Masquerade

"Wake up Jacob... wake up"

My eyelids fluttered as I heard a voice call me out of the darkness, my vision slowly concentrated upon a single bright point and I could only make out a vague silhouette of a person before me. Though by her voice I could tell that it was Bianca. I moved my neck as it and the upper part of my body felt like one giant bruise.

"What happened?"

I couldn't remember a thing, one moment I'm kissing Bianca and the next my body feels like shit and I'm not even that old yet, Dammit.
My vision began to clear as I saw Bianca with her charming smile. She stood before me as she was leaning over and looking into my eyes. Bianca placed the palm of her hand upon my forehead, as she did this and for slowly the pain in my neck and body began to subside.
I just concentrated upon the warmth of her palm and in that simple gesture it answered all my questions.
I tried to speak but she only placed her index finger upon my lips and smiled.
A sense of complacency fell over me and anyone that knows me well knows that I'm not so easily quelled. Just in that moment, I felt like I should and would listen to Bianca like an obediant servant.
Bianca sat besides me and I turned to face her,ethiething in my mind wouldn't allow me to divert my ga ze. Though inside the part which ruled my instincts told me to look away, to run away. Naturally I would have listened if I didn't feel a need to comply with everything that Bianca could tell me. I literally was a shell of my former self, I didn't care. I only wanted to follow her. She brought warmth and made everything feel alright, I only wanted and needed her.

"Jacob, you must accept that you are my servant..."

I still sat there mesmerized by her amber eyes and harmonic voice.

"Why?..." My voice my own but with a hint of complacency. Bianca smiled as she caressed my right cheek with her hand.

"Even now you to to resist."

Bianca leaned forward and I felt her soft lips against mine. I wanted to move away, to be any other place then here. Yet my body wouldn't listen to me. To say I wasn't afraid would be an understatement, though it didn't show on my body. It wasn't under my control. Somethings are a mixed blessing.

"What have you done to me..." It sounded more like a order then a question, I was beginning to regain control of my body and I particularly wasn't liking Bianca at that moment.

"Why do you resist?... you've already recieved the first mark, I'm doing it for your own good, why can't you see that Jacob?"

Bianca shook her head as a melancholy expression spread across her face, maybe she was remembering something from the past. I couldn't tell as I only noticed the blood tinted tear that cascaded down her cheek. Bianca diverted her gaze as she wiped the tear away.
The thought of a vampire crying was totally unknown to me, whenever I confronted one they would always be calm. Nothing could change there demeaner. Though you can say that whenever I meet one it's not in the most friendly of circumstances, trying to stake a vampire in the heart really doesn't set a good impression upon them. Some people are touchy that way.
Everything that I knew about a vampire was contradicted by Bianca, I've known her for so long. I know most of her secrets and mannerisms. To tell you the truth, I don't know what or who to believe when it comes to them anymore.
Bianca returned her gaze back to me, I felt the control which held my body in stasis begin to waver. Though that would have to wait, I really wanted to know what the first mark was.
A twinge of fear over came me as I thought about it more, was the first mark one of three that would make me a vampire?

"What will the first mark do to me?..."

Maybe she heard or even felt my fear as she gently patted my left knee and looked into my eyes, her amber eyes filled with compassion.

"You can look into my eyes and others without the fear of being enraptured,you'll be harder to injure and most mind games won't have an effect on you."

We have the technology to make him strong, faster and better. Now why didn't I feel like the million dollar man? probably because he wasn't bitten by the vampire that he was dating. You think you have problems, I'm dating one. Don't tell her that, she'll hurt me.

"So what does that make me?"

"By that mark you belong to me."

I sighed, "Is there anyway that I can get rid of it?"

"No\
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I leaned back and watched the fan slowly rotate, I couldn't believe that she made this decision without my consent. Of course if she had asked I would have said no and she probably would have done it anyway, but it would have been the thought that counts.
Call me sentimental, but I was basing this relationship off of trust and Bianca had severly violated that trust.

"Bianca... we've known each other for a long time, we've helped each other through some tough times... through all of it I've never been disappointed in you, though with whats just happened. You've violated my trust with something that I might have accepted fully later on... now I'm not so sure."

Bianca sat still and was completely silent as I spoke, I didn't look in her eyes. I just hoped she understood, a long time ago before she became a vamp. This wouldn't have happened, I've known her for so long. I knew her and now I don't, she just did it without my consent. Maybe this is what rape feels like.

"I'm sorry...but I wanted you." Bianca said quietly.

I continued to stare at the ceiling fan, I felt the area where I was beginning to remember where she had bitten me. The wounds were still there and the raw flesh still hurt to the touch. I pulled my fingers away and saw the slight traces of blood. I took a deep breath and sat up, I looked at Bianca as she diverted her gaze to the floor, while she held her hands glasped between her legs.
I moved my hand so I could gently hold her chin, I lifted up her face so she could look into mine. Hopefully she could see the forgiving expression upon my face.

"You know evor aor a guy like me, you did ruin the moment..."

I grinned and in time Bianca smiled. I don't know why I can just shift through all these feelings. Sadness to happiness, it's not hard for m for forgive. I can't hold a grudge no matter what I do, though it's probably because of what I used to live my life by when members of my family were murdered by renegade vampires. I used to live and breath hatred towards them all, thats why I got into this profession. Not for some greater deed but to kill those that took those who I loved, though now I've learned that the hatred that grew within me truly blossomed into a forgiving soul. Nothing that I do now can bring them back, but I can live and learn. To never forget but not be brought down by blinding emotions. Maybe I'm just sentimental that way.

Bianca held my hand and kissed thesh osh of my palm, she held it close as I could feel her warmth.

"Why can't you hate me?"

Bianca held my hand between both of hers as she looked at me, the power that had once been in her eyes had dulled. Though they still held some sort of power.

"You should already know..."

Bianca sighed, "Yeah I do, I guess something good came out of it."

I shrugged, "Maybe, though it's been four years and...dammit I can't talk about this...I'm going to be angry with you for biting me and then doing that first mark thing..."

Though my voice didn't come out in the angry tone that I wanted it to, it would have been easier. Instead it came out quite the opposite, one day I'll master the way of faking my anger.

"Ok...well since I did do that are you going to punish me?"

Bianca began to inch her way towards me as she held my hand, her perfume was getting to me or maybe it was some type of vampire phermone, but god almight it was working. I shook my head as I gazed into her eyes, they were normal human eyes but they still captivated me.

"I'll do that later Ms. Nymphomaniac, though I'm still mad at you and I'm going to deny you what you've come here for..."

Bianca leaned in closer as she brushed her lips against mine, just to let my mind wander and think about what could happen. She was good, but I was better at this game. I hoped.
I raised my leand and and caressed her face, a gasp of air escaped her lips as she nuzzeled her face against my palm. I brushed my thumb across her lips and lead her closer to me.
I pressed my lips against hers and for a moment I wanted to go further in the moment, it would have been so easy and inside I knew both of us wanted to go all the way. I pulled a way as I noticed Bianca open her eyes and in that moment I smiled.

"No"

Bianca sighed and pulled away, she let go of my hands as she ld asd as far back as the couch would allow her as she folded her arms.

"Ok fine... be that way." Ha, I'm above my hormones. Point for me.

"Ok I will..." If you only knew how hard it was for me to deny her at that moment, believe me when I say this. If it weren't for my dark twisted sense of sexual humor I woulde goe gone further, but seeing Bianca want me badly was kind of entertaining. Yeah I'm twisted.

"Your loss." Bianca smirked, I knew she was trying to reclaim this. I know all her tricks, ok most of them.

I smiled at her and tried to fill that expression with as much sex and lust as possible. It worked as Bianca's eyes lit up as I soothingly spoke.

"No Bianca it's your loss."

"I hate you..."

I smiled, "You know you love it..."

"Shut up"

I laughed as I watched Bianca, nothing like denying someone sex. Yes I'm sick and twisted in that way but she had it coming.

"Jacob, I hate you...oh I hate you."

Bianca stood up as she walked over to the kitchen, where Yuri was stretched out on top of tile countertop. Bianca picked up Yuri and craddled her in her arms.
Bianca held Yuri as she stood before me, the cats green eyes staring at me.

"What are you going to do with the cat?"

Bianca shrugged as she placed Yuri upon my lap, she circled around for awhile as before the cat curled up. Yuri looking up at me with her green eyes. Great.

"Well I have to go, I'll see you later Jacob."

Bianca leaned over and placed a quick kiss upon my forehead and ran her hand over Yuri, who in turn gave a content meow. I watched Bianca as her hand moved from Yuri and as I looked up she was gone, another mind trick. Dammit I thought she said I was immune to them. I began to pet Yuri as she began to purr.

"Well Yuri... it looks like we'll be in this for the long haul."

Yuri mewed as I took a deep breath, "Yeah I know how you feel..."