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Focused Madness
Chapter 5

Fusedtwilight: Thanks to my beta animegirlkiki for betaing, thanks to purpleranger76 and A.L Blackwell for reviewing, get you're tissues ready, real tear jerker right here.

Esme P.O.V
“Matthew stop fussing,” I chastised him.
He scrunched his face up, clearly displeased. Nahuel and Huilen were on their way. Jasper and Alice had phoned us and told us the good news.
It had been three days since they had left. Nahuel and his aunt were hard to find at first. Since the incident with the Volturi they had been keeping a low profile, fearful the Volturi would come to finish them off.
I had made Matthew dress up and tidy his hair. Like all boys his age he made such a fuss. He did not like to dress neat and proper, he was to wild for that, he preferred to run around in a pair of shorts and barefoot much like the wolf boys. Normally I let him as long as he kept clean at least. But since this was an important occasion and we did have guests I wanted him to look his best.
He looked so adorable. His hair was neat and trimmed and combed to the side, he wore a button up shirt and a white shirt underneath it with a nice tan cotton shorts to go with it, along with socks and black shoes.
“I hate dressing up,” he complained.
“We have guests coming over you need to look you're best, don't you want to impress them?” I asked.
He looked away in defiance and I laughed. Leah had come over to visit which delighted me to see her come over more often. I always gave her a hug when I saw her. I know all about her story and I feel so guilty. Our presence in Forks caused her lover to turn into a wolf and imprint on her cousin, how sad.
I wish I could take her pain away and make her life better, but even I don't have that kind of power. I had noticed a change in her these last few months. She had become more calm, more confidant in herself. I think being Jacob's second in command made her have expectations of herself and she was doing everyone proud.
I also notice she seemed to be taking real liking to Matthew. It had been reluctant at first but the more time she spent with him the more she seemed to like him.
She sat on the couch watching me dress Matthew. “You look good Matthew,” she said.
“Really?” he asked.
She smiled. “Really, I dare say you are more attractive than the other men in the house.”
The words had their affect. His face brightened and a smug kind of pride filled his eyes. I looked over at Leah and smiled.
Nessie came in and sat down, she was dressed in a little white dress, she was excited to see Nahuel again. Matthew was a little nervous. I do hope they are brothers; they both need a relative to connect to, Matthew more than Nahuel who had his aunt.
A knock on the door told us they were here. I could hear the sound of Nahuel's heart beat.
“They're here!” Nessie said excitedly.
Leah walked over to Matthew and took his hand. “Don't worry Matthew, I will be here.”
“Okay,” he said softly.
We went to go greet Nahuel and his aunt at the front door where everyone else was. I could hear Carlisle introducing everyone formally to Nahuel and his aunt.
Matthew held Leah's hand and Nessie held mine. We walked down stairs to meet Nahuel and I prayed that everything would go okay for the two.
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Leah P.O.V
Matthew's heart was beating like mad. Had he been human he would be dead. No human could have a heart beat that quick and live to tell the tale.
We walked down the steps; Nahuel and his aunt were greeting everyone. I saw her eyes were red. A fought back the urge to growl. Fucking human eating bitch!
Matthew looked at me curiously, he must have sensed my anger. I did my best to calm myself, this was supposed to be about Matthew trying to connect with a potential family member. If I showed hostility to either than it could affect how he views them.
Nahuel froze when he spotted us. All eyes turned to us as we came downstairs. We walked over to Nahuel and his aunt and Nessie ran to him and gave him a hug. “Hello Nahuel, hello Miss. Huilen,” she greeted.
“My you have grown so much. And please call me Huilen,” Huilen said greeting Nessie with a smile. She turned to her nephew. “She reminds me of you Nahuel, you grew so fast.”
Nahuel paid no attention to her. He was completely focused on Matthew. Matthew was frozen; he clutched my hand tightly in fear. “It's okay Matthew, go on,” I urged him.
Matthew let go and stepped forward. “Hi, me is being Matthew.”
I did a quick study of Matthew and Nahuel. Studying their features, their similarities. Trying to see how closely related they were. They had the same nose, the same jawline. They both had the same color skin, they both had the same dark hair, the same brown skin.
But Matthew was still young, still growing up. Who knows, maybe when he turns seven we can tell if they look more similar.
Nahuel bent down on his knee and offered his hand to Matthew. Matthew took it and they shook hands. “Hello Matthew I am Nahuel.”
They shook hands and Matthew seemed to lose some of the tension he had. Huilen was giving Matthew a hard look, I felt a little protective seeing those red eyes scrutinizing Matthew so intensely. But then I realized she was just checking the similarities like I was.
“You are a boy hybrid likes me? I thoughts I was only one,” Matthew said.
“For a long time I thought I was the only one too,” Nahuel said.
“Then you met me,” Nessie said with a smile.
“Are there mores of us? Are there mores hybrids?” Matthew asked.
They both looked at Nahuel, both wanting to know if they were the only ones in the world. The more the merrier I guess.
“I don't know,” Nauel said. There was a smile on his face but I could see the sadness in his eyes.
I remember his speech. I remember him saying he had four sisters. But I also remember that Aro guy saying they were going to pay his daddy a visit, he asked them to spare his sisters saying they were innocent. But I doubt they would have spared them. Mercy was not in the Volturi's dictionary.
Then who knows? Aro being the collector freak he is may have spared them to study them or to have them in his collection. How was Nahuel to know? For all he knew he could have lost his siblings to the Volturi when he testified. I wonder if he regrets testifying.
“You’re sad now,” Matthew said.
“A little,” Nahuel said.
Matthew hugged him. “Don't be, we haves one another now.”
Nessie joined in on the hug and it was a big awwwww, moment. I was happy for both Nessie and Matthew. Hell I was a little happy for Nauel. Being the only one of your kind can blow. But here they were, three hybrids, one spent the majority of his life thinking he was an evil creation. Another born under extreme circumstances, her life threatened by people who wanted her dead because they thought she was a danger, and the last who has no past, his only memory of a pain so intense it haunts him in his dreams.
I know about his aversion to sleep, I know if he dreams it is only of the fire. I know he wakes up screaming.
But now they have each other, each having gone through their own trial and tribulation, each one overcoming some great obstacle to get to this point. Where they would meet one another. It was truly amazing.
First Carlisle took some D.N.A samples from both Matthew and Nahuel. He had some devices he had in their basement where he could do the tests, we would know in a week if they were related.
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One week later and I was over at Sam and Emily's.
We sat at the table and it was awkward and uncomfortable as hell. Emily had made us all tea, which was good because my nerves were fried.
Why was I here? Easy, we had to go over wedding details.
“So I was thinking we have the ceremony by the beach,” Emily was saying.
“You sure that us a good idea? You know what the weather is like out here,” I said.
“I know but I really want to do an outside wedding. It would be cheaper that way.”
“Em, you know money isn't an issue,” Sam said.
“Money is an issue Sam,” Emily said firmly.
I looked between Sam and Emily. I guess they were hitting their newlywed blues before they hit the alter. “Sam is so obsessed with me being happy he is letting it over ride his common sense,” Emily said.
“Emily is convinced we are having money issues when we are not,” Sam said.
“Sam we have bills to pay and you have been missing a lot of work because of the pack, if we spend money on a church than we will get piled with payments.”
“Well maybe you should just wait a while,” I suggested. “When you are more financially stable.”
They looked at one another. “It is a good idea; we waited this long, what’s a little longer?” Emily said.
“You're right, I just wish we could do it already, I am tired of putting our lives on hold because of pack business,” Sam said.
“You could ask the Cullens for the money, all the times we helped save their asses they owe us big any way,” I said.
I meant it as a joke but obviously Sam had lost his sense of humor a when he became a wolf. “I would sooner die,” he said coldly.
“I was just kidding,” I bit back.
My cell rang. I checked the caller I.D. It was Jake. “Hello?”
“Leah, the results are back.”
I knew what results he meant. “And?”
“Matthew wants to wait for you to come before we find out.”
“What? Why?”
“He said he wants you here for the test results.”
I sighed. “Okay I will be right over.”
I hanged up the phone and downed my tea. “Sorry got to go; they need me over at the Cullen's.”
Sam and Emily got up. Emily hugged me and Sam too. I wish he hadn't, a nice handshake or wave would have done.
“Come back soon, you should come over for dinner some time,” she said.
“Sure, maybe some other time,” I said.
I made my way over to the Cullen's as soon could. Nahuel and his aunt were still here. Nauel, Nessie and Matthew had spent much time together this last week. Matthew hero worshiped Nauel. You could see it in his eyes clear as day.
He spent more time with Nauel than Nessie which made her a little jealous. I had sadly been spending much of my week over at the Cullen's. I had hoped with the Denali coven and Nauel to distract him he would forget about little old me. No such luck.
I admit it, I do enjoy spending time with Matthew. He made being at the Cullen's bearable. Nessie wasn't too bad either. My time was usually spent watching them play or helping Matthew take a bath.
Yes I help bath him. He was like any little boy; he did not like his baths. He liked swimming though, one nice day we took them swimming to a nearby creek. The sun was out and all the vampires came to swim as well. Nahuel and his aunt were the only ones who did not have swim suits. Huilen did not swim; she was content to watch her nephew swim.
Jake and I went along with Seth. Quil and Embry came along as well. Claire was with her parents visiting some relatives up in Makah so Quil had nothing better to do. Embry was tempted to come by Jake when he mentioned Esme would cook for us. Esme may have a power that gives her unnatural culinary abilities. I would gladly kill to get a sample of her food.
The sun had been out so all the vampires sparkled when the sun hit them. The hybrids glowed slightly but no sparkle. A human might not notice it, but the glow helped add to the inhuman beauty of the hybrids, making them seem more heavenly.
Nessie and Matthew shot through the creek like little torpedo's, sending water everywhere. Esme had made food for the hybrids and us wolves which was soon gone.
My hormones were going into overdrive. Seeing all the men in nothing but swim suites was wrecking havoc on my body. Vampires may smell horrible but they look amazing. In the sun light sparkling they look dazzling. My eyes kept on shifting to Nahuel who wore a loin cloth and nothing more.
He looked like a GQ model from Brazil getting ready to do a naughty swim suit edition. My eyes nearly bugged out when I saw him walk out of the water, his hands running through his hair, beads of water running down his chest.
I tried my best to control my emotions and my thoughts, the last thing I need is Edward hearing my thoughts (which included some very inappropriate fantasies) or Jasper feeling how horny I was. I hoped Matthew didn't say anything; I would die of embarrassment if he let it slip what affect the men were having on me. Plus the pack would never let me live it down.
It wouldn't be the first time a wolf has dreamed of a leech, I remember when Seth had that wet dream about Esme. Let's just say it was a naughty schoolboy being punished buy his teacher kind of dream. Ew.
I noticed Tanya eying Nahuel up. I wonder if she was just interested in a quick fuck with him or if she was starting to look for that lucky guy to spend her undead life with. I know Tanya is really old, older than Carlisle even and was a major sex nympho. But I had to wonder if being the only one in her family without a lover was making her rethink her options.
Matthew and Nessie squealed in delight when Emmett cannonballed right into the creek, sending a wave of water over everyone and getting them wet. It was more fun than I expected it. I caught Matthew looking at me and smiling. I smiled back. He must be happy to see I was having fun.
We had asked Nahuel about Joham. We asked him if he knew about anymore children his father might have had. “I have not seen my father for over a century. I would not be surprised if he sired more children since then,” he had said. He also had not heard anything about the Volturi paying Joham a little visit or not. So for all we know Joham could be dead or alive. If he was alive and came for Matthew I would kill the prick.
Matthew was too powerful to be influenced by Joham, plus if Joham wanted him he should have kept better watch over him. Plus being a female and knowing how he just uses women for breeding really pissed me the fuck off. I remember what it was like for Bella and the thought of some poor girl going through that for a man who didn't love her made my blood run hot.
I phased back to human once I got close enough to the Cullen's and ran the rest of the way there. Edward opened the door and let me inside before I had the chance to knock. I came inside and we walked up to the living room. The atmosphere was tense, full of excitement, everyone wanted to see if if they were related but they had to wait on me.
“Leah!” Matthew said. He was always so happy to see me. He got up from his seat on the couch next to Nahuel. I sat down and Matthew sat on my lap. It didn't bother me when he did it anymore. Once he sat down my hand went to his head and began to play with his hair. It was getting a little long, it reached his shoulders, we were going to have to cut it soon.
Carlisle held a yellow folder. “Well I have gotten the tests back.” he opened the folder and took out the paper and read it. The air thickened with anticipation, like on one of those talk shows when they do a paternity test and the audience is so quiet, waiting to learn the daddy's identity.
“According to the test Nahuel and Matthew share enough genetic markers to be related. The tests confirm it, you two are brothers.”
Matthew cheered and jumped over to Nahuel and hugged him tight. “Big brother, Matthew is having a big brother!”
Nahuel looked stunned, happy and amazed. He hugged Matthew and I saw a glimmer of tears in his eyes. So this confirmed it, Joham was their father.
Huilen looked so happy for her nephew. She must be so glad he could have another family member to connect with. Someone who Joham had not brainwashed into thinking they were better than humanity. Having a sibling can both be a blessing and a curse. Sure you fight with them, get frustrated with them and there may be times when you think you never want to see them or speak with them, but in the end siblings look out for one another and they can always depend on one another.
So in the end we found out who his father is and found his brother. But we still had no answers as to his past or how wound up in Forks. Maybe it was for the best. He got the one thing many people would kill for, a fresh start a new beginning. Lord knows I could use one of those.
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Matthew P.O.V
Matthew sitting next to brother Nahuel.
Brother Nahuel so happy right now, Matthew happy too! Me is having a big brother. When me grow up me wants to be like brother Nahuel.
We's sitting with Ness-Ness now. She showing us book from Car-Car's study room. It book with pictures in it. Pictures of angels. She showing us the different kinds of angels the book showed.
“What this?” I asked Ness-Ness.
We be on the last angel. I looked weird. It have six wings, all attached to a glowing face. Me is wondering where the rest of body is?
“That is a seraph,” Ness-Ness said.
“Seraph?” I asked.
“They are also called seraphim. They are the highest class of angels; they float around God and sing to him. Their name means-”
“The burning ones,” me is saying.
“Wow, how did you know that?” Nessie asked.
“Matthew are you okay?” Nahuel asked.
No, me is not being okay. That word, seraphim. It sound so familiar. It have some great meaning to me's. An image flashed in me's head. Me clutch head in pain. Me trying to remember something, me not know what, but the more me think of seraphim, of burning one's the more head hurts.
Burning one. Matthew burning now, head on fire! It hurted, I hurted really bad now. Me clutch head and howl in pain. Images flashing through eyes now. Me trying to remember but head not want to remember but me still trying.
“Carlisle!” Nahuel yelled.
Car-Car appear with some others. They hold onto Matthew as he screams in pain. “Matthew what is it?” Car-Car asked.
“Head...hurted so bad now. The fire, it burning me ups.”
Me cry now, head feel like it is splitting. The images floating just over the surface. Like over boiling water, every time Matthew try to grab them they hurt him.
“He is remembering something from his past,” Ed-Ed said.
“Matthew?! Matthew!” Leah appear in front of Matthew, she very worried now.
“Leah, make the pain stop, it hurts!” I begged her.
“Do something,” she said to Car-Car.
“Matthew what are you trying to remember?” Car-Car asked.
“I was telling him about the angels in heaven and when I told him about the seraphim-”
“Not seraphim,” me say.
Image in my head now. Woman, dark curly hair, deep blue eyes, light dark skin, like me's and Nahuels only lighter. Like coffee with lots of cream in it. Her body wreathed in flames, but she not in pain. The fire moves and flows with her will. She smiles, confidant and prideful. She raises her hand and flames leap forward and things burn.
A name flashed across my mind like a comet, the pain so intense all I could do was scream a name.
“Serephina!” I yell, thank I go dark and I for once not burn.
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Leah P.O.V
“What the hell was that!?”
We were in the basement an hour later, Matthew was unconscious. Carlisle had him hooked up to a bunch of machines that monitored his heart beat, blood pressure, all that stuff.
“I believe Matthew's mind tried to remember something of his past, but the memory was beyond the pain and he had to go through that before he could get the memory,” Carlisle said checking Matthew's stats.
“Who or what is Serephina?” Nahuel asked.
“It is the feminine version of seraphim,” Carlisle answered.
“Who is she? You said seraphim are known as the burning ones, is she the one who did this to him?” if she did the bitch better find a nice hole to hide under for the next thousand years.
Edward answered. “I don't think so. There was a sense of familiarity. In the memory he felt comfortable, safe even in her presence. I think she may have been his sister.”
“What? I do not have a sister called Serephina,” Nahuel said.
“Remember the last time you saw you're father was over a century ago Nahuel, for all we know you could very well,” Carlisle said.
“I know she wasn't human,” Edward said.
“What do you mean? What did you see?” I asked.
He described what the chick looked like. How fire danced around her body and how she could control it.
“Sounds like what Benjamin can do,” Carlisle said.
“Benjamin does not have that level of control over fire yet,” Edward said.
“So what do we do? How do we help Matthew?” I asked.
“His mind has shut down, the strain of the pain and trying to remember her was too much for him to handle so it shut down to protect itself.”
“He's in a coma?” I asked.
“Yes.”
“Fuck!” I cursed.
“Will he be alright? Will he make it out?” Nahuel asked. He held Matthew's hand in his, there was a painful look in his eyes. Pain and anger. He was angry his brother whom he just found was hurting and he could do nothing to help him.
“He is stable right now, we just have to give him time to pull through on his own,” Carlisle said.
“How long will he be out?” I asked.
“Hard to say. The coma is light so maybe a few days, maybe more than a week. As long as it takes.”
I looked to Edward. “Do not worry, he is not dreaming, he is not burning,” he said.
Thank God. I ran my hand through his hair. He was so peaceful looking right now. His breathing was soft and even. “I think I will stay a while, I want to be here when he wakes up,” I said.
“You are more than welcome,” Carlisle said.
“I just wish there was a way we could help him get his memories back without hurting him!” Nahuel said.
Edward looked at Carlisle and Carlisle looked away. “What? What is it?” I asked.
“Nothing,” Carlisle said.
“Bullshit I saw that, Edward looked at you and it was a 'you should tell them look.'”
“Well I have come up with an idea.”
I looked to Nahuel, he nodded.
“Were all ears doc.”
“Well as you recall when Edwards’s powers grew strong enough he was able to actually read minds instead of just hearing thoughts.”
“Yeah....oh! You want him to juice up Edwards power so Edward can go inside his head and see what he has forgotten.”
“Can you do that?” Nahuel asked.
“Right now no. But once he wakes up it could be done. Carlisle thinks if we try hypnotic-therapy it could help as well.”
“You want to hypnotize him?” I asked with a raised eyebrow.
“It does work; I have practiced it for the last two decades. I could hypnotize him and help guide him past the pain and Edward can go into his mind. I cannot guarantee that it would work however.”
“We should discuss it with Matthew when he wakes up,” Nahuel said.
“I agree,” I said.
There was a knock on the door. Edward opened it and Nessie came through with Jake, she held a book in her hands. It was the Lion, the witch and the wardrobe. “Can I read to Matthew?” she asked.
I looked over to Nahuel and he nodded. “Of course you can,” I said.
We pulled up a seat and Jake sat down and Nessie crawled up on his lap, she opened the book and began to read to Matthew. I suddenly found myself tired. I had been so stressed out about Matthew I had worm myself out. Nessie's voice was perfect and beautiful like wind chimes. Soothing, calm. By the fifth chapter I was asleep.
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I dreamed me and Matthew were running through the woods.
The mean witch was coming after us, I had to protect him. If the witch got him I would never see him again.
“I'm scared Leah, don't let thems takes mes again,” he cried.
“I will protect you, I promise,” I said.
Than the witch appeared from the darkness. Fire wrapped around her, dancing around her like something living. Six pairs of wings shined from behind her, her blue eyes burned like blue fire, a cruel smile played on her beautiful lips.
We ran as fast as we could but it seemed like something kept us from moving. Some invisible force pulled on Matthew so no matter how hard I held on I could not hold him.
“Leah helps me!”
“Don't let go!” I screamed.
I lost my grip on him and he was pulled toward the witch. He called for me, crying, begging for me to help him. I tried to run to him, to grab him and run, but the same invisible force kept me from him. I called his name over and over, tears ran down my cheeks.
A man appeared behind the witch, his skin dark, his hair black. He had the same nose as Matthew, the same jaw line. “He is my son, mine, you were just the Joseph,” the man said.
Matthew held his arms out to me, begging pleading. The witch held out her arms, as if to welcome him. The fire spread out and wrapped around Matthew, burning him. I watched in horror as the fire blacked his skin and reduced him to ash.
Then I woke up.
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I woke with a jump. I looked around the room wildly. We were still in the basement. Nessie and Jake were gone. How long had I been asleep?
“Are you okay?” Nahuel asked me.
“Yeah, it was just a dream.”
A really bad, really real, really fucked up dream.
Fusedtwilight: Next chapter we finally get more hints of his past. What could possibly go wrong?..........okay if you read my fics you know someone is going to suffer and bad.
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