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Say It Softly	By : Bluemoney1928 Category: Twilight Series > AU/AR > Het > Het Views: 1476 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Carlisle gave his polite smile he usually does under intense pressure.
“Hello, Bella. I’m very sorry to disturb you but I thought that perhaps we should talk.’ I stood for a moment studying his face. The only light we had was the moon but I could still see him very clearly.
“Perhaps we should.” I agreed.
“I’m sorry for my dishonesty. I’d like to explain what I will have to painfully explain to Edward as well.” He began to walk in a very slow pace and placed his hands in the pockets of his coat. It was the most leisure of human strolls. I followed right beside him. “I assume Edward has told you about the night I took him from the hospital and about Claira when he was still human.?” I nodded. “ Well, his mother had asked me to do anything to save him and I can safely believe she knew what I was, But I still had never done anything like that before and the guilt was over baring even with the likeness of permission. Her request alone still didn’t feel like enough. I was fond of Edward and I could see him as a son, a son I would want to be my own. I saw far more potential in him then dying at the age of 17 from the influenza. Once I got him home I sat by him through the pain. Each shudder and cry was torture. He thought he was dying from the flu. In his jumbled words however he mentioned Claira several times. I knew her as a patient so out of my firm guilt I conjured the idea that maybe I wouldn’t feel as bad if I made sure he wasn’t alone and hadn’t lost everything. So I left him, even such a dark hour and went to get her. I found her quickly and the first thing she said to me in her fevered state was “Where’s Edward?” I told her I could take her to Edward and make her better like him but that it would mean a lot of sacrifice. I asked if it was what she really wanted. She looked at me for a long while, like she was trying to figure it all out. The her eyes suddenly snapped open wide and she asked “We’re going to be different aren’t we?” I told her yes. I was very impressed by her deep perceptions. “Yes, that’s what I want.” She told me. So I took her. I began her transformation in a room far away from Edwards so that when he was done with his transformation he wouldn’t pick up on her human scent. Not long after Edward had gone through it all we sat and talked for a little while about what was going on with him. I hadn’t told him about Claira yet. I was just trying to make sure he was going to be okay. The new life can be very disorienting as you know. He finally told me that he wouldn’t travel to far but that he really wanted to be alone to think and to get a grasp on his new life. Then right as he was leaving he turned to me and said-
“I’m going to miss my life, although it was meant to be so short. I’m especially going to miss my dear Claira.” I smiled and took a step toward him.”
“You can have her, just how you are.” I explained to him, but I got a reaction a lot different then I was expecting.
“No! I would never want that! I could never see her this way. I could never see her become a monster!” Then he was gone. I wasn’t even sure if he was coming back. I was shocked and I didn’t quite know what to do suddenly. I went in to check on Claira and she had finished her transformation. The first thing she heard with her newborn ears was the voice of Edward and what he had said. Two tings caught me off guard immediately. One, was that she wanted to leave, she never wanted Edward to see her like that or know she was a vampire. The second thing was that her once blue eyes and grown even more blue. A piercing, beautiful blue. She also had no desire for human blood. Yet she still carried all the other characteristics of being a vampire. I wanted to study it badly, it was nothing I’d ever seen before. We talked for a long time. She was heartbroken but strong and wanted nothing more than Edward to be as happy as he could be, even if it meant she had nothing to do with him. I sent her to love with some friends of mine in Alaska. She wound up forming her own coven and teaching others to live like we do. She has a mate named Shiloh. Not quite sure of the relationship. I think they just adopted each other as siblings. I can’t be sure. He can do amazing things, great talents. I asked her to come here so I could study both of them. The biggest reason was to tell Edward the truth, so I have nothing else to hide.”
We walked in silence for a moment while I took in this story. I just couldn’t believe this was happening. All at the same time I felt bad for Carlisle.
“This must have been very hard for you to endure for all this time Carlisle. I see why you had to do it. I’m not saying it’s easy but I understand.” He stopped his stroll abruptly and faced me.
“Thank you Bella for your patience and understanding. I assure you Edward will not be so understanding about this.” I noticed for the first time that he looked miserable.
“We’ll get through this together Carlisle.” I said, hating to see his expression so grim. He placed him hand on my shoulder, took a deep breath and smiled.
“Thank you, Bella.” With that, he was gone.
Alice showed up at the cottage the next morning. She walked straight in and sat down next to me where I sat at the piano. Edward had been teaching me to play my lullaby and I had practiced it all night out of nervousness. I hit the finishing key to my nearly mastered piece. I looked over at Alice who had a pitied smile on her face.
“Beautiful, Edward will be so proud of you.” She put her tiny arm around my shoulders and gave them a squeeze.
“So, how is she?” I asked still running my fingers across the keys. There was a small hesitation .
“She’s nice.” She replied simply. I rolled my eyes and looked at her. She sighed. “Okay, she’s really nice, funny, beautiful, smart…” she trailed off as I nodded.
“Did you come to get me to go to the house?” I asked.
“Well, yeah.” She shifted uncomfortably. “I think you should meet her.” I was curious enough and mentally exhausted enough not to argue.
I could hear Carlisle laughing and Esme talking as we approached the house.
“Okay, I am a hundred percent here for you today, Bella.” Alice smiled.
“I’m fine.” I said quickly to myself as we walked in. Rosalie sat in a chair in the far corner of the dining room watching Carlisle hover over an unfamiliar man. He had a kind face that met mine as I walked in the door. He had dark curly hair that shagged down passed his jaw line. Greenish golden eyes. He was beautiful. He smiled politely at me sitting on the edge of the dining room table. Carlisle turned to look at me. He looked worried for a slight moment and then smiled.
“Hey there, Bella.” He greeted me.
“Hey.” I replied in almost a whisper.
“Bella, this is Shiloh, I told you about his interesting talents.”
“Hi.” Shiloh said, and waved his hand slightly.
“Hello.” I repeated as friendly as possible. Esme came down the stairs holding a few medical supplies to bring to Carlisle. She was followed by a fantastically beautiful redhead, with piercing blue eyes. I seriously considered running. I don’t know why. I just felt panicked. They reached the bottom of the stairs.
“Bella, good morning sweetheart. I want you to meet Claira.” Esme smiled and then left to the dining room to give Carlisle his medical supplies leaving Claira and I alone.
“Hi, Bella.” Her voice rang like bells. My eyes met the floor.
“Hi.” I choked out.
“It’s really nice to meet you.” She was relentless, with her plastic wrapped, pristine conditioned niceness.
“Yeah.” I replied. I was beginning to feel stupid. Why couldn’t I speak like a normal person. She seemed to laugh softly as if to break the awkwardness. I looked up as she flipped her glossy red hair over her shoulder. I watched it as it landed neatly in a pile and the curls danced around like they were putting on a show.
I applaud you. I thought to myself.
“You know, Esme was telling me what a beautiful cottage they built for you and Edward. I’d really love to see it if you don’t mind.” She spoke gently as if testing the waters. I knew what she was doing. She was just trying to make me feel more comfortable, while getting to know me. She failed. I looked over her shoulder to see Alice smile and nod over exaggeratingly. I smiled and met Claira’s eyes. They were so blue they nearly glowed.
“Yeah, I’ll show you.”
“Fantastic!” We headed to the door. “Shiloh, I’ll be back in a little.” We headed out the front door and into the overcast day. “Seems like a nice enough place here in Forks.” She continued to try a hand at conversation.
“Yeah. It’s not bad. I used to hate it.” I laughed lightly as we made it to the forest edge.
“What changed your mind?” She mirrored my laugh as if she was already in on the joke.
“I met Edward.” The electricity that shot through my body when I realized what I had just said was so profound I actually faltered with my steps seeming to pause and then try to walk again. Could I have picked the worst thing to bring up!!!!??
“Oh, yeah.” She was silent for a second. “How did you guys meet anyways?” She asked. I looked at her then, sure that my face didn’t hide any of the shock I was going through. She was brave. As we walked through the narrow passageway in the woods I told her our story in the shortest way possible. I lingered over the time he was gone and spending time with Jacob to not mention Edwards name for a little longer. Then I told her how we came to get married and that we had Renesmee, as fast as I could. She listened while I spoke, nodding every once in a while. She seemed to be thinking heavily. She watched her feet as she walked as did I. Suddenly I didn’t pity myself anymore. My eyes were suddenly very open. I pitied her. It was me that had the upper hand. I couldn’t imagine how hard this must have been for her. But she was trying so hard and for that, she deserved a little effort on my part as well. We made it to the cottage as I was telling her more about Renesmee. “I’d really like to meet her” She smiled. I could sense the sadness in her eyes behind her smile.
“I’m sure you will. Jacob has her now but he’ll be bringing her home.” She was staring at the cottage with her eyes wide.
“This is, so beautiful.” She whispered. She stood for a long time looking over every detail of the outside. I started to feel the awkwardness returning.
“Come inside, I’ll show you the rest.”
Once inside I began rambling on about the small things we had sitting around the house. Where we got them. Why we got them. Who got them for us. All the while she just walked slowly around the room touching each thing. She was so quiet that I finally just shut up. I could tell she was not hearing anything. She was in a whole other world. She sat down on the bench of the piano facing out into the room. Then I noticed her face. It was the closest to crying she could do.
“I’m sorry, Bella.” She spoke close to a whisper. I was confused by what she saying.
“For what?” I asked. She thought for a long moment.
“I know it can’t be easy for you with me being here. You see Bella, I really am happy for you. You’re a sweet girl. You deserve Edward. I just want him to be happy. I just..” I stood like a statue. I couldn’t believe how painful it was for me to hear her talk. I could hear all the grief she had felt through all the years in her voice. “It’s a bitter sweet thing, you know, Bella? I’m happy that this is what he has. I just, see it as what we could have had.”
“I know, Claira. I understand.” She smiled at me so kindly. I felt weakened by her diminishing sadness. I knew it wasn’t leaving but simply hiding for the time being. I knew all too well how that felt. “Hey, you want to get out of here? I can take you to see Renesmee if you’de like. She won’t be ready to come home but we can go see how her and Jake are doing.”
She laughed softly. “I would love that.”
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