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Focused Madness
Chapter 31
Fusedtwilight: A big thank you to animegirlkiki for the quick betaing. Thanks to everyone who reviwed.
Last chapter Leah made the ultimate sacrifice and Matthew finally recovered his memories, only to realize the horror of his situation. Now as Leah dies in his arms a dark rage grips his soul and in his vengeance he unleashes hell on earth.
Leah may be gone but not out of the game. She takes a little trip and has a reunion with a loved one and the shadow man attempts to make sure she stays dead.

Hate: Intense hostility and aversion usually deriving from fear, anger or sense of injury. Extreme dislike or antipathy.
Example: Matthew unleashes his hate onto Joham and his kin.
Matthew P.O.V
My world lay bleeding on the ground and it was all my fault.
The war raged around us. There were screams of pain and primal roars of triumph, I could hear people calling Leah's name. There was so much hate, and fear and blood loss and pain and loss and hurt and it was driving me CRAZY!
"STOOOOOP!" I screamed.
I sent out a wave of obedience. I did not care to make them feel peace; I wanted them to shut up so I gave them the need to obey my command.
The fighting stopped and all eyes turned to us, the wolves and Cullens were still feeling afraid for Leah. I tried to run to her, her light was slowly fading, I had to help her.
I went to run to her but someone grabbed my hand. I glared at who dared and saw it was Seraphina. "What do you think you are doing?" she asked, her voice cold as ice.
"Get the fuck off me you bitch!" I screamed.
I pulled my fist back and I hit her right in the face. Blood gushed from her face like fireworks. She screamed in pain and was propelled back by twenty feet, flying past Joham.
I went running back to Leah, my face flowed with tears, her light was so faint now.
"Leah! Oh God, Leah!" I cried. I kneeled in the pool of her blood. I rolled her over, not caring she was naked. Her entire front was covered in her own blood. Joham's slash went from her right shoulder down to her lower left rib. The lower top corner of her right breast and the lower bottom of her left breast had been cut and I could see her ribs on her right side.
Her body was trying to repair the damage, but she was losing blood too quickly. Leah told me that her people were very difficult to kill. But not impossible. You can never be to sure on what the limits of pseudo-immortality is until you test it out. Leah had joked she could survive being his by a truck or shot with a gun, but I guess even a shape-shifter was not immune to blood loss.
"Leah, please wake up, I beg of you, please don't leave me, I am so sorry!" I cried.
Her eyes opened, they were so beautiful. A beautiful shade of brown, so full of warmth and love. "Ma-Matthew? Is that my little boy?" she asked.
Her heart beat was slowing down; her light grew fainter with each heart beat. Her body was trying to close the wounds as was as it could, but it wasn't quick enough.
"It's me Leah, Matthew is here now," I said.
"Matthew...I-I-I never thought...see you again."
"Oh Leah, I am so sorry, forgive me," I said.
She smiled. "Stupid...boy...nothing to forgive. I'm just glad I go-go-got to se-see you one last time."
"Don't talk like that," I ordered. "You are going to be fine, we're going to run away again and find a new home. Let's go to England, remember? I wanted to go to England and meet Harry Potter," I said.
The memories of my foolish desire to hunt for a person who didn't even exist seemed so sweet now. Precious because they were happy memories.
She laughed. "Sorry...can't...feel...my body...Matthew...listen...forgive...don't...hate...be...good...boy."
She let out a final breath, her eyes closed, her heart stopped beating and her light finally gave out.
"Leah?" I whispered. I gave her a small shake. "Leah, come on, you're looking silly sleeping naked in front of everyone...Leah wake up!"
It was pointless, I knew she was gone. But I didn't want to acknowledge it. I couldn't. She can't be gone, my world. My sweet world was once again taken from me.
How many people have died for me? My mother, Rosemary, now Leah. My sweet, lovely, lonely Leah. Who sacrificed so much for me. Who has done nothing but love and protect me. Now she is gone. Gone like mother, like Rosemary, who betrayed the family all to bring me happiness. I remember her sacrifice, how she asked Leah to tell me she was sorry.
Is this what my life is? Am I doomed to live a life where I lose those closest to my heart? How many must die because of me? Fred, Nahuel, the Cullens, the Wolves? They all have suffered so much because of me.
The sound of wolves howling could be heard. I sensed their pain and suffering so well. They sent their sister off with a mournful serenade.
Seth's pain was the worst. A dark chilling wind of pain so deep I felt as if my skin was being cut by an icy rain. I had to wonder what the rest of her friends and family's pain be like when they learned? Her mother loosing a daughter, her wolf brothers loosing a sister wolf, even Sam and Emily who I knew cared much for her. They would feel such pain and suffering because of me.
"No...come back Leah!"
I focused all my power and will onto her. I used thousands of different emotions, wrapped different strands of mental energy around her. I used every trick I knew to lure her back, to find some spark left in her I could pull back.
But there was nothing.
My world was gone.

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Leah P.O.V
The sound of flowing water sounded softly in my ears.
My feet felt cool, I could feel the water flowing over it. I opened my eyes and saw the blue sky. The clouds were thick and every once in a while would block the sun. I could smell the creek, I could smell the earth, feel it under my skin. I could hear the fish swimming in the creek and the birds and other animals in the trees.
I heard the sound of the line being cast out into the water, heard the 'plop' of the bait hitting its surface. "About time sleepy head," a cheerful voice said.
I froze. That voice was not just cheerful, it was disturbingly familiar. I looked to the side. He stood there, wearing his fishing gear. Looking so lively, despite the fact I had watched him die myself.
He smiled warmly at me, the wrinkles in his which he gained from naturally smiling all his life thinned out. Seth had inherited that smile from him. I knew when he got older he would look just like him.
"Come on Leah, we have a lot to talk about, and so little time to do it I am afraid."
"Dad?" I asked.
"That's right."
"But...if I am with you then...am I-"
"Dead? Afraid so."
"...Oh fuck me."

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Matthew P.O.V
Nothing, no light, no heart beat. All I held in my arms now was a corpse. But I held her for dear life.
"Leah...Leah...Leah." I moaned, I sounded like a little boy. In some ways I was one.
The air was quiet except for my moans and the wolves howling.
"Please come back, please," I begged.
She felt so light in my hands. Was she always this light? Or had death made her like air. Does a soul have weight?
I felt him walking up to me, the architect of all my woe. My father, Leah's murder Joham.
"She is gone Matthew. Put her down and let us finish what we started," he said.
"Get...away...from...me!" I snarled.
My body began to shake. The world began to turn red, I glared at Joham and he took five steps back, looking fearful. He was a little fearful. I smiled. I liked that fear. I wanted him afraid. I wanted him to fear me. For once I wanted to make him know fear.
My blood was boiling with a new emotion. Something I have never felt in my life. For the first time, I learned to hate.

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Leah P.O.V
"Language Leah, just because you are dead doesn't mean you should forget your manners," dad said sternly.
I stood up in the creek. I was wearing a pair of cut off jeans and a big oversized blue shirt. "But I can't be dead," I said.
"What do you last remember?" dad asked.
"I remember...oh God."
Joham, the battle, Matthew. I remember it all now.
I fell to my knees, causing a big splash.
"Easy now, you'll scare the fish away," dad said.
"But I can't be dead, what about mom and Seth? What about Matthew, who is going to take care of him? Their all going to be so mean to him, their going to hurt him," I said crying.
Dad set his fishing rod down and kneeled in front of me. "Come on Leah, dry your face."
"But I failed," I cried. "I failed Matthew."
"Matthew can take care of himself Leah, believe me. Joham made a terrible mistake and is about to suffer for it," dad said.
"But what am I going to do? How can I die knowing I failed?"
"Why do I keep on hearing this word? Failed? You didn't fail Leah. You gave it your all, just like a good mother should. I am proud of you. Now come up out of the creek, we have much to discuss."
I took his hand and stood up. "Where are we?" I asked looking around. "It looks like home."
"It is home," dad said.
"But this isn't La Push?" I said.
"Isn't it?"
"But...shouldn't there be like, I don't know. Clouds and harps?" I asked.
"What makes you think this isn't Heaven?" he asked.
Just then a bunch of fish swam from the wonder. Literally, they broke through the surface of the water and swam through the air. They swam/floated towards us. Dozens of them, swam/floated around me and dad. I stared at them in wonder, I went to touch one but they all swam/floated quickly in different directions.
"A place can have more then one name Leah. And why should paradise be just clouds and angels?" dad asked. "Our ancestors called it the spirit world, but they only understood a fraction of its existence."
"Does everyone come here?" I asked.
"Of course," he said.
"What about the bad ones?"
"Oh they come here too. But it's different for them."
"So there is a hell?"
"Yes, it's here as well."
"But-"
"Leah, I just told you that a place can have more then one name. But the experience all depends on who is observing it. For you and me we see our home. Others might see something more grand or modern. We make our own heaven or hell Leah. This is true even here."
"So what now?" I asked.
"Now we talk, we have so much to catch up on. Come one." he led me back onto land. I saw under a tree he had laid down a picnic blanket with a basket I was sure had food in it. We sat down and he opened the basket, bringing out some sandwiches.
"So how has your mother and brother been? What has been going on in La Push since I kicked the bucket?"
"Well...Seth is doing great. He still is a little ray of sunshine. Mom is...doing great," I said. I almost let it slip she was dating Charlie. I didn't know how dad would take that so I said nothing about it.
He just smiled. "I believe you left out the part where she and Charlie are going out."
I stared at him in shock.
"You know?"
"Leah, I may not physically be around, but I do keep up to date with current events."
"Then why did you ask me how things were if you already know?" I asked.
"Can't a dead man have a nice conversation with his daughter?" he asked.
"So you know? Everything?" I asked.
His face got a little more somber, a little more serious. "I know everything Leah. I know how much you have suffered. I know you have done many things good and bad. I know you have come a long way from the broken girl you once were."
"Dad...I am so sorry...I didn't mean to kill you. Please forgive me," I said. I had been trying to hold it back, but the words I have so craved to say to him just came out.
"I admit your transformation was a surprise. Seth I had been expecting. He had shown all the signs so I was not too surprised when he phased. But you? We have never heard of a female before. To see my baby girl phase." he shook his head. "But it was not that that killed me. The shock helped but it was the realization of what your transformation meant."
"Sam," I said.
"Yes...Sam," he said softly.
"You knew why Sam left me for her. Of course you did. That's why you were so opposed to us being together when he disappeared. You knew he might imprint," I said.
"Yes I did," he sighed. "I liked him, he was a good boy. But when Old Quil told us he had phased I knew there was possible disaster. It was not his fault, he can not help being what he is, and none of us can. But I feared what it would do to you should he imprint. That's why I was always telling you to leave him. You thought I was being over protective, that believed the stories of him being involved in drugs and such nonsense. My fear was made worse when it was Emily, who was like a sister to you was imprinted by him."
"Seems so long ago now," I said.
"Yes, it does."
"Why didn't you tell me?" I demanded, feeling some anger.
"Leah, if I told you the love of your life was a werewolf and had imprinted on your cousin would you have believed me?" he asked with a small smile.
"I would have screamed at you," I said with a small smile of my own.
"Exactly, besides, I was forbidden by our laws. Although I was tempted to break the law, if only to give you some little relief from your pain. I knew when you phased you would be in his mind, you would finally know the truth, but you would be forced to listen to his every loving thought of her. Plus I knew becoming a protector would cause you to make many sacrifices, all your dreams would be destroyed. The pain I felt for you was what did me in."
"I remember when you saw me as a wolf, you clutched your heart and a tear escaped your eye and you said 'Leah? No, not you, why?'"
"Do not feel bad Leah, I was dying. I was an old man and it was my time, it would have happened sooner or later," he said.
"That's what everyone told me, and I told them to go to hell," I said.
"I know, you did become a huge pain in the ass for everyone," he said with a chuckle.
"I know. But I was so mad. Mad at you for dying, mad at Sam and Emily, mad at myself and mad at life."
"Anger can change us Leah, turn us into something ugly. I am just glad you were able to move on before you were transformed into something less," he said.
"I had a lot of help."
"Indeed."

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Matthew P.O.V
I gently laid her on the ground. My eyes never left Joham's. My whole body shook in rage. Red was beginning to cloud my vision.
"You did this!" I yelled.
"She was in my way," Joham said.
"She was trying to save me!"
"I am your father!"
"No your not! You don't get the right to use that word! You killed your own daughter!"
I sensed shock and surprise from the hybrids. I remembered he told them the Volturi killed her to help fuel their hate.
"That's right, Joham killed Rosemary! Not the Volturi!" I told everyone.
"Rosemary betrayed us!" Joham told them. "She was going to hand him over to our enemies!"
"It's true, Rosemary was going to help save me. She saw how happy I was with Leah, she felt guilt for taking me away from that. She finally saw the truth. Joham doesn't care. Not about any of us, all we are is a means to an end. Puppets to be used!" I said.
"Change does not come with out sacrifice," Joham said.
"Change? The world doesn't need you to change it Joham. You're just a self-important little man who wants to play God. Your nothing special, history is full of ego-maniacs like you!"
I gripped my head. I had such a headache. I was still in shock from Leah's death. But my head was still simmering with all the memories. My real memories, and my fake. Everything I had actually experienced and everything Joham had pumped into my head. Part of me wanted to be a good son and please him, a part of me wanted to obey. Another part wanted to kill him, to make him suffer as I have suffered.
"How can you do this to us Joham, look what you have done to us!" I turned to look at all the hybrids. "Look at yourselves. Is this the world you want to help create? A world built on blood, on pain?"
I saw uncertainty in their auras. The revelation of Rosemary's murder had caused a chink in the armor.
Then, to my immense shock, Peter spoke. "Mother got what she deserved."
"How can you say that?" I asked him, shocked at his careless words.
"She owed her existence to Joham, we all do. If it wasn't for him we wouldn't exist. You should be thankful uncle Matthew, you knew that girl because of him."
"He killed her!" I yelled. "Rosemary, Leah, my mother and all the woman he killed when he impregnated them. He would kill you all if it would help him," I said.
"Maybe, but he is still our grandfather, he raised us, helped mold us. He offers us a world where we rule and live as gods, how can we not fight for him? We owe him our existence, we are thankful to him as you should be as well."
The uncertainty faded from their auras as Peter's words gave them back their certainty.
"How could you say that? Your own mother died to save me."
"If she died it was because she was too weak," Peter said, no sympathy or compassion for his mother existed in his aura. "Gods are strong, mortals are weak."
"Gods? We are not Gods!" I roared.
My rage was growing, spreading. Only now it was not just for Joham, it was for the hybrids now. They had no humanity left in them, they never had. Joham had made them in his image.
Fine. if they would be with him, they could die with him.

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Leah P.O.V
"I am glad you have moved on Leah, but did it have to be with a vampire?" dad asked.
I looked to the side, unable to meet his gaze. "Fred and me...it's complicated," I said.
"I swear, I die and everything goes to hell. Our future chief starts his own pack, imprints on a hybrid. Never saw that coming," dad said shaking his head.
"Nessie is okay," I said.
"Yes, but still. That is going to cause him problems down the road. I feel bad for that boy; he is going to have to go through a lot of heartache."
"I thought imprinting made everything all better?" I said.
"Love is harder then people think. True love can be the hardest of all."
Ho took a bite out of his sandwich.
"I am glad your mother and Charlie found one another."
"You are?" I asked.
"Leah, I am dead. I can't exactly hold your mother any more. I do not want her to be alone the rest of her life."
"But doesn't it bother you?" I asked.
"Course not. We spent more then twenty years together and had two wonderful children together. What she and Charlie have now is nothing compared to what we had. And one day we will be together again. I was really proud of you and Seth when you joined Jacob."
"I wasn't doing it for the Cullens," I said.
"True, but you intentions were still noble; you wanted to protect your brother."
"And get away from Sam."
"Don't try and dumb down what you did Leah. You put a lot at stake to protect Seth. And it was a good move, you got away from Sam and you were made beta. You made a good life for yourself Leah. You made amends with those you hurt; you learned to control your anger."
"Then I met Matthew," I said.
"Yes, the one who filed you with love. Poor kid, he has had such a hard life. He never knew love until you showed up in his life. You have sacrificed much for him Leah. Tell me, was he worth it?"
"Yes," I said firmly.
"Are you sure?"
"Of course. He is just a boy, born under unfortunate circumstances, with no one to love him. His whole life he was manipulated. He cannot help what he is. But I saw the good in him dad. The same goodness the Cullen's have, I saw humanity in a being who was never human. Vampires were human once, I was human once. Matthew never was, but I saw it in him. All he needed was someone to love and care for him, someone who wouldn't use him, someone who would teach him."
Dad smiled, like my answer pleased him. "I knew you got some of me in you. Our people have too much resentment towards the Cullen's. We think them monsters when the opposite is true. But the wolves blame them for their condition, and we hate them for the pain they bring you. It makes us blind to the truth, Seth was the first to see past it, he saw the Cullen's for what they really were."
"Yeah, he got teased a lot for it," I said.
"It is never easy to think differently then others. Everyone thought Seth was naive but he was smarter then them. They were too filled with fear at the hybrids existence to see. Fear does that, makes us blind. Sam acted too quickly, he let his own fear and resentment of the Cullens cloud his judgment. You, your brother and Jake did well to rebel. Otherwise you would have been responsible for the death of two innocent people; I shudder to think what that would have done to the pack."
There were times when I thought of what would have happened if we killed Bella while she was still carrying Nessie. I don't think Jake would have lasted long; he was barely hanging on as it was and I think killing Bella would have sent him over the edge. The rest of us...well I try not to think of it too much.
"Dad, what's going to happen to him now? To Matthew?"
Dad's look turned more somber.
"Dad? Is something going to happen to Matthew?"
"Not exactly Leah," he said.
"What is it? Please tell me," I begged him.
"In killing you Joham has opened Matthew's heart to hate. Matthew will seek vengeance for your death and destroy everything in his path to make Joham suffer."
"But Matthew wouldn't do that? He's not violent."
Okay, sure that had been a few incidents, like when he bit me on the arm, or when he attacked Emily, or when he killed the neighbor's dog or that time he flipped out from having a bad dream. But only when he was provoked, Matthew was normally a kind, peaceful boy.
"I told you anger and fear can make us blind, Leah. That boy is full of hate and he has no one to focus it on but the world."

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Matthew P.O.V
"You all think you are so special? You think you are fit to rule this world? You all don't know a damn thing about the world! And it's time for this to end right now!" I yelled.
I focused my power on the Cullen's, on the wolves, on the Denali coven and yes on the Volturi.
I gave them courage and resolve, I dumbed down the wolves grief to help them focus on the fight. For those with gifts I made them stronger. Not full force, but much stronger then what they were before.
And just like that, the battle resumed, only this time the other team was winning.
The wolves were a monstrous force, driven by grief and rage they tore through the hybrids. I saw Vladimir fighting the boy who came to rescue me. The mist that came from the boy moved much more quickly and touched Vladimir, rendering him blind, deaf, and desensitized.
"No! We will have our revenge! The Romanians will rise again!" he roared. Obviously the boy's power did not make you mute.
Aro came up behind him and tore his head off. "Never again!" he said, his face full of triumphant fury.
"Vladimir, no!" Stefan screamed.
A dainty woman held onto him from behind, Caius descended on him, he looked like he was kissing Stefan's neck, but a second later his head fell to the ground. Caius let out a cry of victory and grabbed the woman, who let Stefan's body fall to the ground. He kissed her and she kissed him back with equal passion. I could see the love and admiration. It surprised me he could feel love; he was like Seraphina, so cold.
They broke apart and he pointed his fist, which was encased in a metal gauntlet and a stream of fire shot out onto Stefan's remains.
Stefan and Vladimir's children all cried for their fathers. Glad to see they could feel something for a parent.
They tried fighting back, they tried to use their power, but with me enhancing their enemies' powers the tide had now turned.
I saw Mia fighting a really pretty woman. I knew she was special; her power was something like Fred's, only it was attraction. I was always able to sense those like me, like Jasper, like Fred, like this woman. Those who had something to do with emotion.
The woman used her power on Mia. Mia stared at her amazed, like she was seeing something so amazing, something so beautiful. The woman smiled and struck like a viper. Good to look at, until it strikes.
Sarah was fighting the dull colored vampire. His face was always the same. Bored. His colors were dull, apathy and defeat clung to him like a perfume. He was so lifeless, like a robot.
He grabbed her arms and twisted them off, she screamed in pain and he bit her in the throat, crushing her wind pipe.
They were all slowly dying. My family. I was killing them. It may not be me that dealt the blows, but it was my will that gave them power and blood lust.
I had lived with them, played with them, I knew all their names, and I trained with them. But I let them die. I wanted them to die. All of them. Tonight Joham's blood would be wiped from the earth, his dream of a vampire hybrid world would die...with him.
"Matthew stop!" Joham cried.
Pain and horror shined from his aura. The sight of his kin dying brought him great pain. He may not be the best, but a part of him did care for his children and grandchildren. Watching them die did bring him some pain.
And I was loving every moment of it.
He had caused me such pain. He took my mother, he used me, changed me to be the son he wanted, stripped my identity from my being, he killed Rosemary, the only one who decided to stand against him and he took my Leah from me.
I will see him suffer as I have suffered; I will see them all suffer.
"Matthew stop, they are your family!" Joham yelled at me.
I laughed. "Family? What does that even mean Joham? You taught me family was something irrelevant, a means to an end. You taught me to think like an animal, remorseless, cold, and rational. You taught me that nothing miles in this world but survival. But Leah taught me to be more. For once in my life I finally found someone who could teach me how to love, to be human instead of a monster, and you took her from me."
I faced Joham. My father, my tormentor.
"She taught me the true meaning of love, but you Joham, you are the focus of my madness, and all my pain and suffering is because of you Joham. Tonight you have stolen the last loved one from me and I will not stop until I see you die!"
"You ungrateful bastard!" he yelled. "I gave you everything! I made you into a god, I made you into the most powerful being in the world and all I ask is for a little help and you whine and moan about how much you suffer! I will not let you destroy everything I have worked to create!"
"Then let's end it!" I roared.
"Yes, lets!"
We screamed at one another and charged. Only one thing on both our minds.
Death.

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Fred P.O.V
I watched as Matthew and Joham fought one another.
I wanted to help him, but I had to get to Leah.
I ran to her, her blood filled the air. "Leah," I whispered. She looked so peaceful. Despite the fact hell had broken loose she was the only one who looked happy.
Her body had cooled a little but was still warmer then human.
I had failed. Once again I failed to save her. Now I had lost another. Before I lost a friend, now I loose the woman I love.
I sensed someone approaching, I gripped her tight in my arms and turned to hiss angrily at the intruder.
Edward, Kate, Nahuel and Seth stood there. Seth was still in wolf form, but his eyes betrayed the humanity that lurked within that giant monster form. Tears the size of grapes leaked from his eyes and fell to the ground.
He stepped forward and pressed his nose against her cheek. He whined softly and gently licked at her face.
"She's gone, I am so sorry Seth," I said, my voice breaking.
"Seth says it is not your fault," Edward said.
"I am sorry for your loss, I know what it is like to loose a sister," Kate said. She placed a hand on his shoulder.
There was a snap and Seth growled at her.
"Sorry, sorry!" Kate said putting her hands up defensively. "Matthew is amping my power, it's stronger then normal."
Nahuel knelled next to me, he looked at her with such pain in his eyes. I knew he loved her too, but I was not able to feel anger or resentment towards him, not now. Right now we were both brothers, sharing the pain of loosing a loved one.
"She looks so peaceful. She went down fighting until the bitter end." a tear fell down his face. "It's funny; it looks like she is still healing."
I looked at Leah again. I looked at her wounds, but her wounds were almost gone now. Her body was still healing. Human bodies do that too. I remember when I was human and I was taking advanced biology we learned even in death the body is still active for a while.
I don't know where I got the idea. Maybe I was desperate, maybe God was helping me. But I knew I had to do something. I had a plane and I had to be quick.
I looked at Edward and he looked skeptical.
"It's been too long, there might be damage, it might not work," he said.
"What are you talking about?" Nahuel asked.
"I have a plan, I think we can bring her back," I said.
Seth looked at me with a desperate hope in his eyes.
"But how?" Nahuel asked.

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Leah P.O.V
"Then I have to go back dad, please," I said.
"It is not up to me sweetie, I am sorry. But no need to worry your friends have found a way," he said with a smile.
"What?"
"Your boy toy is a lot smarter then most give him credit for. He may be a vampire but at least you got a college kid," he said.
"So I am going back?" I asked.
"Yes. But you might not like what you see when you get back," he said.
He took my hands in his.
"Leah, when you return you won't remember this," he said.
"What? But why?" I asked.
"If everyone remembered what dying was like then they wouldn't be so afraid," he said with a smile. "Although you won't remember what was said here, you will now return with a sense of content, all the fears and things you wanted to say will no longer seem to matter because they were resolved here. But before you go, I must warn you."
"Of what?"
"Leah, there is still great danger lurking and I am not speaking about Joham. Something is...stirring."
Just then I felt a pang in my chest and I clutched it. It felt like someone had punched me in the chest.
"It is starting. Leah, there is no more time. Something is coming back, something old, something primal."
"What is it?" I asked.
"It is ancient, old as winter. It hunted our ancestors in the old days."
"You mean the Quileutes?"
"No, it predates the Quileutes," he said.
The sky began to darken. A mist began to appear from the trees. The once warm and comfortable atmosphere was turning cold and eerie. We stood up, but I almost fell when I felt another pain in my chest. I could swear I was hearing voices, urgent, scared, desperate.
"Dad, what is happening?" I asked.
He must have thought I was referring to the scenery.
"The dark is coming, it does not want you to go back Leah, it knows you have a role to play."
"Role? What role?"
Voices began to whisper around us. They were cold, angry even, but they said sweet thing.
"Stay here."
"Be happy."
"Stay with your father."
"It's better here."
"You'll be happy."
"No pain, no suffering."
"Together again."
"Dad, what is that?" I asked. Something in me was feeling terrified. I felt like...forgive the pun. I felt like a sheep who knew the wolf was hiding in sheep's clothing. Somehow I knew something deadly was close, every instinct, human and wolf was screaming at me to run and hide. The very fact both instincts agreed to run was amazing.
There was something crying in the dark. It sounded like a baby crying. Despite my fear I wanted to find that crying baby. Maybe it was my motherly instincts, but the baby sounded like it was in so much pain, like is was so alone.
"Do not be afraid Leah, it has no power here except what we give it. It can only try and intimidate us. But you can't scare a dead man." he stepped forward and spoke to the woods, to the darkness emanating them. "You will leave now!"
The voices spoke again, only this time they were a lot less nice.
"Kill you!"
"Rip to shreds!"
"Drink your blood!"
"Dance in your entrails!"
"Poke out your eyes!"
"Kill her!"
"Hate you all!"
"You are nothing but a shade, you have no place here, now leave!"
The mist and shadows began to retreat. For a moment I thought I saw something in the darkness. It was vaguely humanoid. I could not tell if it was a male or female. It's shape kept on flickering, it made it impossible to tell what it was.
The only thing that stuck out was its eyes. They were pure black. Blacker then the night sky, so dark they stuck out against the shadows in the woods. Like two glowing black orbs in the dark. I didn't think black could glow but these eyes did. It was staring at me, I knew it was. Looking into those eyes made my heart turn cold with fear. It looked at me with such hate, such resentment, such dark need, such hunger. I knew it wanted to kill me. No, not just kill me. It wanted to hurt me, and then kill me.
I was staring into the abyss, and the abyss was staring back.
But then it faded away into the shadows and the light banished it away. The warm peaceful atmosphere returned.
"What the fuck was that?" I asked.
The pain hit me again and I fell to my knees. The world began to blur, I felt like something was tugging on me, pulling me away.
"Leah, you must go. Before you face the dark you must survive the battle. Only you can calm Matthew down, if you don't his wrath will spread," dad said. "Matthew is the only one who can stop it and if he gives in to his anger then the darkness will win."
He took my hand in his.
"I love you Leah and I am really proud of you. And I want you to be strong, for what is to come next," he said.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
His face was somber.
"Dad, tell me everything will be okay, tell me, me and Matthew will be okay?" I asked.
"I am sorry Leah, be strong. And know I will always be with you. I love you, take care."
The world began to shimmer and fade, I felt as if I was in free fall.
"Dad wait!" I yelled.

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"Clear!"
Something touched my chest and my whole body felt like it had been shocked.
I gasped for breath and opened my eyes. Edward, Kate, Nahuel, Seth in his wold form, and Fred.
"Oh my God it worked!" Nahuel said.
"Welcome back to the land of the living she-wolf," Kate said.
"Nice seeing you too. Now could you please take your hands of my tits?" I asked.
"Oh sorry," she said. She let go of my chest and I tried to sit up. Fred helped me, cradling me in his arms.
"What happened?" I asked.
"You were dead," Edward said.
"What?"
"Yes, you died Leah, don't you remember?" Fred asked gently.
"I...I don't..."
I felt like I was forgetting something, something really important, but I couldn't remember.
"Did you see anything?" Kate asked.
"Why? I mean I was only gone a few moments right?"
"Leah, you were dead for seven minutes," Edward said.
"What!"
"Yes. Fred saw your body was still healing even while you were dead and he hoped it had repaired itself enough to the point where you could be revived. We used Kate as a stand-in defibrillator."
"Hence the hands on the chest," she said with a smile.
"I didn't know you were that powerful," I said.
"Normally I am not, but since Matthew is making us all ridiculously strong and enhancing our powers I can do all kinds of things I couldn't do before."
"Matthew? Where is he?"
The moved a little to let me see. Things had improved for us. The remaining hybrids had regrouped around Seraphina who was keeping the rest of the Volturi back with her power. She had caused another wall of fire to separate her and the survivors from the guard.
But it was the sight of Matthew standing over Joham that caught my eye.
Matthew stared at Joham with a look that did not belong on his face. His lips were curled into a sick smile. He looked like Jane when she was using her power. His eyes sparkled with a wicked delight as Joham cowered from him.
Joham, the once tall and proud bowed before his son, shuddering in fear. He clutched his head and was moaning. "Please, no more, I am sorry, please, stop, please, I beg you!" Joham yelled.
Matthew just smiled. Taking sadistic pleasure in his fathers fear. But this was not right, my Matthew is not sadistic, my Matthew does not torture any one.
Something told me that if I didn't stop him now he would never stop.
"Matthew, stop!" I yelled.
Matthew's head flew to my direction. The evil sadism vanished from his eyes, replaced by love and wonder. The face I knew so well. "Leah?" he whispered.
The field was silent, save for the sound of Seraphina's fire. I could hear people whispering, amazed I was alive. I could hear Jake and the others growling in pleasure, happy I was alive.
"Leah!" Matthew shouted. He ran towards us, his eyes shining with tears.
As he ran a blue light emanated from the wall of fire where Seraphina was.
"Matthew look out!" I yelled.
He turned towards the danger, just as he did some thing blue shot from the wall of fire and hid him right in the chest. A wall of fire erupted from his chest. It hit him so hard he spun around and slammed into the ground.
I could hear his flesh sizzling like meat on a grill, steam rose from where he was hit and the smell of burned flesh was thick in the air.
Matthew clutched the part where he had been hit. I knew it had to be bad, because he was not screaming. He should be screaming. Here is a note. If someone is hurt and they don't feel bad, that is very, very, very bad.
"Matthew!" I screamed.
I tried to stand up but I was still too weak from my near...make that death experience.
Matthew was shaking as he stood. I felt sick when I saw the blast had hit him just below his left shoulder. His skin was black and cracked. Had he been human, he would be dead.
He glared over at the fire. Seraphina stepped out from the protective wall, blue fire danced around her body, making her seem like a fiery angel. The guard went to attack her but she raised her arms and there was a small explosion, two of the guards managed to just get blown back, the other three were blown apart and reduced to ash.
"Allow me to show you why they call me the burning one," she said.
The blue fire began to move and take shape; it spread out behind her back and formed six, fiery blue angel like wings. That coupled with her angelic beauty made her look like a literal angel. You could easily fall for it if it if you didn't know what she really was.
The wings pulled and flapped forward, a rush of blue fire shot forth. The vampires all scattered. The second the fire touched the trees they burst into brilliant flame. The ground was scorched black where the fire had touched.
I was starting to wish the Egyptian vampire Benjamin was here. I remembered he could manipulate the elements and I am sure he would be really useful right now.
The Volturi could not get close, the heat was too intense and every time they tried to use their power she would attack them.
She turned too look at me and she smiled, I knew what her next target would be.
She raised her hand high above and a giant blue ball of fire, like a little mini son the size of a church bell formed. I knew that if it hit us we would be so dead.
"NOOOOO!" some one yelled.
The night time sky was filled with screaming, but it was no one from our side. The hybrids behind Seraphina were screaming, one girl who was naked, the one who burned like the human torch writhed on the ground.
"Mother! Help it hurts!" she screamed.
The ball vanished and Seraphina turned to glare at Jane. "Bitch, how dare you attack my kin!"
"It is not her Seraphina," Matthew said.
Seraphina turned to glare at Matthew. "How?"
"Pain is just another emotion for me to manipulate, I have seen it used enough to know how to copy it!"
"On your kin! What monster would torture his own family!" she demanded.
"In case you didn't notice it runs in the family," Matthew said coldly.
Joham stood up; the affects of Matthew's power wore off. "Seraphina, we must retreat!" he said.
"Yes father!"
"No!" Matthew said.
Joham looked to Matthew. "Enough is enough, you have won. You have your memories, you have your adoptive mother, you have won. What more do you want?"
The hybrids continued to scream in pain.
"Will you stop that for God's sake!" Joham said.
"No, I told you it ends tonight Joham. And I meant it."
The hybrids stopped screaming, they stood up on shaky legs.
There was a look in Matthew's eyes. A look I know all too well. The look you get when you are turning your emotions off, the look you get when you are about to kill. Cold, hard, remorseless.
"Matthew, what are you doing?" Joham asked cautiously,
"Ending it." Matthew looked to Seraphina. "Seraphina, they call you the burning one? Well tonight, you burn for the last time."
Matthew closed his eyes. Seraphina's fire began to grow.
"What are you doing?" Seraphina asked sounding worried.
"What is what's wrong?" Joham asked her.
"He is doing something...my power...I...I...I can't!"
"Mother stop!"
The girl from earlier, her and the other hybrids were shielding themselves from Seraphina's fire, their cloths were smoldering and and their skin was beginning to blacken.
Seraphina was trying to reign in her power, that was obvious, but obviously she was no longer in control. The fire was so strong I could feel it and I was over fifty feet away.
Her fire grew bigger and bigger, and got closer and closer to the hybrids.
"No, Matthew stop!" Seraphina said. "Please, I beg you, not my daughter!"
"You know something Seraphina?" Matthew asked. He raised his arm, his hand was flat. "I never did like you."
He formed a fist and her power exploded.
Fred covered me with his body. The shock of the impact could be felt though. The wind rushed past us and the ground trembled, as if there was an earthquake.
For a moment the world turned dark, when I woke up the were three of everything, I could barely hear anything. Fred was in front of me, shaking me, I could distantly hear him say my name.
"Leah, come on we have to run!"
"Wha...wha?"
Seth appeared next to him, I hoped to God he found the time to put his shorts on.
"Leah come on!"
The picked me up, I was still too weak to move by myself. There was fire everywhere. A deep crater had formed where Seraphina had been.
"What happened?" I asked.
"She blew up, literally. The hybrids were vaporized. I think Joham was caught in the blast too," Nahuel said.
"Come on, we have to go!" Fred said.
"Why?" I asked.
"Because of the fireballs," Alice said.
I realized we were the only ones here. My brothers, the Cullens, the Denalis, Fred, Nahuel, his aunt...where was Matthew?
"Wait...what fireballs?"
She pointed up. The clouds were orange and glowed like fire was in them. There was a sound like thunder.
"When she blew up a massive pillar of fire went into the sky. The Volturi already left, I showed Aro what is about to happen."
"What is about to happen?" I asked.
"You ever see the old ten commandments movie?" she asked.
"The one with Charles Hesston?" I asked.
She nodded.
"Yeah, why?"
"Well, remember the part where all that fire comes falling down from the sky?"

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Matthew P.O.V
My body hurt.
Rubble was piled on top of me, bits of a tree, moss, leaves. The log was really heavy. It would crush a human, but I was not a human.
I pushed the log off and dusted myself off. I hissed in pain, the spot on my chest where Seraphina hit me with her fire still hurt. The skin was still black and raw, but it was healing. If a human had been hit by it they would have gone into shock and died.
I had used my power to make her power grow beyond her control. I remember making it strong, as strong as I could, I added different and opposing emotions to cause her to lose control. Then she blew up.
I remember being forced back by the force of the explosion, the heat of it singed my skin.
It caused me to go flying in the trees. I saw Brand and the remaining hybrids. They were so close that they were turned to ash. Brand could make her skin blazing hot, but even she couldn't survive the blast.
As I flew back I saw Fred cover Leah up, they were far away enough to not be affected by the blast. Or so I thought. As soon as the blast wave hit him he and the others went flying. I cursed myself a fool for making the blast so strong. What if I hurt one of the Cullens or the Denalis? The wolves even. They were not as durable as a vampire. I prayed my need for vengeance hadn't hurt someone I care for.
Speaking of vengeance what happened to Joham? He had been closer to the blast then I was. Was he dead? Did the blast manage to kill him? Was I finally free of him? Or was he still lurking around? I lost sight of him in the light of the blast.
Was the fire of her blast strong enough to kill a vampire? Sure it killed the hybrids, but they were a quarter human. What would it do to a pure blood. A vampire could be around fire, they could go into a burning building and not fear the fire. Only when you tear them to pieces and expose the venom to fire should they be afraid.
The hybrids and Romanians were dead...I was starting to have mixed feelings about that. The memories in me made by Rosemary that made me loyal to Joham, along with the memories I made with the hybrids. Brand, Morphia, Peter, Gregory, Stephan. They were all dead and gone. Even the vampires serving the Romanians, the ones they turned from the village are dead. I saw Mikhail fighting a giant vampire with black hair. Mikhail was good, but the other vampire was better. He wasn't special like some of the other Volturi, unless you count mad vampire fighting skills as a gift.
I fell to my knees and began to cry. I was feeling vindicated, I was feeling guilt, I was feeling pleasure, I was feeling shame. I had given into my darkest desires, for a moment I was truly a monster. A part of me still felt I was in the right, but another felt I had crossed a line.
I could have used my power to make everyone calm and rational. I could have made them surrender and hand them over to the Volturi. But I wanted to punish them myself, I wanted to hurt them, I wanted them to suffer.
All because I thought Leah was dead.
I killed my whole family for vengeance.
But now Leah was alive, what excuse did I have for my actions?
The sky glowed orange; fireballs began to fall from the sky. I distantly remembered a blast of fire shooting into the sky when Seraphina blew up.
This entire area was about to become a death trap, I had to find her.
"Leah!"
I quickly ran, trying to pick up some trace of her. I distantly sensed them up ahead, trying to outrun the fire pouring from the sky. I ran in their direction. The fireballs fell to the earth. Some as big as a baseball, others big enough to be a beach ball.
I tried not to look at the sky as I ran a reminder of what my vengeance wrought. I was a bit slow because of my wounds, but I was able to dodge the fireballs. Even in death Seraphina was trying to kill me.
How like her.

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Sacrifice: Something offered in sacrifice, Destruction or surrender of something for the sake of something else, something given up or lost.
Example: Matthew makes the ultimate sacrifice to save Leah.
Leah P.O.V
I felt like I was in hell.
The sky rained down fire, we ran as fast as we could, while trying to avoid the hellfire. I wanted to try and stay to find Matthew, but the fire was getting worse. By the time it was done the whole area would be rubble.
"Thanks for bringing me back," I said to Fred.
"My pleasure," he said with a smile.
"Please tell me he is alive," I said.
"He is, our boy didn't go through all that to be taken out," he said. "Try not to worry about him Leah, remember, he survived on his own for six months before we found him."
I liked how he said our boy. He was right; Matthew could take care of himself.
We continued to run, avoiding the raining fire as much as possible. Everything was going smooth until we came to a deep fiery chasm. It was well over a hundred feet, I had no doubt in my mind the fire would kill me if I fell down. The jump was impossible for a human to make, but easy for us to make.
The only problem was the fire raining for the sky. If we weren't careful a ball of fire could hit us and send us plummeting down into the chasm.
"To hell with this, why don't we just go the left?" Rose said pointing up the chasm.
A giant ball of fire hit the ground in the direction where Rose was pointing. Blocking our path with fire and causing a mass of trees to block the way.
"Or not," she said.
We had no choice but to go across the chasm. One by one they jumped, taking their time to jump. It was tricky for Jake and the others, their wolf forms were larger so it was harder for them to dodge the fire. Much of their fur was already singed; I could not wait to see what they looked like as humans. If I lived to see that, I mean.
Soon they all jumped, leaving me and Fred. "All right, here we go," he said.
"If you drop me I will be so pissed," I said.
"Don't worry; I'll never let you go."
"I liked the sound of that," I said with a smile.
"Hey Leah, when we get back to La Push, I think we should get married," he said.
"Your asking me to marry you when we are about to jump over a giant fiery pit?" I asked.
"Seems like the right time."
"…..I'll think about it," I said.
"Wow, were breaking all kinds of barriers huh?"
He took a step back and started to run. I screamed loud as we jumped over the chasm, we would have made it if it wasn't for the ball of fire hitting us.
One minute we were almost there, the next a freaking fire ball comes out of nowhere and hits us. Then were heading for the bottom. Luckily we hit the wall, I would have fallen to my death but Fred's reflex's allowed him to grab onto the wall and grab me in time.
"Hold on Leah!" he yelled.
"Yeah, because letting go was an idea!" I snapped back.
"Always with the lip!" he mumbled.
"I heard that!" I snapped.
We climbed as quickly as we could. But the walls were being hit by the fireballs which impacted so hard the tremors threatened to shake us off. Cracks began to appear on the walls of the chasm and large stone pieces were falling down.
If we didn't hurry we would be buried by stone and burn.
"Leah, look out!" Jake yelled.
A fire ball hit right next to me and Fred. I screamed and heard the sound of maniacal laughter. I looked and saw standing above on the other side of the chasm was Seraphina.
"Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha! That's right, burn!" she said. A look of pure madness on her face.
"Why won't you just die!" I screamed.
"Matthew, he took my world from me, so it's only fare I take his world from him, get ready to burn in hell!" she said.
A ball of fire appeared in her hand and I knew she would not miss. But then something came up from behind her and they both went flying into the chasm.
"Matthew!" I screamed.
They hit the wall and both grabbed onto it. Matthew began to race up to us, Seraphina hot on his heels.
"Go, go, go!" he yelled.
Seraphina caught his leg.
"You're not going anywhere!" she screamed.
"God, will you just fuck off and die already!" Matthew screamed at her.
She smiled and his paint leg caught on fire. The fire began to spread up his body and he screamed in pain.
I remembered the horrible dream I had, or should I say a vision. The chasm, the fire, Seraphina and Matthew. Just like the dream I had where she pulled him into a lake of fire.
"We're all going to burn together, one big happy family!" Seraphina screeched madly.
She threw a ball of fire at me and Fred. It missed but the impact caused cracks to appear, the cracks were slowly spreading and I knew if we didn't hurry we would fall when the wall fell into the ground.
Seraphina began to go ape shit on the chasm, sending fire ball after fire ball in all directions, weakening the already fragile structure of the chasm.
"Are you happy now Matthew? You can be with both your mother and your bitch!" Seraphina yelled. Matthew was covered in fire.
He brought his other leg up and aimed it right at her face.
"Say hi to everyone for me!"
He kicked her right in the face, blood squirted out and she screamed. She let go of him and the wall and fell screaming to the inferno below. Hopefully this time it would stick.
"Matthew!" I screamed.
"Leah! Run!" he yelled.
"No, Fred, take us down, we have to save him!"
"We can't the wall is collapsing!" Fred yelled.
"I don't care, we can't leave him!" I yelled.
The others were yelling above us, telling us to hurry up. If they tried to climb down their weight could cause the walls to collapse and kill us.
"Hold on Matthew, we'll save you!" I yelled.
"Just go, I am dead!"
"No! I am not leaving you again!" I yelled.
He smiled; how he could smile while he was burning I didn't know.
"Live Leah, for me."
"I won't leave you!"
I meant it, either we both got out, or neither of us got out. He knew this, he got a sad smile on his face, he looked to Fred and they had a look that spoke so many things. An understanding.
"Matthew don't you dare let go!" I yelled.
"Take care of her Fred-Fred, I love you both."
Matthew looked up to the others. They were all screaming at him to hold on.
Two tear drops leaked from his eyes. "I love you all!"
"MATTHEW NOOOOO!" I yelled.
Matthew let go.
"AGGGHHH!" I screamed.
He fell into the chasm, his smile never left his face, his eyes never left mine. I watched as he fell, falling, falling into fire.
"No! Matthew! Matthew!" I screamed.
Fred hauled me up, I tried to fight him, tried to get him to let me go. But his grip was like a vice. He got us up in time, a second later a large chunk of rock, the same part where we were a moment before fell off and plummeted into the inferno below.
We made it to the top and the others helped us up. I tried to run into the pit but the others stopped me. I could sense Jasper trying to calm me down but my grief was too great for him. The ground began to shake and we ran from the chasm as it began to cave in.
I was still too weak to phase, other wise I would have transformed and jumped in after my boy. I knew there was no way he survived, especially not now with the chasm breaking down like that. But I didn't care.
"Matthew! Matthew!" I cried.
I fell to the ground, to weak to move. My spirit shattered. There was no way I could save him now. He was gone now, I could not reach him. He was dead and ash now and there was nothing I could do. Fred tried to grab me but I fought them, I didn't want to leave, I had to stay.
Maybe he got away? Maybe he was still alive down there.
"Leah, we have to go!" Nahuel shouted.
"Fuck you! I'm staying!" I yelled at him.
A cold touch washed over my over heated skin on my shoulder. I looked and saw it was Kate. "Sorry, Leah."
I hit the ground before I could react. My last vision was of fire and shadow. And my son, falling into it all, with a smile on his face.
Fusedtwilight: Joham and his coven are gone, Leah is alive but Matthew is now lost. How will his loss affect Leah and everyone? Is this loss the final push that will make Leah tumble of the edge? Will Fred be able to keep her from doing harm to herself? Only two more chapters to go before Focused Madness ends. Please review.
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