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She Sleeps
By : bcullen1026
Category: Twilight Series > AU/AR
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Chapter 7
BPOV
By the time Matt showed up with my breakfast I had pulled myself together. I didn’t want him to see me so upset. I didn’t know how he would react and I wanted as little to do with Matt as possible. Although I knew that was impossible as he was almost solely responsible for my well being. When he opened the door and brought my food tray over to me I was huddled in the far corner or my bed. I didn’t want him to touch me. He either didn’t notice my reaction to seeing him or chose to ignore it. Either way he turned and left without speaking. As my door closed behind him I let out the breath I didn’t know I was holding. A least he was giving me some peace this morning.
I wasn’t hungry but I knew there would be consequences if I didn’t eat something so I forced some food down my throat. I didn’t know what Matt had planned for me today, but I could guess it would be worse than yesterday so when he came back I stayed as far away from him as I could. “What’s wrong Bella? You don’t need to be afraid of me. You know that.” He smiled when he said it. He sounded so genuine that if I didn’t have the entirely too vivid memory of yesterday I would have believed him. “Let’s go. You get to go back to the rec room today. I have some business to take care of so I won’t be around today, but the other orderlies know to keep an eye on you and I will be back before you go to bed tonight.”
The way he said it made me extremely uneasy, but I smiled a little when I realized that I had the whole day to myself. No looking over my shoulder and no huddling in the corner. Of course this meant that I couldn’t listen to my CD today, which hurt me more than it should, but there was always tomorrow. Wait was I looking forward to tomorrow? I giggled when I realized that I was looking forward to a day in the future. I hadn’t thought about anything other than the present and the past for over a month. It was strange and it was even stranger that I would probably have Matt to thank for that. Granted I hated him and he was a manipulative bastard, but he made me look forward rather than back and that was something I never would have accomplished on my own.
Matt was looking at me expectantly. I sighed and stood up to follow him. I knew that after hearing my lullaby, the piano would not hold the same meaning to me, but it was better than nothing.
When I entered the rec room, I looked around. There was no one at the piano yet and since I couldn’t play and sitting in silence didn’t seem like a good idea after yesterday I turned to the row of windows on the opposite side of the room. Matt stopped me with a hand on my shoulder before I took a step. I flinched and didn’t look at him. “Behave today Bella. Someone will be reporting back to me your behavior today. Don’t make me angry. You won’t like what I tell Dr. Thomas if I get angry.” He stopped and put a hand under my chin to turn my face to look at him. When I met his eyes they were dark and angry. “Is that understood?” I couldn’t speak so I just nodded. “Say it bitch!” He hissed at me, low enough that no one else heard.
“Yes sir.” He dropped his hand from my face and put the fake smile back on his face. No one even noticed the exchange between us. “Good girl. I will see you later tonight.” With that he turned and walked away with a look back. I shivered. I was even more worried about tonight, if that was possible. I sighed and put it out of my mind. I didn’t do any good to dwell on what was sure to happen. I turned back to the windows and went to sit in front of them. They were low enough that I could sit at a table and still see outside. It was dark and gloomy. A storm was coming. It seemed oddly appropriate.
I don’t know how long I sat there before I realized that I could see my reflection in the glass. I hadn’t seen myself since Edward left. I could think his name without totally incapacitating myself. It still hurt, but not as much as thinking about what Matt was going to do. I welcomed this pain. It made everything seem worth it somehow, knowing he was out there somewhere and happy. I was too thin and much paler then I was before. My eyes were dead, which was fitting since I felt dead on the inside. My hair was dull and ratty. It was longer than the last time I saw it too. It was strange, I felt like I had seen this face before, but I know I hadn’t looked in a mirror for over a month so I wasn’t seeing me.
As I sat thinking about where I had seen “me” before someone stepped in front of me and blocked my view. At first I was confused. No one ever pays attention to me. I wasn’t worth it. Confusion gave way to anger. I just wanted to be left alone. The anger faded quickly to fear. As I looked at her face, I gasped. I know where I had seen “my” face before. It was the girl, the very same one who sat in the corner by herself. She stood in front of me now and was almost unrecognizable. She looked alive and happy, something I definitely wasn’t, but I remember her face from before very clearly. It was why I felt like I knew her. She was me. Well not really but she looked exactly how I thought I would look, dead on the inside and frozen on the out.
“Hi. I’m Catherine. My friends call me Cat.” She smiled down at me. I just continued to stare. I wasn’t used to a stranger talking to me. When I didn’t say anything her smile slipped a little. “Are you ok? You look like you could use a friend, and I know what I am talking about.” I still couldn’t speak so I just nodded. She sat down next to me. “Look I don’t know what got you to where you are, but I know where you are. I can see it in your eyes. You’re confused about why I would talk to you and you are scared that I will hurt you. Well I am talking to you because you look like you could use someone to unload on and I won’t hurt you because I was where you are. I’m bipolar so I know what it’s like to go though the gauntlet of emotions.” She seemed like she meant every word she said, but I couldn’t be sure.
“I’m Bella.” I was still scrutinizing her face trying to see some ulterior motive behind her talking to me. She could be working for Matt. God now I sounded paranoid! She was right of course. I needed someone to talk to. Someone who wasn’t going to be analyzing everything I said and I certainly needed someone who wasn’t going to abuse me for making them angry. I needed an Angela. Thinking about my old friends brought on a new wave of pain. I missed them, well most of them. Angela, Ben, Mike, even Jessica. Lauren I could live without, but the others I missed. So I made a decision. I was going to just take it slow with Cat and find out if she was actually trustworthy.
“So Bella, care to tell me why you’re here? You don’t have to of course, but it helps to talk to someone who isn’t going to analyze everything you say. I should know since I have been here for about 6 months now.” She laughed, but it was darker than it should be, and it was laced with bitterness. She seemed too young to have a laugh like that. “How old are you?” I asked. I was suddenly very curious about this very forward girl.
She looked at me for a minute. “I’m 16. My dad died last year and my mother never fully recovered. She dumped me here 6 months ago. She wanted to travel and she didn’t want to take care of her extremely moody daughter anymore. Don’t get me wrong I love my mom, but she was never able to really take care of me. I was always a daddy’s girl. When he died, I just didn’t want to deal with anything anymore. I wasn’t suicidal or anything, but my mood would change drastically over the smallest things. I couldn’t figure it out, but I was working on it. And then my mother brings me here and tells me she wants to travel and that this place will make me better. She said it would only be for a few weeks then she would be back and we would be happy again. Needless to say she didn’t come back and no one can find her, so I am stuck here until I turn 18.”
I was so engrossed with her story that the sudden silence surprised me. “Don’t you have any other family to go to?” I asked. She sighed. “No, both my parents were only children and their parents died when I was younger. So I am technically a ward of the state since my mother is MIA. And since she checked me in I can’t check myself out until I am 18. The doctors can’t even send me to the foster system since she was the one to sign the papers to get me in here.” She looked sad and I was sorry I had brought it up. “I’m so sorry.” I knew it wasn’t even close to being enough, but it was all I could offer at the moment.
She smiled at me again. “It’s not so bad though. Dr. Ashley is nice and Molly, my orderly, is like a second mother. Plus I turn 17 next week so I am down to one year left.” She paused and looked in my eyes. “Please don’t feel sorry for me. I wasn’t telling you all this to make you feel guilty. I just want you to trust me. And I know trust has to be earned so I figure if I share enough, you will feel comfortable enough to tell me your story.” She stopped talking and just looked at me.
I was astonished that she was so open about what happened to her. And she seemed lighter, happier that I knew. I wanted that feeling. I wanted to get to the point where it didn’t hurt to think about Edward and the whole Cullen family. I doubted it would ever happen, but I wanted to try, for Charlie’s sake if not my own. I opened my mouth to tell her my story, but before I could say a word a matronly looking woman appeared behind Cat. “Cat dear, it’s time for your meeting with Dr. Ashley.” She looked at me for the first time. “Oh, who’s your friend?” She smiled at me.
“Molly, this is Bella. Bella, Molly.” I kept looking between them. I could tell that Cat felt very comfortable around Molly and Molly really cared about what happened to Cat. “Well it’s a pleasure to meet you Bella, but we really must be going.” Cat stood up “See you later?” She was really giving me a choice about whether I wanted to see her again. “I’ll be here all day.” Cat smiled a brilliant smile. “Bye Bella!” She called as she followed Molly out the door. It caused people to turn in my direction and see what was going on. I sank down into my chair and turned back to the window. All I could think about was what I was going to tell Cat when she got back.
APOV
I was going to kill Edward. How could he be so stupid?! Didn’t he know that he and Bella belonged together?! How could he think leaving was a good idea? I missed my sister and best friend, but a promise is a promise and I did promise that I wouldn’t look into her future anymore. I wondered if she missed us or is she just moved on like Edward told her too? Thinking about Edward made me angry again. Not only did he make this stupid choice, but then he goes and leaves. He broke Bella’s heart and at the same time he broke this family. Even Rose who never really liked Bella is upset that we had to leave. I felt a wave of calm pour over me. I sighed. Poor Jasper we were all driving him crazy with the rollercoaster of emotion. Immediately I looked around for him. He was leaning against the wall across the room from me. The rest of the family had gone hunting and he decided to stay behind to get some peace and quiet and here I was making it worse.
“Sorry baby. I know you must be going crazy. I’ll try harder. Promise.” I smiled at him. He crossed the room and knelt in front of me at vampire speed. “Don’t ever apologize for your feelings Alice. It’s what makes you you. I know you miss her. We all do. I should know.” He grinned and I had to laugh. It felt good. It felt right, and it made Jasper’s grin get even bigger. I made myself a promise that I was going to try and laugh more, but it would be hard. Jasper leaned forward and touched his lips to mine. “We will get through this. All of us.” I sighed and he kissed me again, harder and with more energy this time. I leaned into him and all thoughts of our family crisis left me, which was of course his intention. He knew me too well.
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She Sleeps	By : bcullen1026 Category: Twilight Series > AU/AR Views: 5823 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or make any money from this story.

She Sleeps