.
"Why do you think I love it so much," I said and he laughed.
"Do you feel better?" he asked.
"Yeah, thanks."
I kissed him on the lips and he placed the shower head back.
"So the day after tomorrow we face Shipa Kadidu."
"Yeah."
We were both quiet.
"Embry."
"Yeah?"
"I know you...I know you only have feelings for me because of the compulsion. I know we may have never hooked up because of it. But I am glad it did. I am glad you are in my life. I...I sometimes wonder...do you think we would have ever hooked up? Without the compulsion?"
He got a thoughtful look on his face. "I don't know Leah. A part of me wants to say yes, but I think that is the compulsion talking. I always thought you were beautiful. And after you calmed down and let go of your anger I became more attracted to you. I remember before the compulsion got stronger when me and Quil were sharing you I really enjoyed my time with you. So maybe in another life we could have gotten together. But it doesn't matter we have one another now."
"Until you find another woman."
"I'll be yours no matter what. Even if I imprint, you know that."
"I hope you do find someone Embry. Someone you don't have to share. Someone who will see you for the wonderful man you are. Someone you can have kids with who age normal and grow up to be just as great as you."
He smiled. "Thanks Leah. But I fear I may never find another woman. After all, who can compare to you?"
We kissed again.
That night Jake, Embry, Jim and I slept in the same bed. I once again thanked God we had such a large bed. Quil joined us as well, we invited him too, it would have been wrong to exclude him from our puppy pile.
The boys soon joined us, they offered their rooms to the women from Mexico so they would have more rooms to sleep in. I was proud of them for being so gentlemanly.
They slept on the floor, grabbing several pillows and blankets and I laid between Jim and Jake. I don't know how long I staid awake, listening to the sounds of everyone sleeping.
Their breaths, their snores.
I drank it all in, I welcomed this moment because I didn't have much longer to enjoy this. Even if we beat Shipa Kadidu my boys would soon decide to move out, they would make their own homes and I would not be there to cook them breakfast, lunch, dinner and everything in between, I would not be there to stop them from fighting or chastising them when they misbehaved.
I would no longer be surrounded by they as we watched tv together. The house would grow silent.
I was dreading that more then facing Shipa Kadidu.
I was being silly, it wasn't like I wouldn't see them again. It wasn't like Howie was going to move to Canada. It wasn't like they would never visit, I was sure I would see them every day.
But still the idea of them growing up after so little time still pained me.
How I wished they could have aged at least as fast as Nessie. At least I would have had more time with them, more time to enjoy their childhoods.
It would be the same with the next pups I had. I would have ten instead of nine, and like their brothers they would age at a rapid pace.
I would have more after that, I had to, I wanted to raise at least one child that grew at a slower rate.
Obviously Jim had that right being my husband and all.
But the more I thought about it, the more I thought I wouldn't mind having more kids with the rest of the guys.
Was that because of the compulsion? Or my own instincts?
Who knew.
But it wouldn't matter if I didn't stop Shipa Kadidu.
And stop him I will.
I did not go through all the trouble of having all these beautiful boys just to loose them.
Fusedtwilight: I wanted to show more about how difficult it is for Leah and the guys to have their sons be all grown up. Also as for the Ryan storyline I have a friend who like Ryan was molested at a very young age though not by a family member. My friend is also bi and like Ryan it took him a long time to come to terms with that as he always wonders if his bisexuality was a result of what happened to him. I wanted to show that sex is a precious thing that should be enjoyed, but like all things in life there are those who use if for their own dark desires. It is not easy for anyone be they man or woman to move on after such a violation. But like Ryan and like my friend we can learn to not let it rule us.
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