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The Blessed One	By : InnocentLittleFlower Category: Twilight Series > Het Views: 2944 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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A/N: here it is Jacob’s POV of that wonderful night. The only reason why I have been able to get this out is because a sinus cold from hell which is keeping me from class and working on finals. Which has given me an idea though for a future chapter so be looking out for that but it won’t be for a while a few other things are planned before that. Don’t know when the next chapter will be up it is final season for me so I have a lot of all day shoots coming up so won’t have time to write but be my patient supportive fans that I love and I will get it to you as soon as possible.

Also if any of you are on DA I now have a group dedicated to our lovely boys the name is the group is Team Wolf Pack. All artistic fandoms are welcome to join spread the word if you could.

I lay in my bed staring up at the ceiling. Sam had given me and Jared the night off while he and Emily went out for the anniversary. Leavening Natalie home alone I really didn’t like that. We knew there were at least two blood suckers in the area and Sam just left Natalie home alone without batting an eye. That same aching pull entered and bedded its self in my chest. For a week no one but Natalie filled my thoughts and not being able to see her see for myself she was okay was driving me insane. Sam had told me just give her some time alone but how much time. If I didn’t see her soon I was going to lose it. I slammed a fist against my mattress standing up. I’ll just go over peek in through a window that’s it just to see for myself that she was okay then I would be fine and could get some sleep tonight.

I stood up pulling on my shorts and headed out the door telling my dad I was just going out for some fresh air. With my hands stuffed in my pockets I made my way down the road heading for Natalie’s. When I got there most of the lights were on that calmed my racing heart. I stood at the edge of the lawn looking through a window it was her bedroom. She stood with her back to the window as she stood in front of her dresser pulling her hair into a pony tail. I had never been in her room and from here it looked more girly than I expected. I felt a soft smile creep across my lips as she turned around her hair tied up out of her face and her glasses sat there on her noise even though her glasses hid her beautiful eyes I always though she looked cute with them. Before I realized it my feet were taking me to the front door and without my permission my hand knocked on her door. I heard her soft footsteps as she walked to the door. It slowly opened and I felt like I had been sucker punched in the chest. The long distance view I had hadn’t done her nay justice. Her neat straight hair hung behind her head as a long sleeved fitted shirt hugged her torso leavening a small space of skin between her shirt and the baggy flannel pajama pants that hung low on her hips. With her glasses resting on her noise there was not a better definition for perfection than the girl who stood in front of me right now.

Her voice snapped me from my thoughts “Ummm Jacob Sam’s not home tonight remember”

“Yeah I know I just I had to see you Natalie” I said it was the truth I had to other wise I would have gone crazy.

“I’ve been going mad not seeing you” I added

“Jacob…” she began but I couldn’t let her turn me away.

“Please just let me stay for a little bit I’ve been thinking and I want to talk.” I said maybe if I told her I had thought about everything she would be willing to listen.

She sighed before walking away from the door “Have you eaten?”

My chest swelled with happiness she was going to let me stay I closed the door as I walked in “no”

I followed her into the kitchen watching her hips as they swayed when she walked. She was always so graceful even when she walked. I walked over to the table and sat down as she started to prepare something. The aroma filled the air once she opened the bowl it was the beef stew Emily had cooked a few days ago.

“mmm Emilie’s Beef stew” I smiled

“Actually it’s my recipe” she said as she turned some to look at me out of the corner of her eye.

She did it again she took my breath away. That soft gentle look in her eye and he soft voice, the way she looked standing there heating up the left over’s I could see her one day in a house we owned making dinner for us possibly even our family. I could see a future with Natalie.
“Really I assumed it was hers since she was the one cooking it.” I replied

“It’s hard for me to cook and get around with my cast” she said turning back around to stir the stew.

Everything was quite while she cooked I just as there admiring here wishing this moment wouldn’t end. Once she had finished she filed a small bowl and then a large bowl with the stew and brought it over to the table she sat the large bowl in front of me and then took a seat across the table and began to eat. I took a few bites thinking about how to start the conversation.

“I thought a lot about what you said the other day Natalie” I said moving pieces of meat around in my bowl

“Your right I can’t keep my promise to both of you without hurting one of you. Do I care about Bella yes do I care about you most defiantly this whole week without you I found out that I can’t be without you. It’s physically impossible I found myself becoming panicked and upset that I couldn’t see you. It was like I was missing a part of me.” I began to explain maybe if I was honest with how I felt we might be able to figure out a happy medium for all of us.

“By realizing that though I think I can kind of sympathize with Bella on how she feels about her blood sucker.” I continued I looked up at Natalie to see how she was taking it. She sat there staring down at her stew her eyes had a hard time deciding on what emotion to display.

“Jacob I’m not asking you to leave Bella” she said softly

“I know and I’m not but knowing what it feels like I can’t leave her but the night I transformed she also pretty much told me that she didn’t like me that way, I told her I was prepared to be as persistent as I could be in order to get her to love me. I don’t know if I’m still willing to put up that fight now that I feel the way I do about you Natalie but I do know one thing I can’t leave her vulnerable to the blood suckers” I said. I knew whether Bella was my friend or girlfriend I was not going to leave her out there to but hurt like that again.

“I’m not going to sit here and lie and tell you that I don’t love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you while I still have these feelings for Bella but I just want you to be there…”I continued putting as much feeling into my words as I could hoping she would understand that I needed her. I saw the emotions play across her eyes she was struggling to keep it together.

She stood up taking her empty bowl to the sink and placing it in. She was gripping the counters so hard her knuckles where turning white I was half expecting the counter to splinter at any moment. Natalie had more strength than a normal human but wasn’t quite up to pair to us but she could do damage if she wanted to.

I got up and walked over to her gently placing my hand on her shoulder and turned her around so she faced me.

“Be there so I can make you smile so I can see the life in your eyes again. Be there so neither one of us has to feel this aching pull at our chest when we aren’t near each other.” I said placing one of hands on her cheek staring into those emotional eyes that first drew me to her it were those eyes that made me fall in love with her in the first place.

She leaned into my palm and placed her soft silky hands over mine “I don’t know if I’m strong enough to stand by and just watch Jacob that ach you have felt while I’ve been hiding it doubles when I see the way you look at her. What’s worse is knowing why that ach is there and knowing how to make it stop but not being able to do anything about it.” Her words were soft and gentle but filled with uncertainty

“Is it that imprinting thing I’ve heard Paul and Embry talking about?” I asked

She nodded softly as a tear slipped from her eye lashes “We believe I’m supposed to be your imprint that’s why you get so protective of me when you feel there is a threat and why you feel that ach when I’m not around but for some reason it’s like your imprint got stuck hung up…” she began to explain

“You have a theory on why don’t you” I said softly

“We think it’s because of your feelings for Bella it’s almost like the imprint can’t complete until you are fully able to let go of those feelings. I know it will happen one day I just don’t know when.” she replied the pain all to evident in her words she knew I would wind up back to her no matter what but she for all she knew it could be years down the road.

“I’m sorry Natalie” Jacob said I wanted to hit myself this was no one’s fault but my own my fault for having such strong feelings for Bella and it was causing her so much emotional and physical pain at the same time.

She shook her head opening her eyes looking up at me “Don’t be its nothing any of us can control. It hurts to admit that because I want so bad to blame someone but I know it’s out of everyone’s hands we can’t do anything we just have to let things take their course”

Oh course she didn’t blame anyone she was to nice to place blame where it didn’t blond no matter how much she wanted to. Something told me I knew exactly who she wanted to place the blame on this normally probably would have angered me but I could understand why. After everything she had been through with her parents she finally found someone she felt someone she could confide in and be herself I had allowed her to bring down that wall then Bella came and took that away from her.

“I’ll do my best to be there for you Natalie to reassure you I promise you I won’t leave you and ill figure out how to fix all this” I said hoping to prove to her I wouldn’t leave again.

She took a deep breath “I’ll be there Jacob but let me go if it get to be too much just let me go”

I nodded and pulled her to me hugging her close I had to agree to that if I didn’t I might lose her all together and I couldn’t handle that “I promise Natalie ill find a way to make all of this work”

She held onto I could still feel the last of her tears falling from her lashes onto my warm skin. For now I didn’t mind because all that mattered was that I had her back she was in my arms where everything felt right for the first time in a while Bella was nowhere close to my thoughts it was nothing but Natalie and I.
Later that night we found ourselves on the couch just talking. I had asked what I had missed after Embry had phased for the first time she told me I missed her birthday it had passed on Valentine’s Day and she was now seventeen. I would defiantly have to make it up to her. I got confused when she suddenly got up and ran off to her bedroom when she came back she sat in front of me again and held out a necklace. It was almost identical to the one she wore it had the same color jasper beads as my coat along with the howlite and hairpipe beads and spacers.

“Consider it a late birthday gift” she smiled

“The other guys have one of these” I said I had noticed them at the New Year’s bon fire all of them including her had been wearing one

“Yeah I made them Emily has one two that matches Sam’s I coordinate the jasper to go with the fur coats and the imprints will get matching ones I made yours this week while I was hiding.” she said

I put it on and smiled. I would treasure it until the end of time no one would be able to pry it from my cold dead hands.

“I’m going to tell you the same thing I told the others take them off before you phase or ill have to charge you for repairs” she said with a smile

“Thank you Natalie” I said

I slowly brought his lips to her being more gentle with this kiss I was more assured than the last time I had kissed her and this time I felt her respond. I wrapped my arms around her gently pulling her closer as I laid back onto the couch bringing her with me pulled me close lying back on the couch with me things didn’t go past that kiss but I was just happy to fall asleep with Natalie safely tucked in my arms her slow cool breath brushing across my skin as she fell asleep on top of me.
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