I Should Have Gone To Rehab | By : selfproclaimedbeauty05 Category: Twilight Series > AU/AR > Slash Views: 4082 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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I do not own nor do I make profit off the characters of The Twilight Series or this story.
Okay, this is my first Twilight fan fiction. I got the idea from this story from a song. Music always brings new and twist ideas to me. This story is taking place at the first book. Jacob and Edward have been together secretly for a year. The only ones that knows about the affair are the Cullens. Alice has a clue or vision what is going to happen but doesn’t reveal anything. But okay guys here it is. I hope you enjoy.
I SHOULD HAVE GONE TO REHAB
Chapter One: Stupid in Love
This feeling of complete and utter dread is eating at me. I have no clue why but I feel as though my boyfriend is cheating on me. I don’t know if it is true or if I am going fucking insane. I feel the distance he is putting between us. I feel the slight tinge of annoyance comes from him whenever I am around him. I say, I love you and all I get is, Me too. That is when the chest pains start. Everyday that he doesn’t say I love you, I feel myself slowly dying.
I know our relationship is very hard on both of us. I couldn’t tell my family that I was gay. I also had to hide that fact who my boyfriend is. He is suppose to be my enemy. To make matters more complicated he is also a vampire. Edward Cullen was my enemy because he was a vampire. I am a werewolf or a shifter. We are suppose to hate each other. But I couldn’t hate him or his family. I didn’t fall in love with him right away. But when I did fall in love with him, I fell fucking hard. I would do anything for him. I would abandon my family and friends just for him. I was risking my life for our relationship. I could be banished from my tribe and pack if anyone found out. Hell, I knew he didn’t want to be kept in the dark, but I didn’t have a choice. He knew the circumstances when we started this forbidden love affair. He knew that he had to wait for me. I mean damn, it is not like we were going to die anytime soon. We are immortal. I just couldn’t leave yet. I wanted to finish school and wait until I turned 18 to take off with him. We agree to these terms. But now it feels as though our plans are falling through.
I hate being jealous or suspicious of him. When I question him about her, he just brushes it off. He says that she is just a friend. He liked her because he couldn’t read her mind. I felt another stab of jealous at that thought. We started have a lot of fights because of my mistrust or questioning. I didn’t want to argue with him but I knew he wasn’t telling me the truth.
I am getting constant headaches because of the fighting. I don’t know if I am pushing him away or if he is just pushing away willingly. I don’t know the person I love anyone. Edward never acted like this before. We have been together for a year. The passion in his eyes that he use to have for me is fading. The little touches he would place on my body whenever I was in his presence have ceased. He doesn’t run his fingers through my hair or over my lips before he kisses me. We barely make love anymore. I use to spend the night over his house on the weekends. Now all he does is ask for a rain check because he is hunting or busy.
This shit has been going on for the last month. It also has been one month since that bitch has come into town. One month since school started and one month since he saved her fucking life. She goes to school with him and just so happens to have all her classes with him. To make matters worst, she is my dad’s best friend’s daughter. I have known her since we were kids and I thought she was a klutz. Within the five minutes of meeting her, she threw a rock at me. She called me a spaz and took off running. She later told her dad that I threw a rock at her. I got in trouble by my dad and was made to apologize to her for no reason. I was irritated by her back then and still was now. Even her mindless conversation annoyed me. Also the way she smelt made my nose burn and itch for some reason. I have never been annoyed by anyone’s scent before. At least not until I met her. She smelt like the cheap knock off candles at Walgreens. The one that was suppose to smell like baked sugar cookies but had so much dust caked on top that one whiff made you cough and grasp for air. She smelt like that every since we were kids and force to play together. After that day, I vowed to stay away from her.
After I completely forgotten about Isabella Swan, she popped back into my life. She moved to Forks to live with her dad for good. My dad tried to get me to go see her. But I refused. My dad was of course disappointed that I didn’t show interest in her. But I would never like her or love her. I love Edward. He was the only thing that mattered to me. I didn’t want anyone or anything else but him.
But just after she arrived that is when everything change. It all started when Edward’s phone rang. We had just had sex, well more like Edward had sex. He came and was now giving me the best blow job ever. Right when I was ready to cum his phone went off. He was angry at first because he knew I was close. I was angry because I had to hurry and get home. Not only was it a school night but I had to patrol tonight.
“Ignore it.“
“I can’t, it might be something important. It might be Carlisle.” I sighed in disappointment and turned over to let him answer the phone. Once he reach for the phone and saw who it was, his expression changed. A smile came to his face. It was the smile that always lit up his eyes. The smile that you could tell was genuine and heartfelt. Before he answered the phone, he got dress and left the room. There I was lying naked in his bed and he just left me unsatisfied to talk on the phone. I was really irritated for obvious reasons but I was more disturbed by that smile. He only smiled at me like that. He smiled like that right before he kissed my breath away. That smile made me weak in the knees. I fell in love with him because of that smile. After twenty minutes of lying in his bed bored. I got dress and decided it was time for me to go home. It was a school night and I had lied to my dad. I told him I had a report that I needed to do research for and that I was going to Forks. Only because they had better libraries. I also had to go home to get in the shower and wash Edward’s scent off me before I did patrols tonight. I couldn’t have my pack smelling him on me. It was starting to get easy to block certain thoughts from my pack. Edward taught me how to build mental blocks up. That was really how I kept our relationship secret for so long.
I went looking for Edward and he was nowhere to be found in the house. So, I decided to look outside. Once I got out to the porch. I notice my dad’s old truck outside in the driveway. We had sold the truck to Charlie, Bella’s dad.
I was thinking why is Bella here? Once I stepped off the porch, I noticed that Bella was sitting inside the truck with…Edward. And from what I could tell, they were having a very good conversation. Edward was doing the smile. My heart skipped a few beats. I walked over to the truck and tapped the window gently. Edward looked a bit startled. He must have been really distracted with the conversation, because he didn’t even notice me walking to the car.
They both got out of the car. Edward wrapped his arms around me and pecked me on the lips.
“Jacob, sorry I didn’t see you coming up. You scared me.” He smile and kissed me again. But this time I deepen the kiss. My hungry for him still was unsatisfied considering how he left me. He moaned lightly into the kiss. I tried to kiss him harder until Bella clear her throat. Bitch!
“Sorry, to interrupted guys but I think I am going to get going. Hey Jake how is going?” She was now blushing and looked a bit uncomfortable. She didn’t know I was gay. Not even my own family knew.
“Hey Bella.” I said with no expression on my face. I could feel that Bella didn’t like the idea of Edward being with me. Or even being gay. I could tell that she felt he deserved someone else. I just hoped and prayed that Edward would never believe that.
“Okay, Bella. I will see you tomorrow at school. ” Edward said while he detached himself from me. He had a slight frown on his face. I felt sick when he let me go. I for the first time felt like Edward didn’t belong to me. Like he was somehow untouchable. It was like I lost some part of him when I saw him get a little disappointed at the thought of her leaving.
“Bye, Edward….and Jacob.” She got in her truck and took off. I watched her drive away with a glare.
“Jacob are you leaving? ” Edward was now looking at me with a hint of irritation.
“Yeah, I am leaving. I was just coming to tell you. What were you guys talking about?” I asked with a raise eyebrow.
“Nothing in particular. She was bored and wanted to talk to someone.” The wasn’t even the slightest hint of a possible lie leaving his lips.
“Oh, I see.”
“You aren’t upset are you? I know Bella and you aren’t the best of friends.”
“Why would I be upset and how did you know? I mean how did you know I didn’t get along with her?”
“She told me once, I told her about my amazing boyfriend.” He was now smiling at me. I went weak in the knees suddenly. He could smell my arousal and wrapped his arms around my waist. I wrapped my arms around his neck and inhaled his scent deeply. For some reason his scent reminded me of chocolate and peppermint. I was totally intoxicated by it.
“Are you going to come and see me tonight during patrols?”
“Yes of course I will. Why wouldn‘t I?” He gave me his infamous smirk and kissed me gently goodbye. That was the last time I saw him that night. When it was time for him to meet me. He never showed up. He told me that he forgot he made plans with Jasper. Of course a part of me didn’t believe him. The other part told me that Edward would never lie to you. He wanted to still be with me and I was the only thing that matter. But every since that night, Edward has been a different man.
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Two Months Later…..
I am finally cracking on the inside. I decided tonight was the night I was going to confront Edward about the bitch named Bella. I was tired of hearing the rumors or gossip. People at the reservation have been talking about the leech who is showing interested in the Police Chief’s Daughter. I knew they were talking about Edward. I had to play dumb every time I hear about them.
The first time I heard about them being together, someone spotted them at a restaurant in Port Angeles. Then supposedly they were always together in school. He had even been spotted at her house a few times by my dad. Then of course he had saved her life, which nearly exposed he was a vampire. When I asked him if she knew, he said that she didn’t know. He said he would make sure she didn’t know. Whatever that meant, I don’t know. But I guess every since that day they have become the talk of the town.
I was fed up. If he didn’t want me anymore he could have just told me. But to go behind my back and do god knows what with that slut….It hurts. He has been avoiding me more. We have be constantly fighting. It even got so bad one time that we didn’t talk to each other for three weeks straight. Those were the worst three weeks of my life. I barely ate and sleeping wasn’t even an option.
That is why I am now flying down the road to get to the Cullen’s house. I don’t know if Edward is there or not. He hasn’t been answering the phone all day. It just goes straight to his voicemail. It is not like him to have his phone off. He must be up to no good.
Once I got to his house, I immediately knew something was wrong when I saw Alice.
I hopped out of my rabbit and walked quickly to the pixie.
“What did you see, Alice?” I asked her very sharply, so she knew I wasn’t in the mood for games. I was getting scared and angry at once. What if she had a vision of them together? What if everything I was imagining was real? Would I be prepared to lose him? Could I let him go? Would I be able to get over him? Edward was the only person I loved more than my dad. I couldn’t lose him not now. I felt my body beginning to tremble from all the questions going through my head. It felt as if I was going to phase any minute.
“Jacob, are you okay. I just knew you were on your way and I was meeting you outside. Edward is with Jasper hunting. They will be back in a hour.” Alice said to me with a slight smile or her face. I wasn’t exactly convince but I knew Alice wouldn’t lie to me. I instantly felt guilt hit me. Here I was assuming that he was with Bella when he was with his brother. I felt dumb. I even felt like a jealous school girl. I hate how I felt in every aspect. I hate how I am not trusting him. How I am letting people put nonsense in my head. Edward would never hurt me or leave me for someone else. All the small things that have been going through my head about Edward cheating where gone immediately. I just know, that I love him. I just need answers. I want to know what is true and if he still loved me at all.
“Sorry, I just think I am losing my mind.” I relax a bit. I didn’t even realize how tense I was, until I relaxed. But unfortunately my body was still trembling a bit.
“Do you want to talk about it, Jacob?” Alice asked me with concern in her voice. I already knew that was coming.
“No, I am fine. It is nothing that I can’t handle on my own. I will just wait in Edward’s room.” I went inside leaving Alice to her thoughts. Once I got inside the house I didn’t even stop and talk to anyone. I went straight to Edward’s room and threw myself on his bed. I buried my face into Edward’s pillow. I needed to smell him. His scent always calmed me. The sweet yet refreshing smell was cool like his skin. My body was addicted to it. Once I inhaled, something was terrible off about the scent.
“What the fuck?” My nose was hit with a very familiar and annoying scent . My nose felt itchy and burned all at once. I knew this scent . It wasn’t my Edward’s scent I was smelling. It was Bella’s.
I felt my heart stop. I even stopped breathing. I felt like I was having anxious attack. I leaped from the bed and just stared at it in disbelief. An image of Edward and her on the bed filled my mind. They were doing everything that Edward and I did. Kissing, hugging, touching, and e…even fucking.
Why would he let her come inside the house, let alone his bedroom? He had her in our bed. The same bed he took my virginity. The same bed that we declared how much we loved each other. We planned are whole lives here. This was our special place and nobody else. I couldn’t stop. My breathe was getting shorter. I felt like I was going to faint. Just as I felt myself slipping. I felt something cold on my shoulder. I snapped out of my mental breakdown quick. I turn my head towards the sensation on my shoulder. It was Edward. He had a look of dread upon his face. I knew from the look he gave me that I was right the whole FUCKING time.
“Jacob, we need to talk.”
That is when my world fell apart.
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