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Sub Rosa
By : LdyKiram
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Chapter 2: Choices
He awakens barely three hours later. Getting up, Yeshua ran his palms over his tired eyes, then yawn. It took some time for him to even fall to sleep in the first place. "I've bee around a lot of woman, but I never knew any that snored like that girl." He said, trying not to sound annoyed. Speaking of which, he noticed Kitra was nowhere in sight. The spot next to him was empty, but the cover he gave to her was on his body. He gave a soft smile. Yeshua got up and stretched, he was about to wake his mother when a soft humming came from the roof. Quietly, walking pass and over his disciples, he made his way to the top of the home.
He peeked up, sitting on the edge he saw Kitra running her hands through her long curly-ish hair. Her back faced him; she sat very un-lady like with her legs crossed. The skirt of her outfit, piled in her lap while her legs were out. Yeshua paid no mind to what she wore, she was still covered where it counts. There was barely any sun light around but in the dimming light, Yeshua could see the streaks of gold in her hair. In the dark, he actually didn't notice her differences that much and in the daytime he never got the good of a look at her.
She dropped her hands, letting her hair rest-it touched the small of her back. Kitra was still humming when Yeshua decided to tip-toed closer to her.
"...halevana...Yavi lach matana."
"That's a sweet song." Yeshua complimented, when he was close enough.
His comment shocked Kitra, almost knocking the cup over by her feet and causing her to nearly fall off the roof. Quickly, he grabbed her before she fell. "Don't scare me like that!" She yelled, placing her left hand on her chest. She pushed the strands of hair from her face, Yeshua sat down near her. He kept looking at her, she looked back at him causing her face to turn a slight shade of red. "What were you doing anyway?"
"I just woke up..."
"No. I mean, what you did? Why?" Kitra asked, taking her eyes off him.
"What's so wrong with it, I was just helping."
"Well, no one asked for your help! I was fine."
Yeshua didn't understand where all this hostility came from, "Is this how you show your gratitude?" he asked. His hand reached to her, grabbing her chin and making the girl look at him.
"I didn't ask you, maybe I wanted to stay a slave-I mean-" She shut her mouth, slapped his hand away and looked elsewhere. "Forget I said anything." She got up and started to walk back inside but froze at the steps. Then she walked back to where she was sitting, sat down, huffed out air from her lungs. Sitting there in defeat.
Kitra just sat there, saying nothing. Yeshua blinked for a minute, not really sure how to approach her, "You are very different from most women, especially ones I know." He started. She didn't say anything. "You could talk back..." Kitra stayed silent, almost lost in her own little world. He waved his hand in front of her face, "Is there a reason why you don't want to go downstairs?"
She sighed coming back to reality, "I don't even know why I came back." She found herself saying, picking up the cup in from the ground. She took a drink then offered some to him, politely he accepted, "I was thinking that for a while, I mean I miss them, yes, but would it change anything? I mean I would be living with my parents until they wanted to bring up the betrothal or end up living with my brother or one of my sisters. "She glanced at the sun starting to rise, "its just-just I know they'll understand but no one else will, to them they'll only see some almost twenty year old whose a curse to God." She shook her head.
"What about it, has you so frighten?" Yeshua asked after taking a sip of what he now found out is wine, gave it back to her.
She shrugged her shoulders, setting the cup back down, "losing myself, my being, once it happens..." she held her head down as her fingers traced on the hard material she sat on, "what's left of me?"
Yeshua watched as she looked back at the rising sun, he could tell tears wished to escape her eyes but Kitra would not allow it. Her mindset was on an entirely different level, he has met women who had some or even more intelligence then her. But the way she thought, was different. Of course, to him, what she feared was nothing more than what was destined. A beautiful union. One he proudly supported. How could anyone lose anything in it? Yeshua started say something but his mother's voice called for him. Yeshua replied to her, saying where he was. The quiet girl had gone to take another drink.
"Yeshua, you do know we have...to..." The moment she could see him, she saw Kitra as well. At first she had a confused look, for one, she saw her drinking and as before Kitra gave it to Yeshua and he proceeded to do the same-then again it probably meant nothing though so strange. But from the clothes-even though the girl's hair was down and not up-it was the same one from the day before. Miriam gasped a little then looked right at her son, who just gave her a small smile. "Am I interrupting?" For reasons, her face went red.
"No. We were just t-"
"Leaving. Just leaving..." Kitra stepped in. Miriam, a little unsure, nodded then head back downstairs. Yeshua looked out at the sky, Kitra just look down at the ground. "You're actually leaving?" She asked.
He nodded, "well yes. But you did say it first."
"I said it cause, I was leaving to go downstairs. Don't you live in Cana?" Kitra asked.
"And if I did, why would you want to know?" Yeshua asked, the tone in his voice teased her.
Kitra huffed and crossed her arms over her chest, "I don't! I was just asking because—" She couldn't really think of what to say.
"I'm waiting."
"Because, shut up!" She said, turning away from him.
Yeshua chuckled at her behavior, "I was supposed to be in another place, it'll take a little longer to get there but-" Yeshua stopped and saw she already got up, "you should come." He invited.
"Excuse me? Why?" She said a bit snobbish.
"We'll be traveling quite a bit," Yeshua stood up and walked passed her, "if you don't want to stay here that is. We're going to Capernaum." It was about time Yeshua went to greet everyone, he stopped for a moment, "by the way, Kitra, if I am not a curse to my Father, neither are you." He added, leaving her alone. Kitra, a little surprised, thought about it.
"Wait, what?" She wondered, and then shook the thought away. At the same time, she could hear her parents and her sisters, talking about how they wanted to see Yeshua and his disciples off. She smiled a little. Bravely, Kitra went to see her family, though she waited until she could gain the feeling in her feet.
"It was so nice of you to let us stay for the night." Miriam thanked Adara once again.
"Do not thank us, it was an honor to do so." Adara said with joy, "I only hope you can forgive me for what-" Miriam hugged her, Adara embraced her back. They then looked at each other, but all Miriam did was chuckled and proceeded to leave. She looked at her husband, who shrugged.
Each one of them said their goodbyes and thanks. Adara gave Yeshua a parting gift, hoping it would help them in their travels. She was a little embarrassed, seeing as it might not be enough. But he assured her it was more than enough and was very grateful. Bira and Alitzah both told them all to come back and visit again.
As Yeshua and the others were gone and left their home, they started to continue the day as normal. Bira and Elianna got ready to go to the fields to gather a few things. Alitzah, volunteered to watch the younger children while they were busy. Adara and Eri were going to go visit her son's wife, and then prepare for the upcoming trip. As they were scattered about, Kitra finally had courage to enter and saw her nieces and nephews running about with Alitzah trying to keep up. They hid around and had what look like a simple bowl, they were playing with.
"Come back here with that!" She yelled at her own son. He was only five.
Kitra laughed. Alitzah looked like she had a hard time, but it was only with the very young ones. "Do you need help?" Kitra asked.
She caught her son and catches her breathe, "No way, Kitra, I got this." Alitzah continued to care for the children in the early morning. She walked outside, with her son on her hips. Kitra stood there with the children who stared at her. Kitra felt uncomfortable and tried to walk away from the kids, but they only followed.
It wasn't until Alitzah was close to the neighbor's home, she realized it. Suddenly the mid-twenty year old girl came back running inside the house, dragging her son behind her . Letting go of her child, Alitzah hugged her dear little sister; very tightly. "OH! OH! OH! Kitra! How-I can't believe...it-t." She began to cry, losing her words. Kitra hugged her older sister back, though not with the same amount of strength.
"Who's crying?" Elianna said coming in. Seeing her two sisters, Elianna had to rub her eyes, thinking she was seeing things. "K-Kitra?" She placed the clay pot down and walked over, pushing the over-emotional Alitzah away. She ran her hands through Kitra's hair, touching her face. "You...you're back...I don't what to say." She looked at her, "well except your clo-your clothes! You're practically naked!" She said, a light laughter escaping her mouth. Still Elianna wrapped her arms around her.
Both girls dragged Kitra to their mother; they wanted to surprise her too but with them shouting over and over 'mother, mother, mother!' It didn't go as planned. Adara was indeed surprised, regardless. She and Eri both held tears of joy, both of them apologizing, asking for her to forgive them. Saying they didn't know. Everything they could think of, eventually Bira joined in. With the exception of Chasin, they had their family back again.
Her sisters gathered their children and introduced their children to their aunt, when they were settle and calm first. All of them asking questions about where she was, what was wrong with her clothes, what was it like, her favorite dish, color, anything. Basically anything children their age could think of. Kitra, overwhelmed by it, just told them she was on an adventure for a while. That wasn't enough for them; quickly they ganged up on Kitra, asking even more questions. To Kitra, it was like a sand storm, but with children and their endless talking. Bira escorted them all to another room to calm down.
"What was it like in Rome?" Alitzah asked after the kids left.
"It…was different." She said.
"Was that guy good to you!" Elianna asked, saying it as if she was going to beat someone up if otherwise.
Kitra looked down, "I suppose." She said breathed.
Elianna put her hand on Kitra's bare shoulder, "don't be upset but I have to ask. Did he…you…" She bit her lip.
She caught on to what her eldest sister was trying to say, " what! No! No, no , no, no! Nothing like that happened!" After she said, a collective sigh filled the room. Bira came back, the children were playing a game for the time being.
"We are so happy you are back, Kitra. I just..." Adara broke off her sentence. "I'm so happy." Kitra just smiled then glanced out the window. Adara frowned, "are you not happy too? That man let you come back, after all these years."
She flinched; she just told them she was released, nothing about being forced into slavery, the things she had been through, choices she wanted to make. "Yes, but..."
"But what?"
"I wasn't free to go..." She confessed.
They looked at her shocked, "What do you mean?" Eri asked. He had stayed quiet for the longest. He was upset at his youngest daughter's outfit, he wanted her to put on some decent clothing but Kitra had refused. He even threw in the fact of what people would think of her, she didn't care.
"I..." She didn't want to tell them everything, she told them a little. "I had left without permission, I missed you all...but the guards were about to bring me back when..."
"When what?"
"That man, that was here..." She explained the story to them. Her mother had no words to say. Neither did her dad or sisters. They were all at a loss for words. For one, they weren't sure how to make of this. Then she told them about what he had offered her; a chance to leave Cana and just travel. Though she wasn't sure why he was traveling in the first place. Both her parents looked at each other.
"Kitra, don't you want to stay?" Alitzah asked.
She couldn't answer. Her sister's face look disappointed. Eri did as well, Elianna and Bira tried to think of what to say, about all this. Adara just wiped her tears. "Why are you crying?" her husband asked.
"I am upset, but do you not see Eri? Of all people, he-" She got up and left.
Kitra didn't understand, she asked her sisters. They explained it to her about it. The word spreading about how when Yochanan, baptize him in the river a dove flew above them. Kitra didn't believe them at all, said it was just a gimmick. But then explained the miracle he did at the wedding feast. Kitra shook it off. She wasn't going to think that someone like him was or claiming to be a Messiah. Stating if he's the Messiah, then she's the Queen of Sheba, although her sisters were lost at what point she was trying to make.
"Sister, you should go." Bira told her. Elianna and Alitzah were a little stunned.
"What, no she just got here!" Elianna said.
Bira sighed, "I know...but," She looked at Kitra, "I can tell you don't want to stay."
"That's crazy, I do!"
"You say it, but when I look at you...the feeling isn't showing. If he asked you to go, then you should. Maybe the life we have isn't the one for you." Bira paused. "You were always the odd one out when we were younger; anyway, it's only fair. Making you stay, would be like making you marry some guy. You don't want to. Plus, it's not every day someone like Yeshua asks you to come with them!"
Elianna agreed, Bira had a point about what she said. No matter how upset they would be, Kitra should do what she wanted. Even if it that was the most uncommon thing for a young girl to do.
"That's nice but no. It's fine-"
"Kitra," The girls' attention went to their fathers'. "It would be nice, to have you back. But think about it, Kitra. The first few days will be good then afterwards, what do you think will happen."
She frowned, "but, after everything-"
"Will not matter." He took his hands from behind his back, giving Kitra a small bag that hangs from her shoulder, "think about it for a while. If we don't see you by sundown, we unders-"
"But-!" They all said; Eri raised his hand up at his three daughters.
"We understand. But you will not leave empty handed, it's not much but it should help. Do not; open the letter that is for him. Understood, Kitra?" Eri asked her, recently she nodded. Eri put on a smile, "now there is still work that needs to be done." He instructed them to go back to their normal duties. All the girls hugged each other and Adara was able to embrace her daughter before she left. The young girl strolled about Cana, having the bag with her. In it were a few items. Bread, a flask, one of Bira's old cloaks, and a little bit of money. Her family wasn't poor, but they weren't rich either. Sitting near one of the wells close by, she thought about it.
Not that there was much, she planned on leaving anyway. But, it felt a little different than just leaving as oppose to your family making you. Kitra pulled out the scroll-like letter. She deeply wanted to see what it said, even though her father instructed her not to. Who would know? She struggled with the choice as she held it, tightly in her grip. Finally, she gave up, just putting it away. By now, it was a little pass noon. Time sure flies when you don't do much. She looked north, how far are they? She wondered.
"What do I have to lose?" Kitra said to herself.
Quickly getting on her feet, she headed north of Cana. Running, sure she would be tired faster, but it was important to her that she caught up with them before they got too far. If he really meant what he said...she thought with a smirk on her face.
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