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Lean On Him	By : jls21ae Category: A through F > Divergent (series) > Divergent (series) Views: 4371 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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“I really need to start learning to like people more don’t I”, I asked as soon as we left the cafeteria.
“I don’t think it’s about liking them, just more letting yourself open up”, Christian responded.
“I don’t know how to or even if I can”, I stopped as we passed through The Chasm and just looked over the edge at the water. “It’s easier this way, to just rely on myself and you. Why do I need anyone else”? Christian leaned on the railing beside me. “It’s always been easier for you to make friends to talk to people and I always wanted that. You make it look so easy and it seems no matter how much I try I freak out over crowds and new people. I want it to be simpler to get to know people”.
“It will get better, you’ll get used to this place and until then we’ll find somewhere to hide out. Now let’s get to the room to shower before everyone comes back”, he cracks a smile my way.
“Sounds like a plan”, I pull him into a hug before we leave. “Thanks for listening and dealing with all this”.
“You’re like my little sister of course I will deal with everything you let me”.
After letting go I punch him in the arm and laugh, “Let’s go”.
When we get back to the room we’re the first back and grab a shower while the water’s still warm. I have no doubt the water would be cold after all the initiates shower. I decide to sleep in a pair of shorts and tank top and since I’m not sure what time we’ll be woken I decide to wear a sports bra and socks to sleep.
Laying down I wait for Christian to come out of the shower when I hear the door open; I look over and see Alexander come in.
“I was wondering where you went. I didn’t see you after Max’s speech”, he came over to my bed and sat himself down on the side.
“We just wanted to get away from all the noise”, I replied turning on my side away from him.
“We”, he asked.
“Christian’s in the shower”, I say as my eyes drift closed from tiredness. They snap open though as I feel Alexander move closer on the bed and his hand moving on to my arm. I turn to see what he’s doing and notice he’s leaning down towards me.
I move away from him, “What are you doing”?
“Well, I was going to”, he paused for a moment“, just say good night”. With that he moved off the bed and went towards the bathroom. Christian came out a minute later.
“Oh thank goodness; what took you so long? Alexander came in and he sat on my bed” I told him.
Christian looked at me and started laughing, “He sat on your bed? Oh no the horror, maybe we should burn it”.
“I wasn’t done yet. I think he was going to try to kiss me”, I whispered so hopefully Alexander wouldn’t hear me from the bathroom.
“Is it really that bad of a thing, he likes you and I know you don’t like him but I never understood why”.
“He’s just not my type”, I shrug as I reply.
“Then what is your type cause as far as I know you haven’t liked anyone, other than a small crush on Kristopher”, he sat on the floor beside my bed.
I flush and look away shrugging as grey eyes flash in mind, “I don’t know”.
He looks at me skeptically, “I think you’re lying to me. Who is it”?
Thankfully I was saved from having to answer when the door opened and the other initiates come in.
“Let’s get some sleep I’m sure we’re gonna have to get up early”, I say as he stands up.
“You’ve got that right”, Cayla says coming over, “we have to be in The Pit at eight tomorrow morning”. Then she heads over to her bed.
I look over at the only clock in the room to see it’s going on one in the morning.
“We will finish this conversation”, Christian says as he gets into his own bed.
Surprisingly I fall asleep fairly quickly which turned out to be a good thing when a loud ringing goes through the room for about ten seconds. I get out of bed and notice it’s about seven thirty and I rush to get ready. After throwing on a pair of pants, a tank top, and my shoes I wait for Christian to finish before heading down to The Pit.
As soon as we get there my eyes zone in on him; I should really find out his name, standing across the room talking with Amar. My feet falter when his eyes turn to me for just a second and I feel Christian stop beside me. When I look over to him he’s smirking and I narrow my eyes.
“What”? He just smiles at me and moves away from the door to wait for the others. I follow him, “Really what”?
“I think we don’t have to finish that conversation from last night anymore”, I stare at him confused for a moment and then I remember.
“No, I don’t like him I don’t even know his name”, I mumble out a little.
“Yet, you don’t know his him yet”. He looked over at the Dauntless born, “I’ll be right back”.
I watch as he starts talking to one of the Dauntless born. I look around the room noticing the mats, punching bags, and a climbing wall over to the side. I also see what looks to be targets on the opposite wall.
All of a sudden I feel an arm go around my neck from behind and without a thought I elbow whoever is behind me. I hear the whoosh of air as it blows the hair around my ear but the grip doesn’t let up.
“Not the first reaction I would’ve expected from an Amity on her first day in training”, my eyes close, oh no. “You have strength though”.
When he lets me go I turn around, “I’m sorry I’m just kind of jumpy I didn’t mean to hit you”.
He laughs, “It’s not really a big deal maybe you do belong in Dauntless if that was your first reaction. When you ran away during the celebration last night I wasn’t sure if you belonged here”.
“Oh, I… I just”, I stammer out as Christian comes over and puts his arm around me.
“You alright”, Christian asks though he seemed to be glaring at the other man.
“I’m fine”, I respond.
“Well, it seems it’s time to get started,” he moved beside me and placed a hand on my back leading me over to the other initiates. Once we reach the others he leaves my side but instead of just removing his hand from my back he ran his hand along my back and over my side as he moved away. I shivered as I felt his hand run along my back and I saw him smirk but not at me though over his shoulder to where Christian was standing behind us.
Once he was gone Christian moved to my side, “I don’t like him”.
“Why not”, I ask. “He doesn’t seem all that bad to me”.
“Says the girl who has a crush on him”, he sighs out. “His name is Eric and apparently he’s up for a leadership position. I’ll tell you later what the Dauntless born told me”.
Amar steps up before us with Four standing right behind him and Eric, it’s nice to have a name for him, is sitting off to the side just watching.
“There are two parts to initiation in Dauntless; the first is physical. We’ll begin by training your bodies. The next is mental where we will train your minds. You will be trained separate from the Dauntless born but you will be ranked together. These rankings will determine which jobs you can move into after initiation. From what I’ve learned this morning the rankings will also determine who gets cut”, he sends a glare towards Eric.
“Cut, what do you mean cut”, one of the transfers asks.
Eric stood up, “It means that at the end of each stage of initiation the lowest ranking initiates will be leaving Dauntless to live Factionless. We’ve been accepting everyone who makes it through initiation over the years and we don’t have many positions open anymore. You chose Dauntless now Dauntless gets to choose you”. With that he sat back down.
“Let’s begin by running some laps around The Pit”, Amar says.
Everyone begins running. By the end Christian and I are the only two keeping up with Amar with Alexander right behind us.
“I’m surprised you three are doing better than the others”, he comments.
Christian and I look at each other before he responds, “We spent time out in the fields in Amity and we ran around outside a lot when we were younger”.
“Makes sense since the other factions don’t really spend much time running or playing other than Amity and Dauntless”, Amar says.
Once the other initiates join us we begin working with the punching bags once Amar showed us a few moves. Both Christian and I were holding back not wanting to show off our skills like Maloki and Kristopher suggested. I was throwing some light punches against the bag when I felt someone behind me and I turn to see Eric watching me. I went back to the bag trying to ignore the feeling of his stare against my back.
I startle slightly when I feel one hand against my shoulder blade and the other on my hip. I close my eyes as he uses his hands to set my back straight and turned to the side; the way I know it should be, and then both of his hands are on my hips.
“Now try hitting the bag”, he says quietly like a breathless whisper and I tense to fight the apparently uncontrollable shivers that appear when he does.
I put a little more power behind the punch and feel him nod before he moves away. I look over to see Christian shake his head and go back to hitting his own bag. After a little longer we break for lunch.
Once we sit in the Cafeteria I just have to know what is going on.
“So are you gonna tell me what you learned about Eric”, I ask him.
He looks at me seriously, “He usually stays within a small group of friends and he’s not really the nicest to anyone outside that group”. He looks away from me.
“You know something else. What is it”?
“They also said he has a reputation”. I just look at him waiting for him to finish. “You know he likes to sleep around”.
“Oh, ok”, I look down at my plate.
He gives me a side hug, “I just don’t want you to get hurt because he can’t keep his hands off other girls”.
“No, I get it I’m good with avoiding the hurt of any kind”, I smiled as I shoulder bumped him before I began eating.
Cayla and Alexander joined us for lunch along with some other people.
“This is Heath, Cassidy, and Kyle”, Cayla introduced us to them as well.
“Hi”, both Christian and I respond.
Heath I remember was the last jumper into the net. He has red short hair and blue eyes. I couldn’t tell how tall he was since he was sitting. Kyle had black hair that was almost to his shoulders and brown eyes. He seemed about the same height as Heath since he was sitting beside him. Cassidy had blond hair that was pulled back but seemed very long and dark blue eyes and she appeared to be pretty tall as well.
I was quiet during the rest of lunch thinking about what Christian told me. I look up at Eric a few tables away to see him looking back at me and he smiled. I looked away quickly and didn’t look his way again. I know what Christian said meant I shouldn’t even go there but a small part of me still found him attractive. Though, finding him attractive didn’t mean I wanted to risk my heart over a boy. I need to ignore him and find some way to keep him out of my head.
When we went back to training we spent time throwing knives and when he came up behind me I made sure I was doing everything right to avoid him touching me again.
Though apparently not everything, “Relax”, he told me before moving along.
When training ended we went to dinner and I sat with the same group of people. I joined the conversation around me laughing with the others. I actually found myself enjoying the others company. When dinner ended we walked around the shops even though we didn’t have our points yet just to get an idea on what we would be getting.
We also stopped by the tattoo parlor to look around. While going over the walls looking at the art I knew I wanted something different. I decide to just think on it longer and draw something up myself. Moving along the wall I see Eric by one of the chairs talking with what I’m guessing is the artist.
I stay out of sight and just watch as he pulls the black t-shirt over his head. When he sits back I notice the tattoos on his neck move down over his muscled chest and tight stomach. The tattoo artist begins to tattoo something on his left shoulder. I watch as his muscles tense as the needle runs across his skin. I stare as the flesh colored skin becomes black from the ink completely fascinated. I just wanted to run my hands over his already tattooed skin.
I close my eyes trying to get myself back under control and jump when I hear someone behind me
“You ready to go”, Christian asks.
“Yeah”, I glance back over my shoulder at Eric and see he’s watching me when I turn and follow Christian out. As we walk back to the room I ask him, “Will you stay around me when he’s near? I’ve never liked someone like this and I just don’t what to expect”.
“I’ll help you”, he replies. “We’ll see what happens. They said it was mostly rumors so maybe it’s not as bad as they say. We’ll just see how things go and maybe there’s a small chance you could work it out with him”.
When we get back to the room we shower quickly and get to bed to be ready for tomorrow. I fall asleep wondering if the rumors were true and I decide no matter how much I like him I have to protect myself from him until I know the truth.
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