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Delusions	By : brokenpromises Category: Twilight Series > AU/AR > Het > Het Views: 2167 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter List
- 1-Delusions
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Dad,

He wanted me. He was beautiful and he wanted me. I couldn’t comprehend this fact, so I kept repeating it to myself.

“You are so beautiful; I don’t think you see yourself clearly. Almost every boy you come across lusts after you.” Edward whispered into my ear.

“The only boy I see though is you.” I could feel the blush creep up my cheeks.

*Flashback*
Edward was different than any other person I had ever met. His entire family was. They were extraordinarily beautiful and smart. They had an air about them that just made you want to worship them and do their biddings. Yet, they never acted superiorly to anyone. Yes, they kept to themselves, but they never acted rudely.

Alice, Edward’s twin sister, was the most bubbly and happy person to exist. She is how I met Edward. We had an English class together and were paired for a project. I went to her house and we were working on our presentation when I saw him. It was an analysis on my favorite book, Wuthering Heights. As we were working he came down. Cheerfully, he greeted Alice and then introduced himself. Being my normal clumsy, geeky, self I mumbled my name and turned bright red. He continued on to the kitchen and Alice and I returned our attention to the project.

The next day in Alice invited me over again to work on our project. I would have accepted said invitation either way ,but was more eager to get over to her house so I could see Edward again. School came and went as normal. I headed over to Alice’s house. We started working on our project when Alice’s boyfriend Jasper called. She started to look upset and excused herself from the room. So, I just sat there skimming through my favorite parts of Wuthering Heights when I heard him enter.

“Bella, right?” I nodded, not turning my face to him because my traitor blush was presenting itself. He sat down next to me and started talking. That was when Edward I first started to become friends.
*End Flashback*

I gasped in shock as I felt Edward’s warm lips come into contact with my neck. They felt so good there. He pulled back his teeth and gently started nipping at my neck. I couldn’t take it anymore, I turned around and placed my hands in his hair to pull his lips to mine.

Our lips moved out of sync, but I could still taste him so I was happy. He tentatively slid his hand from my waist down to my hips and further back to butt. He gave it a gentle squeeze pulling my body closer to him as he did. I squeaked at his actions and he chuckled into my mouth.

“Is this not okay? Do you want me to stop?” I answered his question by pulling his face down to mine again only this time I kissed him hard. I wanted him to know how badly I had wanted him. Thankfully he got the hint.

He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his back. Slowly Edward started moving us to him bed. He gently laid me and climbed on top of me, resting on his elbows as to not let me feel any of his weight.

“Bella” he murmured and I looked into his hooded eyes. His eyes were so piercing and gorgeous. I felt myself getting wetter just by looking into them.

*Flashback*
Alice and I finished our project that week, but I kept visiting her house. Edward and I started sitting together at school and occasionally Alice and Emmett, Edward’s brother, would join us too. At one particular lunch period Edward and I were sitting by ourselves talking when he got a very serious look on his face.

“Edward, what’s wrong? You got so serious all of a sudden.” I asked

“Nothing, Bella, don’t worry about.” He smiled at me as he combed his fingers through his bronze colored hair. I knew from Alice that he was either lying or nervous. He had to no reason to be nervous so I knew he was lying.

“I can tell you are lying to me. Please just tell me, I won’t tell anyone else.” I implored.

“Really, I’m okay. Hey do you wanna skip the rest of today and go somewhere with me.” He gave me his sexy half smirk and placed his other hand on mine. Woah, what’s going on here? He couldn’t look me in the eye as he asked.

“I’m not sure that’s a good idea.” Edward looked so dejected. Shit, I hate making him look like that so I tried to save myself. “What if we get caught?”

“I promise we won’t. I really just want to spend some time alone with you. Please come with me.” This time he moved his hand from mine as wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

“Edward, we’re spending time alone right now.” I shook his arm off as I replied.

“Will you stop being so difficult?” Edward looked sort of hurt. “I just want to show you this cool spot I found when I was wondering behind my house and I don’t want Alice or Emmett to find it.”

“Fine, then let’s go.” Edward was acting weird and I wanted to know why.

We snuck of campus and he drove us to his house. We didn’t go in though. He took me around the back and we started walking. Finally, after tripping and be caught by Edward 4 different times, we came to a meadow. It was beautiful.
*End Flashback*

God, I wanted him so bad. I craned my neck upwards to kiss Edward. He leaned his neck down in return and pressed his tongue to my lips asking for access into my mouth. Happily, I granted his wish. His kiss was so passionate that I moaned into his mouth.

He pulled away and started kissing down my neck. Suddenly he broke away from me and tugged at the bottom of my shirt. Realizing what he wanted I sat up and let him remove my shirt. His hands slithered around my back and unclasped my bra, freeing my breasts. Edward pushed me back down to the bed and started palming my breasts. I sighed and pushed my boobs into his hands. Then, I realized he was still fully clothed and that was not okay. I slid my hands from his hair down to the bottom of his shirt and pushed up. Taking the hint he removed his shirt and placed his mouth on my right nipple. It was such a sweet feeling.

“Please Edward” I begged.

“Please what, Bella? He teased.

“I want….” I couldn’t finish my sentence as he bit down on my nipple. I tried again. “I want more.” I was able to say out loud as he moved his attention to my other nipple.

“Is this what you want?” He asked as he moved his hand lower down my body stopping at the bottom of my stomach. I nodded and he continued. “How about this?” His hand cupped my jean covered sex. I moaned loudly and he laughed.

I saw how he wanted to play. So, without warning I placed my hand over his obviously hard cock and he inhaled deeply. I grinned up at him “Is something wrong handsome?”

He knew what I was up to and removed both of our hands. He snuggled down in between my legs and started rubbing against. The friction was electric. I couldn’t begin to image what it would feel like to have him inside of me.

*Flashback*
“Oh my God, Edward, this place is beautiful” I stammered

“Not as beautiful as you” He replied closing the distance between us.

“What?” He couldn’t have said that. Every girl I knew wanted him and he never paid them any mind. Why would he talk to me like that?

“I think you heard me Bella.” He smirked. Damn that sexy smirk. He somehow managed to pull me into a hug without me noticing. “Bella?”

“Edward…”

“May I kiss you?” I nodded and he lowered his head to kiss me. His lips touched mine and it was the single best experience I have ever had. I kissed him back with fervor, sliding my tongue along his lips. Much too soon he pulled away and just looked down at me. “I have wanted to kiss you since I first saw you.”

“Then you should do it some more to make up for all the kisses you haven’t given me since first sight.” I giggled in reply.

He wasted no time in kissing me again. Our kisses grew more passionate. Soon he was lying on top of me grinding his hard sex against mine and it was fabulous.

“Edward” I panted. “Can we go back to your house?” I hoped he noticed that I wanted to go back to his house because I wanted more.

We entered his house. He shut the door behind him. “You are so beautiful. I want you so bad right now.” I turned my back to him.

“Why? You can have anyone? Why me?” I couldn’t look into his eyes I was waiting for him to start laughing at me and yell out just kidding. Instead he didn’t laugh he just sighed and wrapped his arms around me waist from behind.

“You are so beautiful; I don’t think you see yourself clearly. Almost every boy you come across lusts after you.” Edward whispered into my ear.

“The only boy I see though is you.” I could feel the blush creep up my cheeks.
*End Flashback*

I pushed Edward away from my person. He looked confused. I didn’t say anything how and just reach to unbuckle his belt. Of course, I couldn’t get it. He chuckled and unbuckled it himself. I, however, wanted to finish undressing him so I shoved his hands away and started to unbutton his pants. Edward gasped as I pushed down both his boxers and his pants. I don’t think he was expecting me to do that.

He rolled off me and onto his side. He started kissing my mouth again as I felt his hand start to unbutton my pants. Soon I was just as naked as he was. Edward looked into my eyes asking for permission to touch. I nodded and he slipped a hand in between my thighs.

“Bella” he half moaned, half gasped. “You’re so fucking wet for me.” He continued petting my sex paying special attention to my clit. All of a sudden his pinched it and I arched my back while moaning his name. “You like that? You like when I play with your sensitive mound? Such a naughty girl.” I couldn’t reply so I just tried to rub my overworked nub into his palm.

He pulled his hand away from me and I whimpered at the loss. Needing to feel him I reached for his penis. It felt so thick in my hand. I started stroking him up and down his long length. I collected the pre-cum that leaked from the tip of his penis and used it as lube to smooth the strokes. “Bella, that feels so good.” He moaned.

I felt his hand back at my sex and a finger at my entrance. He slowly pushed in and I moaned. Slowly he started moving in and out of me and I stroked him at the same rhythm. Our pace started moving faster and Edward started grunting. He used a second finger. “Bella you’re so tight, I can barely fit a second finger in there.”

“Edward, I’ve never done this with anyone else.” Shocked Edward removed his hand and looked at me.

“If you don’t want to do this we don’t have to. Just tell me.” Oh hell no. I have the hottest guy lying naked next to me. I wanted to go all the way with him and I told him so.

“Edward, I want to do this. I want you to fuck me. I don’t care if my first time is special or not.” He looked at me and then I noticed his eyes showed several different emotions before becoming hooded again. “Please Edward, fuck my virgin pussy.” I begged him.

“It’s going to hurt. Are you sure?” He asked. I nodded and he gave me a kiss.

He rolled on a condom and positioned himself in between my legs. I felt his head at my entrance. Slowly he began to push in. I felt him at my wall. He looked at me and I pushed my hips up forcing him to tear my hymen.

I winced and shut my eyes tightly. Edward didn’t move. He was letting me adjust to his size. Experimentally, I moved my hips back and then forward again. It hurt, but felt good at the same time. Edward then started to move slowly. “God… uhh… God… So fucking tight… So good…” Edward panted as he thrust into me over and over again. I felt the coiling in my stomach and I knew I was about to experience my first orgasm. Edward must have noticed my withering beneath him and he started moving faster.

My orgasm hit me like a ton of bricks and I started screaming his name. My muscles started milking his thick cock and he yelled my name as he came inside me. Edward rolled off of me and rested next to me as we both caught our breath.

I waited until our breathing became even before speaking.

“Edward, what does this make us?” I was rubbing circles on his chest as I asked him.

“Nothing, Bella” He removed my hand. “You’re just like the rest of them. It was too easy.”

I just stared at him in shock

“I know I am hot and I don’t want someone who wants to bed me the second I offer them an opening. You’re worse than most. You gave me your virginity and you haven’t even known me for two weeks. Slut” I started crying at that point. I couldn’t believe the words coming out of his mouth.

“Please Edward, don’t do this.” I cried

“Bella, I was just playing along with your delusions about us. I knew from the second I saw that blush on your cheeks when I said hi to you that you would be an easy fuck. I let you believe what you wanted, I let you believe your delusions. Like you would ever be anything more than a fuck to me.”

Quickly, I climbed out of bed. Scrambled to get my clothes on and ran out of the house. Edward had used me and I felt so stupid. I feel so stupid.

I am sorry, I am whore. I am worthless and nothing. I am sorry dad. This is why I did it. Edward is why I did it. I have shamed us and I am sorry. It was all a delusion, he never wanted me. You deserve a better daughter. I’ll be at La Push beach, the water should wash me up at some point.

Love you always,

Bella
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