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Lean On Him	By : jls21ae Category: A through F > Divergent (series) > Divergent (series) Views: 4371 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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When I wake it is still dark out and a glance at my clock tells me it is only four in the morning. I decide to get the day started. Getting out of bed I grab my clothes for the day, a pair of yellow shorts and a red t-shirt and head for the shower.
When I return to my room I sit on my bed taking in the view and making a mental picture of what I’ll be leaving behind today. Just a year ago it felt as though today would never arrive and now here it is. I know my parents will miss me but they still have Daniel. At that thought I know I have to see him one more time. I jump up throwing on my running shoes before rushing out to see him.
Even though it is early I am not surprised when Daniel opens the door after I knock, “What are you doing up and here so early”?
“Today’s The Choosing Ceremony and I wanted to see you before we went to it. Even though we haven’t seen each other much lately I just want you to know that I love you and you’ll always be my big brother”.
His eyes widen, “Oh Lilly”, and pulls me into his room hugging me and whispers, “No matter where you go you’ll always be my baby sister”.
This is the first time it really hits me that I’m leaving and I feel the tears begin to fall. He just holds me tighter as I let it out.
“Promise me that you’ll always be there for mom and dad”, I say pulling way to look at him. “Not like the last year but actually going to visit them”.
He looks me dead in the eye, “I promise I’ll be better about visiting”.
I nod accepting his promise, “You can’t let them know anything until they return”.
He nods hugging me again, “I should head probably head back before they wake up”, I say while turning toward the door. I stop with my hand on the door knob and look back one last time, “Goodbye”.
As I close the door I hear Daniel’s voice crack when he replies, “Goodbye Lilly”.
I pause and lean against the wall, it was harder to say goodbye than I thought it would be. My family were the only people I was close to and now I was leaving them. I let myself slide down the wall pulling my knees into my chest and that’s how Christian found me ten minutes later.
“What are you doing on floor”, he asks crouching down in front of me.
“Wishing I could tell my parents goodbye and tell them how much I love them and appreciate everything they’ve ever done for me”.
He sighs as he sits beside me, “I know how you feel”.
We sit for a few more minutes before getting up and heading back to our own rooms. When I walk into mine I see my parents sitting on the couch close together and my father motions me over. When I move towards them they separate leaving a space between them for me. It feels strange sitting between them on my last day here when it’s been years since we’ve done this.
We’d been sitting for a while when I feel my father run his fingers through my hair. When I turn to him I see unshed tears shining in his eyes, “Where ever you go Lillyana your mother and I will always love you”.
I’m shocked and start to speak, “But I’m not”, he places a finger to my lips and smiles. It’s not a real smile though because I can see the sadness behind it. He leans forward and presses a kiss to my forehead.
“We’ve always known you would leave one day. You were never really happy here, there’s something missing here for you. We’ve had you for sixteen years and it’s time for you to find somewhere to truly be happy”. He leans in and wraps his arms around both me and my mother so we’re all hugging and we stay that way until it’s time to leave.
When we arrive at the Hub we take the elevator to the top floor and enter a large circular room. Each faction has a separate seating area while those who are choosing will stand in the front. When their name is called they will step forward and make a small cut in their hand and let a drop of blood fall into the choosing bowls. Each bowl is to represent a faction: Amity has earth, Abnegation is gray stones, Erudite is water, Candor has glass, and Dauntless is lit coals. I can imagine the sound of my blood as it hits the burning coals. I turn to my parents for the last time until I see them on visiting day.
I hug my mother first a whispered good luck and she lets go wiping quickly at her eyes.
I turn to my father not sure if we should hug when he opens his arms. I smile leaning into him. He tells me good luck and as I turn to join the line I hear him: though it’s not much above a whisper, “Don’t jump first”. I turn back and he winks before joining my mother in the Amity section. Maloki had told me and Christian the same when he gave us advice last night about Dauntless initiation but how would my father know anything about that.
I don’t get a chance you really think it over before Jeanine Matthews steps before the choosing bowls to address the room.
“Good morning. Another year has passed and with it comes the chance for our dependents to choose their factions. It’s their turn to choose what they want out of life. Will they be in Candor and honor the truth, or possibly Erudite and learn everything they can. They may choose Dauntless and live bravely protecting our society. They might want to enjoy serving others and join Abnegation or help feed our city by going to Amity. Where ever they choose to go they will be adults starting a new life in our city no longer dependents but making their own way. Remember Faction before Blood. Let us begin. Zate”.
They always start in alphabetical order from the end to the beginning so it will be awhile before I choose. The first transfer surprisingly leaves Erudite to Candor. As the ceremony continues I notice more transfers than usual.
“Hallows”.
I watch as Christian walks confidently up to the bowls and makes quick work in slicing his palm. He doesn’t even pause before thrusting his arm over the coals and I can hear the sizzle from here. Dauntless stands clapping loudly and cheering as he makes his way over. There’s only one person left before it will be my turn. She is Abnegation and stays there.
“Grove”.
I walk up to the bowls and reach for the knife. Pressing the blade quickly into the meaty part of my palm I cut a small line into it. There’s a bite to it but it doesn’t hurt too much. I hold my hand to myself for a moment a sad part of me wants me to hold my hand over the dirt and return to my parents but my father is right I can’t stay where I won’t be happy.
I push my arm from my body and hear the sizzle of the coals seconds before the Dauntless start cheering. I set the knife back and wipe my palm as I walk to my new faction almost stumbling when someone slaps my back as I join Christian at the back.
I tune out the ceremony looking at the people seated in front of me wondering what they are like in their own headquarters. An elbow to the ribs pulls me out my thoughts and I look at Christian. He nods his head down to the person now walking toward Dauntless. I was about to ask Christian why it mattered I doubt I would know them when I do a double take. It’s Alexander Bell. What, why, how is all that processes in my head and when he looks at me I see him smile.
When he reaches us he hugs me though I tense up I’m just too shocked to pull away.
“I thought I would be the only transfer here from Amity. I was going to have to stay there no matter the test when you transferred I was so happy”.
I don’t say anything as I pull away and watch as the ceremony ends. The Dauntless always leave first and I follow quickly behind. I notice we’re not headed to the elevator when I hear a loud pounding from the stairs and see the dauntless are laughing and running full speed down. I laugh as I grab Christian’s hand pulling him with as I join the chaos.
When we reach the bottom no one stops they continue out through the doors into the streets. I see people running out of the street to get out of the way as we continue to run in the middle of the road. We slow down as we near the train tracks which are set above the ground at least twenty feet and when the Dauntless born start climbing I join quickly.
Having watched the Dauntless for years I know we’ll have to run and jump on the train as it passes. Laughing and slightly out of breath I hug Christian.
“We made it so far”, he laughs at me.
I hear the train and notice the others begin to run. I push Christian into running behind them. I watch the first few people jump in to see how it’s done before grabbing the handle on the side and taking a few more steps I pull myself up and then into the car. Christian follows close behind me almost knocking me over when he gets in. Alexander unfortunately makes it as well. I know I really don’t want him to have to live factionless but I don’t want him here either.
A girl next to me wearing an Erudite uniform extends her hand to me, “Hi, I’m Cayla”. Amity is more for hugging but I shake her hand anyway.
“Lillyana and this is Christian”, I say.
“Who is he”, she motions to Alexander. Surprised but maybe if she shows some interest in him he might back off from me.
“Alexander,” I reply.
Suddenly I hear a shout and move towards the still open car door and look out. I feel queasy and I’m not even looking down when I notice they are jumping from the train to a roof a few feet away with an eight story drop below it. Well fuck.
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